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in my quest for clear skin i have become obsessive

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Yeah, I just noticed how obsessive i have become about my skin. I would freak out if i accidentally scratched my skin or something. Before I had acne, I never worried too much about my face. If i had a scratch, i didnt care, cause i know itd go away. But now, i get all anxious just knowing its there. Knowing that theres something on my face makes me worry, perhaps because i have become a "perfectionist" when it comes to my skin. I want clear, perfect skin, and i want it now.

The idea of getting in a physical fight sounds scary to me simply because i might get bruises or scratches on my face. Before acne, i didnt even care about that.

I've become such a pussy.

Ever since i went on this determined quest for clear skin, every little mark on my face upsets me. I actually wrote this entry because a while ago i had picked a blackhead and made it a little red. It really isnt a big deal, i mean i can put make up over it, but for some reason im quite upset. I feel like ive just jeopardized my chances of having clear and perfect skin---something thats extremely important to me.

I dont know if Im making any sense here or if anyone can relate. But im pretty obsessed with my face... i dont just want to be acne free, i dont want a single mark on it. i think i need to step back from this perfectionistic thinking..

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Argh. I know what you mean. I got a scratch on my face the other day, and now I think it's turning into a cyst. What I wouldn't give for not-so-sensitive skin! :shifty:

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I would gladly take a black eye and some bruising from a fight to replace acne for a while.

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I feel like that too. Like any extra cuts or scars on top of my acne red marks, etc will just mess up my face even further. <_< I got a small cut on my neck the other day when my kitty scratched me by accident. Nooo! Bad kitty!

Overly sensitive skin sucks. rolleyes.gif

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I'm too paranoid of breaking out too! It's like even when my acne scars & the uneven complexion & scars go... I'm afraid that I'll always break out leaving a scar!! It's really a bad feeling. Right now I have no acne but just marks. I'm so worried that it'll come back to where it was. <_<

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i hope when i finally grow out of my acne i can stop worrying about my face as though its made of glass

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I have to admit that I am obsessed with my skin too. Currently my skin has a few small red marks and there are 2 small bumps on my cheek.

I got so worried and eventually it has ruined my mood for the past 3 days. I didn't feel like doing anything at all. I end up lying on my bed just thinking of how much longer will my face eventually be clear(w/o red marks). I fell asleep and dream of something nice (I think) but when I woke up, I started thinking about my 2 bumps again.

I really feel like giving up but I know I can't. But it seemed so long, it's like I'm racing against time. Any the people around me is just making things worse. It's like they want me to have clear skin more than I want to.

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i hope when i finally grow out of my acne i can stop worrying about my face as though its made of glass

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i feel the same way also... i always daydream about the future and how my skin will be clear and i can wear a tanktop or go swimming again...

we have this annoying cuckoo clock thing that ticks really frickin loud and it drives me crazy b/c i think about all the time ive wasted... how much time ive spent on my skin and how my derm just messed me up... he wouldnt give me accutane in january when i really needed it and now ive got marks all over. i really hate him.

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I can totally relate because if something even remotely touches my face I fucking freak out like crazy. I can't sleep in the same spot on my pillow because I think the oil from hair is gonna fuck up my skin. I am one crazy obsessed person just like you brother.

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I wonder about sleeping on your pillow... does it have a significant effect on your acne? I'll be damned if my acne exists because my pillow is dirty. <_<

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I'm obsessive, i agree 100% with the above posts.

When I'm sleeping I'll try my hardest to sleep on my back. Then if i wake up in the middle of the night I freak out because I'm on my side.

oh noe, my face is mashed into the pillow!

So I'll get back on my back, and try to fall asleep. Wake up in the morning... shit, on my side again. Better wash those pillowcases again for the 3rd time this week. And while I'm at it, might as well throw a load of towels in seeing as I use a new one every time I wash my face.

oh noe, the bacteria.....

I know I'll look back and laugh at this one day.

......one day.....

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