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It's been soo long since ive had nice skin, and soo long since ive felt comfortable around people that i'm worried my personality has been changed for good.. or.. for bad... bb_doubt.gif

I can remember being confident in a crowd, didn’t mind being the centre of attention all that much, eye contact wasn’t avoided at all cost, I said 'shit yea!' when mates suggested an outing and I was happy. But now i’m soo different it shits me no end. The only face i can look at is that of my cat. My acne is mild and my parents have no idea its the reason why I have hardly left the house for 1.5 years (this should clue me up that it isn't soo bad, but logical thoughts own no space in my acne riddled mind). For a long time they thought I was just a lazy shit head, but now they're convinced I have depression ( I don’t, but aren’t comfortable enough with them to spill my guts). anyways back to the topic

I’m worried that if my skin ever did clear up that I'll continue to be a recluse. That I’ll find some other excuse to stay at home, or decline the few invites from mates who haven’t yet given up on me. Ive spent soo long by myself that day to day I don’t really feel a lack of anything. But ive been living these last few (3) years on the belief that I’m just in a temporary limbo, that as soon as i cleared up I'd start socialising once more, i'd feel comfortable around peers and start living again basically.

So I'm looking for people who's personality was changed by acne.. (I realise many people are stronger than me and continue on, at least externally, in a normal manner.. I envy you).. and who've come out the other end. Did you find that the changes were irreversible, or with your new clear skin you rejoined society with all the vigor you envisaged during you time in limbo?

hmm this has prolly ben a total waste of time.. why would someone keep coming to this forum if they've "come out the other end" already..idiot bb_eusa_silenced.gif and yet im still gonna post it.. selfish idiot bb_icon_redface.gif

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i'm sure after i clear up i'll still retain my inner insecurities and fears. like after a traumatic experience, you'll become paranoid.

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thats how it is...

My skin used to be a lot worse..and now its pretty much as clear as it was after accutane....

however.

I seem to have problems still, like im paranoid that because its clear right now at any moment it could get really bad again. although, im pretty sure this is not the case since accutane worked about 85% for me. I guess im jus a worrier dry.gif

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yea, thats all i get. and it sucks cuz sometimes they leave permanent red marks, while most dont.

I serioulsy have like 5 or six red marks that have become freckles of some sort because they've been on my face for close to a year. no one seems to notice though, they're not too big...

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well i do try my hardest...people tell me a lot they dont even notice them...and they probably dont even look like marks from acne...look more like fading freckles sorta kinda maybe?

its kinda funny..they're all on the right side of my face...as are the majority of my scars...tiny too..so no biggie i guess. they seem to fade after time.

its been about 2.5 years since accutane. nothing has really ever gotten worse again...so i think im gonna be ok. smile.gif

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hmm thanks stinko, i guess bb_icon_confused.gifsmile.gif

thinking that I'll prolly continue to find excuses to avoid interacting with people even after i clear up (assuming that ever fukn happens). The more I think about it the more I recall ocassion before acne, where I would do the same, telling myself I had a good reason for declining invites. I dont doubt ive lost all socialising skills, it would take alot of effort for me to start relaxing around people again, but that what I want to be able to do... so maybe the desire is enough that I'll force myself to change, should the day ever be where Im happy with my skin.. at least I hope I will.

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well i do try my hardest...people tell me a lot they dont even notice them...and they probably dont even look like marks from acne...look more like fading freckles sorta kinda maybe?

its kinda funny..they're all on the right side of my face...as are the majority of my scars...tiny too..so no biggie i guess. they seem to fade after time.

its been about 2.5 years since accutane. nothing has really ever gotten worse again...so i think im gonna be ok. smile.gif

did you ask them about it? if they did not notice them why did they tell you they can't really see it? huh.gif

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