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I am SO sick of acne, ugliness, and my pudgy stomach.

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I have had bad acne for 5 years now. I am skinny-fat and look nasty in a bikini. My face shape is long and jagged looking. My nose is crooked AFTER a nose job because my little sisterpunched me in the face a month after surgery for no apparent reason.

Sometimes I just hate my life. :boohoo:

I am a 17 year old girl. I can't have a normal life because everyone is always staring at my acne. My sister constantly calls me ugly too, so I have a weak "support system".

I have been a nice person for the most part.

My sister on the other hand...let me tell you about my sister:

She is 12 years old, yet everyone thinks she is 16. She looks like she could model. She is taller than I am (she is 5'5" or 5'6", while I am 5'4") and gets a lot of attention from teenage guys. I am always overlooked by guys who are 17-22. I had a pen pal from China and she friend requested me on facebook. A week later, she requested my sister and commented on all of her photos, "You are so beautiful and pretty!" and never wrote me back. Sad right? My sister is THE MEANEST girl I have ever met in all my life. She even admits that she gets joy from ridiculing people until they cry and that she lies to get others in trouble just because she can. She's a psychopath, yet she is adored by everyone. My own mother even treats me like crap because I don't step on people to get new makeup, clothes, or opportunities like she does.

The only attention I get is from scary looking old men and middle aged stalkers who drive up and down my street looking for kids to snatch.

Life isn't good at all for me. I have tried everything. Even when I think my acne is getting better, doctors and dermatologists ask me if I would like to go on Accutane. No thank you. I would prefer not to swallow a recalled medication and develop Chrohn's Disease just so you can get kickbacks from drug companies.

But what difference does it make? I look no better than a meth head anyway.

That was my rant. Feel free to rant too.

Edited by uglyskin

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I have had bad acne for 5 years now. I am skinny-fat and look nasty in a bikini. My face shape is long and jagged looking. My nose is crooked AFTER a nose job because my little sisterpunched me in the face a month after surgery for no apparent reason.

Sometimes I just hate my life. :boohoo:

I am a 17 year old girl. I can't have a normal life because everyone is always staring at my acne. My sister constantly calls me ugly too, so I have a weak "support system".

I have been a nice person for the most part.

My sister on the other hand...let me tell you about my sister:

She is 12 years old, yet everyone thinks she is 16. She looks like she could model. She is taller than I am (she is 5'5" or 5'6", while I am 5'4") and gets a lot of attention from teenage guys. I am always overlooked by guys who are 17-22. I had a pen pal from China and she friend requested me on facebook. A week later, she requested my sister and commented on all of her photos, "You are so beautiful and pretty!" and never wrote me back. Sad right? My sister is THE MEANEST girl I have ever met in all my life. She even admits that she gets joy from ridiculing people until they cry and that she lies to get others in trouble just because she can. She's a psychopath, yet she is adored by everyone. My own mother even treats me like crap because I don't step on people to get new makeup, clothes, or opportunities like she does.

The only attention I get is from scary looking old men and middle aged stalkers who drive up and down my street looking for kids to snatch.

Life isn't good at all for me. I have tried everything. Even when I think my acne is getting better, doctors and dermatologists ask me if I would like to go on Accutane. No thank you. I would prefer not to swallow a recalled medication and develop Chrohn's Disease just so you can get kickbacks from drug companies.

But what difference does it make? I look no better than a meth head anyway.

That was my rant. Feel free to rant too.

She is young. She doesn't know the hurt and harm she does. If she seen you cry or sad she would not do that. "They know not what they do," Jesus said. He is right. People do stuff unconsciously and it hurts.

There is beauty in you regardless. Your sisters' beauty is skin deep. You both have an essence of beauty that is beyond skin deep. Have faith.

I know what it is like. I've felt so low, hopeless, and saddened by acne & acne scarring.

Someone posted about Seal and it got me thinking, looking at pics, and anything is possible. Not sure what your beliefs are, your faith, and the sole fact you feel so lonely. Talk with your parents. Your young and it will pass. For me, I cleared up in my 20s with a topical but, my doctor would not help me. I had to fight, call nonstop, and bug for ages while he ducked me for a year & a half before getting me a dermatologist. My family is financially struggling so, they never got me any help for this. My doctor missed my appointment with a dermatologist by 3 almost 4months. They told me my appointment was a 1/4 of a year later when I needed help before. It was when I called my specialist and found out, I had missed my appointment out of neglect by doctor, the person who is suppose to help. In that 3month span, I had a cystic break out, this resulted in a shallow scar despite not picking or squeezing.

I feel like crying when it finally hit me that this was not pigment but, a permanent scar and typing this to you, I feel like crying on the inside. As a man, it sucks to feel vulnerable, and weak but, you know what? FUCK IT. I wont cry over this. I wont let anything break me. Don't you ever let anything break you.

Sweet heart, there is beauty in you, and you need to express that in this world. You are in pain but, don't become a sad, depressed, and lonely person. Have a bf, give love, get love, and make something of yourself. Have faith in you, in god, in spirituality. "Ask and it will be given." - Jesus

I asked God for some time, after gluten free diets, no sugar, exercising, running, working out, healthy strict eating, nothing worked. I prayed for over a decade and it was using a topical + antibiotic + prayer that cleared my acne. 99.9% better its just the acne scar that I am insecure about that is shallow. I am using differin and I may eventually do Fraxel (though I am scared of more scarring or botched laser jobs) so, I am praying to heal. Living my life. Check out my friend BX on here. He is an inspiration. Seal for those of you who doesn't know suffers from lupus which left him with a moon shaped scar on his face. The man is married to Hedi Klum the model, has a beautiful family, amazing voice, and is a inspiration. He is pictured together with his wife in my avatar. I am insecure about a shallow scar but, the man has a huge scar, has a gorgeous wife, and shows what is possible.

:D Have faith. Your beautiful. Someone will see it. Build up yourself esteem, tell your parents, mine have been absent in this and it sucks but, financial troubles were the cause. I hope your situation is better. Good luck and feel free to PM me if you ever just need to talk.

There is so much negativity on this forum and board. We all need to support each other. Have faith. Most importantly, love yourself with or without acne and acne scarring.

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I'm sorry that you're feeling so awful about yourself at the moment. The worst thing you can do is compare yourself to your sister. I have a younger sister who thankfully has a lovely personality, but she's much more beautiful than I am, her skin is porcelain perfect and she has waist-long, flawless black curls. I've got a face full of acne, and my hair is shoulder-length, mouse brown and fluffy. She's also an hourglass shape whereas I'm a ruler. If I didn't love her so much, I'd freakin' hate her. :D

But the thing about her is that she doesn't give a toss about my acne, or my hair, or that she's prettier than me or any of those things. We're two different people and I don't have to look like her. We have our own qualities and quirks and that's the beauty of nature. You don't have to look like your sister, either. You're your own person, and you can't live your life wishing you could be like somebody else. The acne sucks, yeah, but it's such a pixel in the bigger picture. You sound like a lovely person to me, acne can make even the happiest people miserable.

You should wear your bikini regardless of how "skinny-fat" you think you are. You don't owe it to anybody to cover your body up. I used to think I was too fat for a bikini, but I wear mine now because I don't give a crap what anybody thinks about my body. It's mine, I can wear a bikini if I fricking want to. :D

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Uglyskin,

Ignoring the propaganda on television and on the internet, it is not established that Accutane causes Chron's. This may be a paradigm shift for you but even if Accutane causes Chron's it may only happen in 1 in 5000 or 1 in 10,000 people, remembering that millions of people have taken Accutane since it was released in 1982.

http://www.acne.org/messageboard/index.php...t&p=3057966

And Accutane was never recalled by the FDA; Roche voluntarily took it off the market mostly because their market share was insufficient (<10%) to maintain profits after the generics were introduced in 2002.

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Because of her looks your sister will end up being worshipped and leech off everyone, especially men, and not have to do any proper work until the age of 30-40 when she will become disillusioned and bitter because her "looks" will have faded.

Good luck.

Edited by jimmy188

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Knock ur sister out , beat the crap out of her and show her whos boss.

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Because of her looks your sister will end up being worshipped and leech off everyone, especially men, and not have to do any proper work until the age of 30-40 when she will become disillusioned and bitter because her "looks" will have faded.

Good luck.

That and she becomes saddened having been used and abused by so many different men. Its the world we live in. Some days are harder then others.

OP: Do some working out. Watch what you eat if you don't already. Do some crunches but, remember, abs are made in the kitchen, not the gym.

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Probably in a few years time your sister will get acne and then her personality will change a lot. Reminds me of my little brother before he got acne. dont take a 12 year old seriously

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