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Hello everyone, well, here i go another rant. I HATE this disease and it is the only thought inside my head every single day, affecting everything i do, what i do, etc, to make it even worse, when i go onto facebook, one of the few things i do, do now, because i hate going outside looking like a monster, i have this one model bitch in particular that really annoys me with her stupid stupid statuses, always along the lines of 'everything happens for a reason, oh god has his plans' *Moderator edit*, i always notice its only the people with good lives that write that crap, i have been filled with even more rage than usual the past few days, all because of my acne, and this has easily been one of the worst weeks of my life, first, acne obviously, dampens my mood before i even go out, so im already in a bad/low/no self esteem mood, found out that my family had booked a holiday, and the first thing i thought was, oh no, im going to look like a freak and not be able to stay in, but after thinking, fuck it, on this occasion and just deciding that i wanted to go with my family, even though i look a disgrace, so i ask for the week holiday in work to be told no, meaning = even lower mood/more rage/ driving home, stuck in massive amounts of traffic = even more rage, car has to go into the garage = dangerously high level of rage, wake up this morning with one of those massive under the skin spots between like, the corner of your nose and eyebrow = rage level critical, i am literally a few more steps away from a complete mental breakdown *Moderator edit* i'm only 19 but from what i've seen so far i fucking hate this world, whats the point in being a good person, when i don't get anything in return, i see bad people, stupid people with clear skin, eating what they want, doing what they want, getting on with their lives and it really pisses me off, my life has literally been on hold for the past nearly 2 years when duac stopped working and my retarded skin started playing up again, and to top this off, i tried to use tea tree oil, forgot to wash it off my fingers, ended up biting my nails later and forgot that i still had tea tree oil on them, only reminded when i felt a sharp taste, now my throat is in agony, then to top off my week from hell, the appointment with the gp for this friday that i made months ago, has been cancelled and rescheduled to the monday, I HATE LIFE, im alone all the time now in my room, i have 4 days off work now, and even though it is lovely outside, il be sitting inside on my computer, alone as always, if there is a god i'd like to meet him and ask him what i've done to deserve this face, why can't i be like any other 19 year old and have clear complexion, but no, i must suffer for some reason with shit skin, get denied roaccutane because my idiot gp doesn't think i have acne bad enough, and i can't tell her how bad it makes me feel and that i sometimes have suicidal thoughts or i'd be admitted to a mental institution, my friend who had quite bad acne has been gave roaccutane and his skin is clearing up like crazy, yet i don't get it, i'm fucking sick of everything in this world *Moderator edit*, and all i've become is filled with hate at people with clear skin and what they have done to deserve it, and to all these idiots who believe everything happens for a reason i ask, Cancer?, what's the reason?. Pisses me off when people with no problems whatsoever in there lives write that quote, 19 and hating life, hate myself, no confidence, not even a chance of a girlfriend, every day i wish this would end but everyday it gets worse, when i go to the doctors on monday, im going to ask for every topical they have to be prescribed to me at the one time, if they decline i will ask why, why make me feel even more bad by coming to you who doesn't want to help me and has already prescribed me shit that doesnt work, instead of just giving me all the topicals then i can try each of them for at least 6 weeks each, then come back, im pissed off at this fucking stupid unfair world, it makes me not want to be a good person anymore and all the things that i stood for before, honesty, being a good person to people, i don't do it anymore, i don't see the point in being helpful to someone else, being honest with someone else if all i get is spots in return, FUCK THIS WORLD, FUCK MY STUPID SPOTTY RETARDED SKIN, i find myself asking that if god is real, is he enjoying watching me hate myself and throw my life away and go on a downward spiral?, well rant over now, sorry everyone i just needed to get this out, so so angry.

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I'm definitely not for accutane by any means, but have you considered switching doctors? I'm not sure of your location, but I'm in the states and every derm I have EVER seen has practically shoved accutane down my throat. Keep in mind that accutane is known to cause mood changes and worsen depression....that being said if you feel like your quality of life is that low I would try and obtain it from another doc. Try and keep your head up. I've been there before. It will clear, one way or another. Try and keep some hope.

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Hey man know how tough it must be for you and clearly acne has affected you psychologically but maybe you should try different things especially if topicals aren't working. I suggest you get some information on some of the real things that could be causing your acne, things like gluten intolerance, dairy intolerance or tree nut allergies among others. Also get yourself some vitamin b5 pills or powder, which ever you find easier to take and try it because acne can be a sign of poor fat metabolism in your body something that b5 can improve to the degree that acne is reduced significantly. Finally something else to think about is vitamin d deficiency. Gluten intolerance makes vitamin d absorption difficult and therefore can caucse low levels in your body. So if you are indeed intolerant (and many people are, including myself) then you would most likely benefit from taking some in pill form, take 5000 iu daily with magnesium powder as this improves absorption. I don't mean to overburden you with all this information but i saw your post and couldn't help but want to offer some advice because i have felt that pain that acne causes. Gluten intolerance was the big cause of my acne, damaged my intestines without question and made me irritable and depressed.I hope you consider some of these things and they help you to reduce the amount of acne you develop.

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The hardest thing to do in a situation like this is to relax, but it really is key. I went through about 9 months of bad acne followed by a year of really bad hyperpigmentation, and this was all in my last 2 years of high school, so you can imagine how emotional it made me; not wanting to go to parties, not having the confidence to talk to people when I did go to parties, being constantly worried about what I was eating and drinking and not being able to live the carefree life my friends all lived. But it really has helped me in the end. I'm healthier than ever, and it's really made me a stronger, more confident person in the end.

Basically what I'm saying is that you should turn this huge negative into a huge positive. I know when you go through something like this for a long time it can infest your mind in a way where you become obsessed with having clear skin, it's all you think about, and you basically put clear skin on this unobtainable pedestal. But when you step back and look at it, clear skin really shouldn't be that hard right? It's just a matter of being healthy both physically and mentally. Start by removing your stress, eating naturally, using natural products on your face. Just try and get to that zen place. I know it's easier to just keep doing what you're doing now and hope that it'll get better, but trust me it won't unless you make some big changes. :)

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Hello everyone, well, here i go another rant. I HATE this disease and it is the only thought inside my head every single day, affecting everything i do, what i do, etc, to make it even worse, when i go onto facebook, one of the few things i do, do now, because i hate going outside looking like a monster, i have this one model bitch in particular that really annoys me with her stupid stupid statuses, always along the lines of 'everything happens for a reason, oh god has his plans' *Moderator edit*, i always notice its only the people with good lives that write that crap, i have been filled with even more rage than usual the past few days, all because of my acne, and this has easily been one of the worst weeks of my life, first, acne obviously, dampens my mood before i even go out, so im already in a bad/low/no self esteem mood, found out that my family had booked a holiday, and the first thing i thought was, oh no, im going to look like a freak and not be able to stay in, but after thinking, fuck it, on this occasion and just deciding that i wanted to go with my family, even though i look a disgrace, so i ask for the week holiday in work to be told no, meaning = even lower mood/more rage/ driving home, stuck in massive amounts of traffic = even more rage, car has to go into the garage = dangerously high level of rage, wake up this morning with one of those massive under the skin spots between like, the corner of your nose and eyebrow = rage level critical, i am literally a few more steps away from a complete mental breakdown *Moderator edit* i'm only 19 but from what i've seen so far i fucking hate this world, whats the point in being a good person, when i don't get anything in return, i see bad people, stupid people with clear skin, eating what they want, doing what they want, getting on with their lives and it really pisses me off, my life has literally been on hold for the past nearly 2 years when duac stopped working and my retarded skin started playing up again, and to top this off, i tried to use tea tree oil, forgot to wash it off my fingers, ended up biting my nails later and forgot that i still had tea tree oil on them, only reminded when i felt a sharp taste, now my throat is in agony, then to top off my week from hell, the appointment with the gp for this friday that i made months ago, has been cancelled and rescheduled to the monday, I HATE LIFE, im alone all the time now in my room, i have 4 days off work now, and even though it is lovely outside, il be sitting inside on my computer, alone as always, if there is a god i'd like to meet him and ask him what i've done to deserve this face, why can't i be like any other 19 year old and have clear complexion, but no, i must suffer for some reason with shit skin, get denied roaccutane because my idiot gp doesn't think i have acne bad enough, and i can't tell her how bad it makes me feel and that i sometimes have suicidal thoughts or i'd be admitted to a mental institution, my friend who had quite bad acne has been gave roaccutane and his skin is clearing up like crazy, yet i don't get it, i'm fucking sick of everything in this world *Moderator edit*, and all i've become is filled with hate at people with clear skin and what they have done to deserve it, and to all these idiots who believe everything happens for a reason i ask, Cancer?, what's the reason?. Pisses me off when people with no problems whatsoever in there lives write that quote, 19 and hating life, hate myself, no confidence, not even a chance of a girlfriend, every day i wish this would end but everyday it gets worse, when i go to the doctors on monday, im going to ask for every topical they have to be prescribed to me at the one time, if they decline i will ask why, why make me feel even more bad by coming to you who doesn't want to help me and has already prescribed me shit that doesnt work, instead of just giving me all the topicals then i can try each of them for at least 6 weeks each, then come back, im pissed off at this fucking stupid unfair world, it makes me not want to be a good person anymore and all the things that i stood for before, honesty, being a good person to people, i don't do it anymore, i don't see the point in being helpful to someone else, being honest with someone else if all i get is spots in return, FUCK THIS WORLD, FUCK MY STUPID SPOTTY RETARDED SKIN, i find myself asking that if god is real, is he enjoying watching me hate myself and throw my life away and go on a downward spiral?, well rant over now, sorry everyone i just needed to get this out, so so angry.

*Moderator edit - Ideals that are not encouraged on these boards removed*

try treating your acne internally

Get a good juicer and drink fresh organic mixed vegetable juice daily. Carrot, cucumber, celery. Jucing book website have some great recipes. Also drink Wheat Grass juice. Very powerful juice. You will get it powdered form from amazing grass and fresh one from jamba juice

Cut down on acne stressors cola, caffeine. alcohol, chocolate, refined sugar, junk food and have beta carotene rich foods sweet potato, mango, papaya etc.

If juicing doesn't work after 1 month then I would suggest you go to a good hormone specialist/GP and do some tests.

http://www.acu-cell.com/dis.html.

You probably have a weak thymus gland as ur immune system is weak. Yoga, beta-carotene rich foods boosts the thymus gland.

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