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SurferGirl656

I want back the stuff acne's stolen.

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Tbh, i just want to like evryone else. normally im like stuff conforming im fine with myself but when it comes to my skin i just want to be normal. no one in my classes has acne. no girls in my classes wear make up. i stand out so much. i miss things i took for granted:

eating something without checking the ingredients, figuring out how much sugar it has, or reading the allergy advice.

being able to wake up right before i had to leave because it didn't take me an hour to apply make up and give myself a failed pep talk.

wearing singlets, dresses, bikins and low shirts with total confidence.

never having to find another excuse to bail on something

wearing my hair back and feeling good about it

being able to be spontaneous and fun without thinking about covering my face or any consiquences i might see in my skin later.

swimming and loving it.

feeling the sun on bare skin

not feeling scared when i leave the front door

my confidence with guys

being able to complain about just one annoying pimple with friends that happens once a year

not getting so awkward when a proactiv commercial comes on tv.

feeling happy instead of mortified when someone just comes over unannounced.

leaning my hands on my face

going out all the time and just being free to do whatever i want

meeting someone for the first time and looking forward to it

buying any clothes i want and not worrying about them showing back/chest/shoulders

being completely 100% me.

im sick of it. i have no idea what causes it. ive tried everything i can think of. no one around me has it, knows what its like, or even cares how much it effects me. it controls everything. nothing excites me anymore because acne will always effect it some how. someone FIND A CURE ALREADY!

acne is red bumps on the skin. who knew it could cause so much.

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Tbh, i just want to like evryone else. normally im like stuff conforming im fine with myself but when it comes to my skin i just want to be normal. no one in my classes has acne. no girls in my classes wear make up. i stand out so much. i miss things i took for granted:

eating something without checking the ingredients, figuring out how much sugar it has, or reading the allergy advice.

being able to wake up right before i had to leave because it didn't take me an hour to apply make up and give myself a failed pep talk.

wearing singlets, dresses, bikins and low shirts with total confidence.

never having to find another excuse to bail on something

wearing my hair back and feeling good about it

being able to be spontaneous and fun without thinking about covering my face or any consiquences i might see in my skin later.

swimming and loving it.

feeling the sun on bare skin

not feeling scared when i leave the front door

my confidence with guys

being able to complain about just one annoying pimple with friends that happens once a year

not getting so awkward when a proactiv commercial comes on tv.

feeling happy instead of mortified when someone just comes over unannounced.

leaning my hands on my face

going out all the time and just being free to do whatever i want

meeting someone for the first time and looking forward to it

buying any clothes i want and not worrying about them showing back/chest/shoulders

being completely 100% me.

im sick of it. i have no idea what causes it. ive tried everything i can think of. no one around me has it, knows what its like, or even cares how much it effects me. it controls everything. nothing excites me anymore because acne will always effect it some how. someone FIND A CURE ALREADY!

acne is red bumps on the skin. who knew it could cause so much.

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way. These feelings that you having are not abnormal and nothing to be ashamed of.

I know what it feels like to have lost hope, to feel as though the whole world does not have this problem except you. It hurts, it really does.

But there is this beauty about you, don't let the world tell you that you are not lovely and not beautiful because of some blemishes. There is this captivating beauty about every woman's heart and I'm sure that the person that unveils that heart of yours will be amazed.

My fiance doesn't have perfect skin like you, but there is this beauty about her heart that when i step in I am totally captivated.

You likewise have that same beauty that is captivating, this world really does a number on us sometimes and our beauty seems to be hidden in this mess. But be encourged because you are more beautiful than you could imagine. :)

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I know it sucks. I wish I didn't have to, either.

:(

:comfort:

All I can say is than god I ever found this place, and thank god we all have each other.

This site honestly saved my life.

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I know the feeling. I hated wearing my hair back, but had to when I went to work, and then there was bright fluorescent lights on top of it all that magnified every mark on my face.

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hakuna matata .................. it means no worries for the rest of the days ,its a problem free philosophy.

-timon and pumbaa

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hakuna matata .................. it means no worries for the rest of the days ,its a problem free philosophy.

-timon and pumbaa

good joke

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Yeah, I feel the same way OP.

Thinking about it sometimes, it gets real depressing.

But, what can you do?

The best thing you can do is be consistent with your skincare regimen and diet so you control your acne. You could even go on Accutane if it's bad enough and be "cured".

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Thanks for writing this post SurferGirl. Some of the things you mentioned are so similar to me its scary. I also get really uncomfortable watching Proactiv commercials, especially if someone is in the room with me and I am always subconscious afraid that someone might come to the door for a surprise visit.

One of mine is needing to know evening plans in the morning before I go out so I can put on my makeup in the morning and not have to try in the afternoon when the natural light and sun shows all my marks.

Feeling comfortable in the rain is a big one I miss and being able to hold someone's eye contact during a conversation.

Just wanted you to know your not alone

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Awwww, I know just how you feel. When my acne broke out I was only 14 years old, then it went away by 17 (with medication) Then came back worse than ever at 22-25. This last round was the worst because NO ONE else my age had acne and I felt humilated and upset.

I have gotten it completely clear now though through a relaxed paleo diet, but I completely hear you on the wasted time, and crap that you have to go through.

I've had a lot of terrible stuff happen to me in my life though, from mental illness and severe phsyical illness in my close family, to tragic accidental death in my immediate family.

The truth is that life sucks all around sometimes, but the best days of your life are yet to come! I've learned through this ordeal to be (or try my best to be) a very compassionate person.

You will have your time to shine, don't worry!

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One thing worse than acne is adult acne. Imagine having it since 12 years old (I'm 28). I don't remember how things were before my acne stole everything.

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they have made a cure... it's called Accutane =) read the logs on here, it's truly inspiring... so much so that I'm on my 2nd month of accutane! it's got some side effects that can scare a lot of people away... but isnt clear skin worth it? i think so!

i totally agree with your list of things you want back. i feel the EXACT same way, especially about the proactiv commerical and even more so if i have to watch with someone i know. if im alone i just change the channel till its over lol *sighs*

but maybe one day we will get those things back! *big hugs*

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I was trying to write this hours ago, but then someone came by and I had to minimize only later to lose it. So I will try and re-convey my thoughts.... And oh yes, was i dreadfully worried about the condition of my destroyed(and retin-a flakey) face as a friend dropped by unexpectedly.

Upon reading the post from the lovely Surfergirl, it had struck a cord with me(except for that whole confidence in a bikini part). As I've been going thru a horrible breakout/depression; her words rang so very true. Acne is a life taker....

I was saying something earlier about how sick I was, of hearing about how its whats on the inside that counts... To the OP, ms. Surfergirl, from your written word alone it is clear that your personality shines bright; but I must say that from what I can see you are stunningly beautiful... Hold on to that smile as best you can, and good luck to you and all in this unfortunate struggle.

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omg u sooo described how i feel!!!!

i hate proactiv ads too!! and when i see a stand in the shops i purpolsely take a longer route to avoid it... arghh.. im avoiding going swimming coz i cant go without makeup and feel self conscious when going to the hairdresses/makeup stands in department stores/shopping for clothes with beautiful perfect skinned retail chicks and i cant socialise properly anymore bc i get paranoid abt my skin.l. i want the old me back too :( i miss being carefree and being happy.. I REALLY HATE ACNE> i dont know ANYONE with it too.. i hate being known as the 'girl with bad skin' and nothing else..people just dont understand it when they dont have it..ppl tell me.. aww looks arent THAT important, its the inside that counts, but when they see a hot/pretty/attracigve girl their like wow... who cares if shes not a nice person.. gees..

id love to go out with little or no makeup on,, but if i do. ill certainly scare ppl which sucks.. meh. but yea. ur post certainly hit the spot perfectly!

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I want 10 years of my life back.

Makes me f*cking cry thinking of all the shit I missed out on because of this f*cking disease. And you only live life once and I missed out on my prime years. It's fucking bullshit man!!

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