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Feeling terrible today.

My skin is so bumpy, I can't stop looking at it like I really need a hobby or something. I've stayed home all day today and supposed to have a date tomorrow night but I can see me cancelling, as per.

I just hate feeling this unattractive guys, and nobody understands but people on here or the ODD person that had skin issues in my town or work...All my friends have amazing skin and don't know why I feel so bad about mine because they "can't see it" etc.

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I have always taken B-complex supplements because it really helps with my anxiety issues. Now I find out that vitamins B6 and B12 can cause acne. I have to now choose between increased anxiety or increased acne???!! Sigh!

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I hope everyone is doing the best they can.

I have been under a lot of stress and haven't maintained the regimen as best as I could, though I'm trying to get back into it, so I've taken quite a few steps back and my skin looks .. err not so great sadly. So I'm a bit bummed but everything else is good so I should focus on that. Or try.

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Feeling pretty bad.

I had TCA cross and dermapen performed two weeks ago for my scarring, and as per usual, a week later (aside from the residual scabbing from the TCA) my skin in general was looking quite promising and clear (still scarring pretty much everywhere, but seemingly slightly shallower in depth) - from micro-swelling, I imagine. A couple of days after that and things have changed dramatically. I'm now suffering from deep breakouts on both cheeks/neck area. I'd like to think it's just an initial breakout from starting back on isotrexin, but I'm feeling quite self-conscious about it. After I get a treatment done for my scars, it's generally the same outcome each time: I always start off feeling optimistic, but it doesn't take long for me to start realising again that there's no magical cure, and as the healing process goes on and swelling decreases, my skin starts looking more and more blotchy and stressed out once more. I even start to wonder if these treatments are doing anything at all, or start becoming paranoid that they're even making my skin worse... such is my messed up perception and the sensitivity of my skin, I struggle to tell.

Not helping my stress is that I recently met a person online who is keen to meet me, and I him if it wasn't for the fact I feel too embarassed about my appearance. I hadn't intended for it to happen, but through writing we've gotten along so well that it would be a shame to never find out if that could translate to offline. There's two things going on in that respect, really: 1) having my flaws be seen rather than being able to hide behind my screen and 2) the issue of my self-consciousness getting in the way of being able to project my 'true' personality, even if my scarred, broken out, blotchy skin isn't in itself enough to turn somebody off. Really wish I knew how it felt to have a mind unoccupied by worries about my appearance, even if just for an hour or two, or to be able to have photographs taken of myself, feel confident being looked at, etc. etc..

Trying to do the right thing, though, and keep myself from touching my face. And just writing today off as a 'healing' day that will hopefully soon pass. :whistle:

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Pretty mixed.

On my 7th week of differin and woke up with 1 small papule and 2 tiny whiteheads after being 100% clear for over a week. I am obviously upset but I feel guilty for being upset for 2 reasons. 1. I am only on week 7 of the recommended 12 to start seeing results. 2. If I am upset over 3 tiny unnoticable to most people spots then I have made progress. Hell I still remember when I had severe cystic acne and it was only 2 years ago. I used to have papules, whiteheads, blackheads, and monstorous cysts that would bleed and weep throughout the day. I guess I need to learn to stop being so damn shallow and cocky and let my differin work without worrying every tiny zit is gonna make me somehow turn cystic again.

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I saw a dermatologist at the beginning of June. She told me that I had moderate inflammatory acne and prescribed me Solodyn(antibiotics), Onexton cream for the morning and Retin-a cream at night. I've been taking these everyday. After the first couple of weeks, my forehead, nose, upper lip area and chin cleared up, but they weren't really that bad to begin with. The huge problem areas were my cheeks. I saw no improvement in my cheeks for a while. After maybe a month and a half, I went back to the dermatologist and I had only dark red scars on my cheeks. Now, a few weeks later, some of my acne is coming back. I'm getting some tiny zits on my forehead, and I have some cysts on my cheeks again, plus the scars from before. I don't know if it's because of the stress I've been feeling lately or what. So I guess I'm feeling kind of sad and irritated right now. I hope it gets better.​​
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I got tagged in a very unflattering photo on Facebook today. My jawline acne is a lot more horrendous than I thought. The camera doesn't lie, does it?

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Last week was horrible. Felt a cyst forming deep under my skin on the cheekbone 8 days ago. I knew this would be nasty. 5 days ago, it had grown into a nickel sized monster and I Iooked like the character from the Saw movies. This was the day I had to give a very big presentation at the office. I went to work dressed sharp in a suit with a HUGE cyst on my cheekbone. Stood in front of the boardroom and tried by best to show my "good" side to the folks there. The yesterday and the day before I had to go out with family and friends on a 2 day trip. Didn't enjoy it one bit although nobody mentioned the huge zit (even the little kids knew enough to be quiet about it), but I felt like everyone was staring at it all the time.

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Tried out rosehip oil as I heard it is good for scarring (my scarring is very light so I was hoping it could help even a bit...). A week later I am now dealing with the consequences. Tiny little red pimples all on the areas where I applied it (cheeks) Heck, I even have a big zit on my NECK, where I didn't apply it, and where I never get zits. I am done putting anything on my face. Going to just wash my face with distilled water. If I don't put anything on it I can't make it worse I suppose. I am starting to think I am morphing into a zit. Like, I don't just have zits, I am one. One big walking, talking zit. Ok, I think I'm going crazy. Please excuse me.

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I've been avoiding this website like the plague as I tend to fixate but i just had to come back to vent. My skin situation is getting worse day by day. I thought nothing could be worse than acne but having dermatitis too is too much. My skin is dry no matter how much moisturizer I use, red and broken out. I look bloody awful. I am 3 days in the SCD for leaky gut. I can't use any topicals at all due to the dermatitis and I have cysts on my neck.

People talk about it getting better. I've had 16 years dealing with this on and off and I've honestly lost all hope of it ever getting better. I'm numb to the whole situation. I wish I could go back in time and never have begun using treatments for my acne -maybe it would have gone away on its own like everyone else in my family.

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I hardly come on this site anymore.. Because my skin is doing well! I put concealer on one tiny, yet vibrant, red scar and im good to go! Im very red cheeked, but I think it's just something i need to live with.. My female friend even asked me if I was wearing blusher yesterdah which was upsetting.. But then she carried on to say how jealous she was and how I looked healthy compared to how pale she was!

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Very fed up. My face is just one big mass of acne, scars, marks and enlarged pores. Make-up really just makes it look worse, so I'm a bit lost as to what to do really. I'm undergoing what scar treatments I've been recommended (TCA cross and dermapen), but if they're making any difference it's only minor. My skin tone and texture, in general and all over, is still terrible. Continuing on with this seemingly endless battle is getting very disheartening. At 26 I assumed the acne stage of things might at least be over with, but apparently that's not to be! If my face would at least stop breaking out, then I could look towards fixing some of the damage left behind rather than gaining new scars to add to the already existing collection :/

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I don't even feel sad about my skin today. When I look at my reflection I feel a throbbing numbness that makes me ache. I hate that even when I can't see my acne, I can still FEEL it, sitting there. How can something so seemingly insignificant make a person experience such dark feelings, thoughts? I hate the society that we live in.

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I used to come on this site and to look at what people think and say about acne, how they live with it... etc

But today I've decided to vent. I'm feeling down today... A few years and even a few months ago, I used to have more acne on my face, and even in my back (I have a lot in my back). I would have new pimples, whiteheads... etc EVERYDAY.

Then I started taking zinc and a different way of contraception, and it calmed down. I also started being careful at what I ate ("you are what you eat"), and it's better ! But I have pre-period/period breakouts. Soemtimes I even have breakouts and I don't even know why. For a week my clear would be clear (I always have red marks due to past breakouts) and then it would look horrible.

When I have breakouts I feel awful.. Once you look at yourself with a "clear" skin, you are SO happy that you're depressed when a new breakout appears. I think that the most hurting thing is all my little cousin (children) staring at me asking "why do you have pimples ?" "it's ugly". OK they're very young and they don't know what they're saying, but omg it makes me feel down because then I think "wow, my pimples are so visible..."

I have to confess that it can be nothing for some of you. Some of you are living so worst... But I think that we shouldn't judge us on that, we should know that EVERYONE has its own level of sensitivity

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Feeling crappy. It's been 16 years of this crap and once again, I am on another 'worse before it gets better' regimen. I am so physically, mentally and financially exhausted from dealing with this. 11 days into [email protected] 50 mg and my initial breakout has hit me hard. I'm literally too tired to cry. I feel embarrassed about what my skin has become and i feel like 1/2 a woman. I feel so unattractive....... I definitely don't want ti be dealing with this in my 40's.....sigh. If anyone can relate, feel free to PM -could use the encouragement.

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I feel generally better today than I have done for a while, although the trick is of course to not get carried away. A break out will come sooner or later: I am sure of the cycle repeating itself.

I’m using right now a combination of 5% BP and Tria’s blue light Clearing Device. It’s quite drying and the Tria cartridges are expensive as hell, but it does seem to be preventing any major breakouts right now.

I freaked recently and got really depressed when I saw that my skin was starting to scar. There are a few, indented dark marks, one particularly noticeable one on my left cheekbone. However, I will NOT have any work done on the scars, they are a symbol and pertinent reminder and general anguish and misery that acne has brought me throughout my youth.

I have a derm appointment in one month, roaccutane is looking the most likely option. I’m a bit nervous about going on it having read about the links to depression etc, but I’ve tried about a gazillion topicals and loads of antibiotics, yet here I am. I’m willing to gamble on this so called ‘miracle drug’: my last resort.

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I feel hideous today. Why the fuck am I 27 and still breaking out like a teenager? Yeah, I know adult acne is a thing...I'm just ranting out of frustration. I'm terrified of tretinoin but I have some and am actually considering trying it. I feel desperate.

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I don't even feel sad about my skin today. When I look at my reflection I feel a throbbing numbness that makes me ache. I hate that even when I can't see my acne, I can still FEEL it, sitting there. How can something so seemingly insignificant make a person experience such dark feelings, thoughts? I hate the society that we live in.

Numb too. It's as if acne has ruined me completely.

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Acne is horrible but it has been worse.  I hate the fact that i have acne but hating myself less.  CBT has helped me to somewhat separate me (as a person with feelings, ideas and a lot to offer) from my acne.  I've come to realize that whether or not people notice does not have to affect me as much as it does.  The world continues whether or not I have acne. 

Still hoping though that one day it will become the lowest thing on my to do list.

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