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I've Been Locked In My Cave For Four Months Now Because Of Acne, It's Driving Me

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It's not fair that I have to bore myself to death because of Acne, I don't like to attend social events or hang out in broad day light because of my acne . I've been indoors for about four months and it's driving me insane. My family thinks I'm crazy and so Do my friends, but they don't understand how acne affects me psychologically. I think about ACNE since the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep. If I can sleep . Acne has caused me to suffer from insomnia I hardly sleep because of it, I'm like paranoid, afraid that no matter what I do, how protective or healthy I am, it will haunt me forever.

Now I have the best boyfriend ever, and he says he loves me no matter if I have acne, but it's hard for me to believe him. I find myself repulsive I can't stand the sight of me, I'm afraid to look in the mirror. So how can he love me. I always think of breaking up with him because I can't go out with him in broad daylight, because he'll see how horrible I look when the sun hits me. And I'm tired of making excuses. I'm tired of being depressed of not going out. Will I ever feel normal ever again, and get the sleep I use to get.

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you ARE normal, please dont put yourself down like that, you obviously have good people in your life, your friends are asking you to have fun with them because they love you, and you yourself said your boyfriend loves you! if you want to avoid daylight, thats fine, i did that all the time. Start easy, go out at night to a movie with your boyfriend, go out clubbing with your friends, it'll take one night out with ppl you love to show you how overblown acne depression can be. I know its hard, but once i started smiling even i noticed my acne less, and my scars are TERRIBLE, but the ppl who like you and want to be around you will just support your courage, anyone else just isnt worth it anyway

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Did I write this? Because it sure sounds EXACTLY like me. except I have been hiding away from the world for 2+ years now..not going to any social events and making up excuses to not meet with friends/people. I have insomnia too and think of my skin every second, it is my first thought when i wake up. I cant sleep because I constantly think of my skin, it literally is my whole life, my life revolves around my skin...I don't think i will even live to be 30, since acne has given me nothing to live for....lord knows I'm not gonna make babies and have them come out all pimply faced.

sorry I didn't give any advice but it can be comforting to know there are people out their that are going through the same thing.

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hey. i really feel for you and know exactly how you feel. my acne right now is mild and still im struggling to sleep, socialise, go to uni and work. you're not alone in this. what i will say, is that if your acne is really having this much of an impact on your life, dont wait for it to go. im 24 now and started getting acne at 15. by 19 i was exactly where you are, i mean exactly. i dropped out of college, split up with my boyfriend, lost my job and my friends. and it was because i just couldnt get over my skin, it had nothing to do with anyone else. id been on everything my doctor suggested over the previous years, antibitoics, topicals, birth control, you name it. im in the UK and i didnt qualify for accutane on the NHS. so i went private and paid which costs a lot but it worked. i did 30mg for 8 months and my skin was perfect. i got my life back. i went back to uni, i met a lovely guy, made new friends, got a great job that i love. it totally changed my life ad for once my skin wasnt the only thing i ever thought about. this lasted 3 wonderful years and now my acne returned and i am back on a second course of accutane. i know alot of people only advocate accutane for severe acne, but it can be used for milder cases that causes such severe psychological distress. and it will clear your skin. i had mild side effects the first time and im a month into my second course with nothing more than dry lips. there is something that can help your skin, dont give up hope. if you havent tried antibiotics and topical regimes try all that first, they can help massively. if you have and your acne is persistent dont waste any more time feeling depressed. i wish i did my first course sooner. sure, it might not 'cure' you, but at the same time it might. i began to feel better when i started just knowing i was actually doing SOMETHING that could help.

best of luck

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Chiming in on the "you aren't alone" part. I do go out in public because, well, I have to - I have a job and social obligations - but I spend most of my time outdoors wishing I could run back home and hide, so I completely empathize.

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I used to be the same way. For me to look for validation, I had to play video games (specially MMO). I did not want to be seen by people due to my acne and because no one can see who you are on the other side of the monitor, I was getting some sort of human interaction. HOWEVER, I do regret not learning how to socialize correctly and am only starting to do so correctly. I urge you to not take the same route as me, especially when you already have someone that cares for you.

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been there for 30 years...if anyone can image your pain its me. I just dont get what my brain would do with all the free time if I didnt think of my skin..I know I would be a better wife and mother if I had better skin..I dont know how I even met my husband...

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Yes it is very very hard to bring yourself to walk out the front door when you have acne and unless someone has it they won't understand how it feels. Although it seems impossible it would be best to try and address this issue now, it will be even harder to do so in years and years time. You have a boyfriend who obviously finds you attractive and likes you and see's past your skin, if he didn't he wouldn't be with you, it's as simple as that. He doesn't have to say it, he proves it every time he's with you just by being there. You also have friends at the moment. Don't become like me and a lot of other people who let those months turn into years and lose all their friends and all their social skills and all their desire to even get up in the morning. Yes you have acne and it's sh!t, but also focus on you're boyfriend and friends and don't let this condition beat you any further.

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My sympathy,Well I am hiding from almost 2 yrs.during winters I use mufflers to hide myself & during summers, I use a mask(excuse:supersensitive skin).I just want to die.

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I find it difficult to come out during the day :(

I hate waking up in the morning seeing my face, washing my face taking about an hour to cleanse my face with my skin care regimen & for what so that I can wake up the next day with more Zits !

I've always had acne since I was 14 but it never was a big deal until now that I'm 21 . I thought that by now I should have outgrown it but I guess not. Accutane is not an option since I have bad kidneys. I've lost hope in everything, I quit my job since it requires to see eye to eye with patients and socialize. Its something I'm not willing to do. I dropped out of college, because I can't stand to be the only chick in class with acne besides I can't even focus when ACNE is in my mind 24/7. I can't even watch television without the thought of acne being in my head, I get mad because I see my sister eat all this crap, sleep with her make up yet not a zit In her face. I'm tired of crying to my mom all the time about my ugly face, she doesn't understand , her advice to me is to cover it with make up. It irritates me because even if I do I know that I'm ugly underneath and I can't even look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted .

IM GLAD I FOUND ACNE.ORG BECAUSE IT REALLY IS THE ONLY THING THAT MOTIVATES ME TO WAKE UP EVERY MORNING AND HAVE FAITH THAT IT MIGHT GET BETTER ONE DAY :)

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well since you have so much time on your hands in doors i suggest you look at ALOT of these post theres so many people on here just like you, including me. i used to do EVERYTHING bad eat mcdonalds everyday, drink, smoke, party, go clubbing met and new people everynight! my life was AMAZING, now i turned 21 recently. all of a sudden i get acne.. i should have seen this coming my dad had terrible acne and my brother also. LUCKILY theres hope for me because my dads and my brothers acne are both cleared, and my brother is only 4 years older than me THANK GOD so i have faith. but with that said. i feel like acne ruined me. i lost my job. i quit school and lost the girl. now i literally stay in my house 24/7 on my computer looking at acne.org trying to find new regimens to clear my acne. ive read alot of cool stories that worked for people. diet changes, non cleaning for a month exercising more.. ect. theres so much information on here! im trying new things all the time. because everyones acne reacts different. but there can only be so many different ways! so one of these peoples stories is bound to match up with your acne! and i figured since im staying indoors anyways for ever right now going on almost 2 months why not start experimenting my face to find out what works. and ill tell you what i am going to find something that works darn it! im sure youve done alot of research already but just dont give up. there is a treatment out there just for you! :) and me and everyone else on here. stay strong! good luck.

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