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Skin wise, my weekend is off to a crappy start. Differin is definitely purging me something awful, especially around my hairline (where i rarely break out) and around my mouth/chin. I am seriously bummed. On top of that, the acne is red and itches on and off. I'm not even up to using it every night and I don't know if i'll get to that point. I also added Evening Prim Rose and a Probiotic to my list of supplements so who knows how that will effect the mix. My skin is just so bloody awful. Aczone seems to help with some bumps but not most so I don't know. I know it's still really early in treatment and that I need to be patient but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with, especially with the holidays around the corner.

God is holding me up though, i know that for a FACT!

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Haven't posted here in a long time. Last I posted I was taking antibiotics my doc prescribed. 3 weeks into medication and I broke out in terrible, painful hives all over my body. Had to stop taking them. About two weeks ago I had another really bad breakout, big cystic zits all over my cheeks and chin. Mostly cleared up now, but the scars they're leaving behind are destroying me.. I don't even mess with my acne. I let it run its course, yet every time a pimple goes away it leaves behind a giant dark red mark. Ugh. My whole face looks like it's broken out despite being relatively clear due to these things...

Upped my water intake, changed toothpastes, avoiding dairy like the plague, bought the entire Regimen kit instead of just the face wash (it arrives tomorrow, hoping this clears my face up for good) and started using some korean bee venom + snail slime extract for scarring. I'm so pissed that my acne has begun appearing on my cheeks now instead of just my chin. Eh. Hoping I have a clear face for the road trip my boyfriend and I are taking Monday to see my parents. Until then, I'm going to avoid any natural light and weep quietly in the corner. ;____;

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I came back home for christmas in the middle of one of the worst breakouts ive had in the last couple months. My chin looks inflammed and it hurts, yet all the people is telling me that i look way more handsome now than i did in the summer. And i am not talking about my grandma telling me im the most handsome boy in the world, im talking about friends, acquitances...

I guess its because i gained 4 kg (i was quite skinny) and i my new hairstyle suits me better and etc

I feel quite ugly right now because of my breakout, but nobody seems to notice my acne. Im the only person who notices my pimples, and it doesnt surprise me. I remember a year ago when i had porcelain skin, i never cared about people's acne, so why would clear people care about my acne now

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I came back home for christmas in the middle of one of the worst breakouts ive had in the last couple months. My chin looks inflammed and it hurts, yet all the people is telling me that i look way more handsome now than i did in the summer. And i am not talking about my grandma telling me im the most handsome boy in the world, im talking about friends, acquitances...

I guess its because i gained 4 kg (i was quite skinny) and i my new hairstyle suits me better and etc

I feel quite ugly right now because of my breakout, but nobody seems to notice my acne. Im the only person who notices my pimples, and it doesnt surprise me. I remember a year ago when i had porcelain skin, i never cared about people's acne, so why would clear people care about my acne now

Do you have acne because you deserve it?

What kind of question is that. No one deserves acne.

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I have come to realize that no matter how much we try to convince ourselves that people don't notice our skin and that its not as bad as we think, it's all wishful thinking. I've been having a much better attitude about my skin lately despite the continuous deep breakouts. I at some point had almost convinced myself that it wasn't as bad as I thought and then my co-worker gave me a tea tree set from the body shop thats 'good for skin'. It's an awkward gift to get from someone who is not a friend and I definitely know that her heart was in the right place but still - it made me pause. I hate being known as the girl with the bad skin, especially when there are so many wonderful attributes to me.

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Feeling pretty much done with life. Never, ever in my 19 year struggle with acne have I felt so low. Finishing up third course of acctuane which has failed me. Using tretinoin for the past 3 weeks and I have on confidence or faith it will work. I no longer have any stomach or resilience left for this neverending fight :( Wish I wasn't here.

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Feeling pretty much done with life. Never, ever in my 19 year struggle with acne have I felt so low. Finishing up third course of acctuane which has failed me. Using tretinoin for the past 3 weeks and I have on confidence or faith it will work. I no longer have any stomach or resilience left for this neverending fight Wish I wasn't here.

JJ, we all get into these funks but like all things in life, there is a season for everything. Some seasons may seems exceptionally long but they don't last for ever. I'm still fighting the good fight like you and I have done 4 courses of accutane to no avail. I try to live each day well and it has given me perspective. I still think having acne sucks but I try to find little kernels of happiness because I deserve it and so do you.

Enjoy this holiday season and all the best for 2015

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Feeling pretty much done with life. Never, ever in my 19 year struggle with acne have I felt so low. Finishing up third course of acctuane which has failed me. Using tretinoin for the past 3 weeks and I have on confidence or faith it will work. I no longer have any stomach or resilience left for this neverending fight Wish I wasn't here.

Hold stong. As a longtime sufferer I hope you can maybe remember times you've felt at your lowest, but pressed forward and managed to climb out of it. Grasp onto anything to make you fee better, even small things like music or a hobby that brings a little light. Just hearing this small part of your story, I'm glad you're here.

I attempted suicide 6 years ago on my birthday because my skin was relentlessly fighting me on top of other life issues. I'm still here battling this shit, at a new low, but I'm glad I failed. The lows are going to happen, but they never last.

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Thanks for the support. It's so, so hard for me at the moment and I just don't see a positive future outcome :(

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I think my skin is paying the price of all of the hypercaloric christmas food.

I was somewhat confident in my skin despite being broken out in the chin, but my latest breakout is just too much.

Today i woke with a giant cyst in the middle of the cheek, rock-solid, and bright red, a huge whitehead in the middle of the chin, and small-medium sized pimples along the jawline.

Looking at the mirror makes me feel utterly depressed, at the moment i can't even look people in the eyes, i feel disgusting.

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I dont know why, but this last week my skin has erupted. My cheeks, usually acne-free, are broken out with lots of cyst. It hurts to move my face, it itches a lot, both my cheeks are very irritated...

My skin is right now at the worst it has ever been, and its not even close.

I've got exams but i cant even study, i spend the whole day sleeping because i dont want to be awake with the current state of my skin.

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Hey everyone, I missed you! Happy new year! The past few months have been very difficult for me...I moved my entire life halfway across the world towards an uncertain future, and life threw some curveballs at me. Basically, I had some of my lowest and weakest moments in the past couple of months. The worst thing was not the things that happened in my life - it was how I dealt with them and how I mentally made them worse than they were initially. I lost my positive outlook and felt completely broken and discouraged. At my lowest point, I tried to remember those less fortunate and feel grateful for even the simple things I take for granted every day.

The only positive thing that came out of this strife was that I stopped obsessing about my skin because I had much bigger problems to worry about. Once I stopped obsessing, my skin became more controllable and, ironically, clearer. Having clear skin did not improve my life. Having a positive and cheerful outlook is what will improve it, and hopefully the rest will fall into place. I'm starting the new year with a more positive outlook and ready to contribute more to this community through research & experience. I try to keep myself busy every day, reduce stress, and remove toxic things from my life. I hope everyone here does the same.

On a more practical note, I'm working on new research regarding inflammation, histamines, and how to control them, if anyone is interested.

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My acne isn't even that bad today but my skin is dry and flaky from BP and negative temperatures. I tried to wear foundation today and it just flaked off. I cried in the bathroom today at work. I'm so sick of feeling like this. I play a 12 year old in a show opening this week and I know the audience won't be that close to my face and stage lights will wash it out but I want them to see a happy, healthy little girl on stage, not a 23 year old woman with a mustache (can't wax it because there's acne nearby), red marks, and dry flaky skin.

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Winter climate is my worst enemy, especially when it's below zero... Breaking out a bit and struggling with dryness. Hope it will soon turn into a milder winter :/

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The waiting period is so hard. Will it work this time, am i doomed to fail....again? This has not been my toughest battle to date but it has been my most persistent. I just want to wake up one day, look in the mirror and think, 'damn, that's a good looking girl right there,'

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I literally haven't posted on here in a year, but to hell with it. I've been upset and I need to vent.

I am clear now of acne but I have a skin picking problem. I basically create my own trouble. I haven't picked in 2 years, until now. I was bored, and didn't think it would do any major damage. So I went to the mirror and got to picking. I ended up squeezing the shit out of a virtually non-existent blackhead, which eventually turned into a big spot and scabbed over. The scab fell off a few days ago and it's now pink skin. It's not big, but not small either...

I just feel like I've back tracked on all of the progress I had made. I haven't picked anything in 2 YEARS. My skin was great. There was nothing wrong with it. I felt like I was on top of the world. I had beaten acne, AND skin picking. But no...I HAD to pick and now I have this brand new pink spot on my face. It's on my cheek, so it's not like you can't see it. I've been holding in my emotions all this time because I didn't want my parents to see me freaking out, but I finally lost it tonight over dinner and started crying in the restaurant. I just feel my emotional state going back to when I had acne, when I picked my skin, when my skin was bad. That was the darkest time of my life. I had never felt so depressed, hopeless, ugly, even suicidal until that time. And I got through it, and I'm so glad, but having something new on my face brings back all of those dark feelings. I've got one half of my mind saying I need to keep it together, and the other half telling me how ugly I am now and how everyone is going to see it and think I'm hideous.

Thankfully my parents were not mad at me. But I'm leaving them to go back to school now, and I just wish I could stay longer now. I wish I could stay another month to see how the spot looks then. But I know how ridiculous I'm being. I know if I told these things to like, any other person in my life, they would think I'm crazy. Who puts their life on hold for a spot on their face? Me, I guess. I don't know when I got this fucked up, or how, but it's like I can't let go of the obsession. Ever since this new spot appeared I keep looking in the mirror, taking photos of it to assess it, asking my parents how it is, and cursing myself to hell for picking at my skin. Those are all things I did years ago, too, back when I had acne and acne scars. It's all come full circle.

I just want to be happy with myself no matter what my face, or skin, looks like. That's all I want. I see so many people with acne and acne scars living life joyfully and without fear. How do they do that? How do they just not care? I want so badly to be like that. I want to be able to go outside without worrying what my skin looks like.

Anyways, I'm sorry for the random post in here. I haven't posted for a year but all of these problems recently surfaced and I'm having a lot of trouble dealing with them.

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I haven't posted here in like over a year!! that's because I have overcome acne. I don't break out anymore, well I do, but no white head, etc. I hated those so much!!! I'm here because of the scars. They're annoying me now. :( as I age, the worse they get.

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I haven't posted here in a year either also mainly because my skin has become better as well. Thanks to the new stuff I've been using for almost a year...I still get breakouts on my chin but not as much. And the best thing is that most of my pitted scars are almost gone!! I was examining my skin under harsh light this evening and it didn't make me cry like it used to. My face looks a lot better. I almost feel normal. I still have one scar on my cheek but I don't think that one will ever disappear...I can't believe one huge zit ruined my cheek. :/

I can't say I'm totally happy. I'm just happier.

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Hey everyone, long time no "see". I just wanted to pop in and let you know what's working for me lately. It's something I've talked about on here in the past but I always went back and forth on it. Now I know for sure that it helps. This is my "face washing" regimen:

-I shower once a day, in high pressure, lukewarm water that streams directly on my face for a few minutes.

-I don't rub with my fingers or use any soap.

-I get out of the shower, dry off my hair and body with a towel, then go to my room and pat dry my face with the inside of a clean t-shirt.

My face looks red and irritated, plus a little dry and flaky, for a couple hours after doing this. But it never itches. So I usually shower at night, or very early in the day if I'm going out later on. After a few hours it looks practically flawless. Although I usually have 2-3 spots at various stages in their cycle, because I have days where I second guess this regimen and do it differently, which breaks me out.

My diet is dairy free, red meat free, with limited sugar intake. But that's for general health and animal welfare reasons. I don't know if it makes a difference for my skin but I thought I should mention it.

Doing this keeps my skin clear and never oily. It does look a little rough and red at times, but I'm probably still transitioning.

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This process is a one step forward, two step back deal and its testing my patience. I think one of the hardest part of dealing with acne is not accepting it but having others accept it. Would you say to a person in a wheelchair, "man, what's wrong with your legs?"? Probably not. Then why do people think it's ok to point out the flaws of others "hey, you have a red lump or 10 on your face." If people treated me as a person and did not point out my acne, I would probably have already accepted it as part of my being.

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Winter climate is my worst enemy, especially when it's below zero... Breaking out a bit and struggling with dryness. Hope it will soon turn into a milder winter :/

Ugh. I'm on the SAME page. I thought my dryness was dealt with b/c I went to my derm. in November when it started getting cold. But apparently, that was FALL in chicago. FALL. The past few days have been constant breakouts, flaking like crazy, tightness. Also probably has something to do with the fact that I started a new tube of Tazoarac, which means it's probably more potent than my older tube. stopped all my topicals tonight and slathered on CeraVe. I want to re-normalize my skin, even if it takes a few days before I add the topicals back in gradually and in small amounts.

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