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Please HELP I AM SUICIDAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I posted earlier that I am having Spontanous Scarring After Stopping Accutane and Lamarr and Tomm were kind enough to answer me. I am taking an anti histiamine like Lamarr suggested to because it helped his stop but so far they are not stopping!!! I am totally freaking out the scars are taking over my face. Every day I wake up with more and more and more scars.

Pleas if anyone knows anything about this please help me. Tell me any info that you might have regarding this. It is killing me, the not knowing when it is going to stop and how bad it is going to get before it stops and once it does stop am I going to be totally disfigured and am i going to be able to fix them and to what degree.

Please i beg you, it has been mentioned here that other people have had this, please tell me any info you can to help me get thru this.

Amy

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I just want to encourage you to stay strong and keep your head on your shoulders through this difficult period.

I have no information to help you with your accutane issue other than to suggest getting a second opinion from an expert dermatologist? It sounds like your body is having a severe reaction. Get another opinion if you haven't done so already.

In the meantime do the best you can at allowing your skin to heal. Avoid applying vitamin E topically to your face. Maybe you should apply Retin A bc it is supposed to be good at treating early scarring. But be careful bc your face is under a lot of stress already.

Stay positive, things will get better. I can tell you form my experience with acne scars that current treatments will definitely be able to improve your skin. I'm feeling better about my skin now after treatment than I did at anytime in the last 10 years. We are all in this together, keep fighting!!!

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I posted earlier that I am having Spontanous Scarring After Stopping Accutane and Lamarr and Tomm were kind enough to answer me. I am taking an anti histiamine like Lamarr suggested to because it helped his stop but so far they are not stopping!!! I am totally freaking out the scars are taking over my face. Every day I wake up with more and more and more scars.

Pleas if anyone knows anything about this please help me. Tell me any info that you might have regarding this. It is killing me, the not knowing when it is going to stop and how bad it is going to get before it stops and once it does stop am I going to be totally disfigured and am i going to be able to fix them and to what degree.

Please i beg you, it has been mentioned here that other people have had this, please tell me any info you can to help me get thru this.

Amy

Amy,

When people stop taking accutane a lot of the scarring from acne becomes evident. As inflammation goes down many of the atrophied areas of afflicted skin can become quite visible. I know this is heart breaking for you and I went through the same ordeal. The emotional collapse I experienced followed by a powerful determination to win the scar battle is what has led me to pursue my current career.

First and foremost, your scars can be healed. However, you must not pursue any strategies to deal with them until approximately 9 - 12 months have passed post Accutane use. During this time you may see that more scars appear and/or that the ones you currently have are not as bad as you originally thought. Any of these scenarios is possible.

You can read through my posts and threads in order to see how I deal with scarring. However, I suggest you first ask yourself if you have the will to win this war. If the answer is yes, and I am certain it is, then you will have to commit yourself to believing in your ability to cope with this difficult challenge and live your life as best you can so that you may have the psychological/emotonal ressources to keep focused on the task at hand, which is scar free skin. What I say is always easier said than done, but the point is, it can be done. Nothing is impossible, especially when taking into account the current progress in regenerative medicine, and thus it is possible for you to have beautiful skin.

This challenge can only make you more aware of the human condition, which is a complex composition of pain, of misery, of contemplation, of vision, of goals, of determination, of hope and ultimately of crossing the finish line. At the end of the dark tunnel in which you currently find yourself lays that which you currently seek. It will not be easy getting there as it certainly isn't easy going even one day through life thinking you are unattractive. However, you will achieve that which you want and the more aware of this eventual outcome you become the more you will realize how important YOU and your LIFE is... Especially since one day you'll be able to help others with your knowledge and experience of victory and success.

We are all here to help you.

Kind Regards,

BRD

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Hey don't freal out too much hun,most of us have been thru this.I can tell you that initially it looks bad,but then it reverts to actually getting better as it goes thru a healing stage.Accutane is doing its job...great stuff. I know i been their. But I'm also here to tell you that I'm close to a 75% comeback.I have been doing sculptra and my own 1.5mm dermarolling.Now I'm scheduled for a fraxel c02 next week which i know will be a 95% homerun.Please,iam telling you all this because its not the end, you have great procedures out their,I did'nt 20 years ago,and its getting better!!!!

It won't be too long before they make stem cells a daily procedure,as the military is already doing.

And most of all, life is too damn precious,you are here for a reason.The world needs you,and you will get better,just don't give up.

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Computergirl:

What does your dermatologist say? Is your doctor stumped like Lamarr's doctor? Have you had your condition checked out by anyone else? One of the great things about being in the NY area is that there are lots of highly skilled doctors and dermatologists.

Lamarr:

Did you have a similar reaction? I read you were able to solve it with an antihystemine which computer girl has tried. How has your recovery progressed?

Praise:

I don't want to hijack the thread. You can send me an email, my information is listed.

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Computergirl -

Your post is quite alarming, and I can only sympathis with you. It seems what you are going through has had a sudden cause, and you seem to be getting worse with your symptoms.

I don't know what is causing the scarring, you say when you wake up you see more and more. What is going on that you think may be causing it? Is your face flushing? Are you using any products that could set something off?

I think if it is as you say it is get yourself to an emergency room to get advice fast. Being quick is the best way to deal with this problem. I really hope you pull through okay. It could be the case that you are having some sort of reaction, and once sorted you will return to normal. I am sure this is the case. An antihistamine may be a good idea in a high dose perhaps. I have no personal experience with this, so best to see a specialist and perhaps take that article that lamarr gave you with you..

Best of luck!

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Well, if the description at emedicine linked by Lamarr is correct; first and foremost let me say I am SO sorry :comfort: I'm certain this must be hell for you - please keep your hope alive, however you can.

Second - ok, I'm not a doctor, but if the description is accurate - the underlying structure of the skin is weakened, and the elasticity diminished, causing sudden breaks/depressions and thus scarring.

It stands to reason that you would want to improve elasticity and collagen as much as possible (internally and externally) while simultaneously removing ANY irritation.

So - if you are exfoliating by any means - chemical (acids like salicylic, glycolic or lactic) enzyme (papain, bromain or mushroom extract) or physical (granule, buf-puf, washcloth, sponge, etc.) - STOP.

If you are picking AT ALL stop. No matter how ready any pimples may be.

No drying/stripping cleansers. No toners, no anti-aging products, no acne products.

Use a super mild wash - California Baby Super Sensitive hair and body wash is a completely non-invasive cleanser available for about nine bucks at Target. A cream cleanser would be good as well.

Moisturize very well - Aquaphor, Pond's Cold Cream (yes, you can leave it on) Olive Oil.

Drink lots of water. Lots. Limit caffeine - caffeine is dehydrating - dehydration= water loss in the tissues. Dehydrated tissue = fragile tissue.

How is your nutrition? Plenty of fruit and vegetables? Adequate protein?

Supplements that MAY help:

Vitamin C

Glucosamine

Chondroitin Sulfate

Hyaluronic Acid

Full range of B vitamins

Silica

Magnesium

Zinc

Copper

EPA/DHA (fish oil)

Alpha Lipoic Acid

Vitamin E

Most Importantly - go back to your derm and inform them of this if you haven't already. If you did and they were unresponsive - try gain, find a new derm or doctor.

Good luck!!

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Hello,

I hope what the other people have said has been helpful. I just wanted to talk about the psychological side of what you're going through. Please remember you're precious - I know it sounds cheesy, but you are. You're wonderful and you must not throw that away. Please don't hurt yourself. If you're feeling this low, it is so, so important to talk to someone you trust about it (preferably an adult), like a relative, friend, teacher/lecturer, whatever. Seeing a doctor and getting referred to a therapist would be brilliant so you can talk things out and have someone to support you through this. You can also call a helpline: in the US (you're in New York?) you can call 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or find other numbers at www.befrienders.org. You can also email [email protected] (it's a UK organisation but I assume it works outside) and they try to get back within 12 hours.

I know I'm posting really late on this thread, but I couldn't just ignore it, since I've struggled with similar feelings and with bad acne too. Seeing a therapist has helped me so much. I know how hard it is to deal with acne, but it doesn't define you and it mustn't define your life. You are worth far too much! Remember to always, always talk to someone about your feelings and remember that acne is not who you are. You are wonderful. I hope you're feeling better at the time of reading this; if not, please believe me that things are going to get better! Lots of love.

Edited by whitestripes11

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Please i beg you, it has been mentioned here that other people have had this, please tell me any info you can to help me get thru this.

Amy

Amy,

Please, please, please don't harm yourself in anyway. Think about the unbearable pain you will cause your family and friends. You know how awful it feels to be in emotional pain, so you know you would never want to cause that for your loved ones. As bad as your hopelessness and despair may feel, it is nothing to what your family would feel if you ended your life.

Things will get better. I used to be terribly depressed about my scars. I was absolutely positive that I would never be able to live with them, but I have. All things pass...even emotions that we are certain will never pass.

I'm not sure when, but eventually there will be a treatment that will render our scarring essentially imperceptible.

I've been in the deepest levels of human depression, so I am familiar with the pain that you are going through and I promise it will get better.

Please go an talk to a counselor if you are serious about suicide. Your life is infinitely unique and precious. Never forget that.

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This is an old topic, I'm closing it.

I am very sorry to hear that people are having a hard time coping with acne and/or scarring, but please check with a counselor on this issue.

While you may voice various issues at these forums, we strongly feel this is not a suitable place to share suicidal thoughts with other members. We have instituted this policy due to past experiences with suicide threads attracting all sorts of hideously unsupportive and nasty behavior; not only that, no one here is equipped to deal with such a psychiatric emergency. You are welcome to elicit support on topics that do not touch on suicide in any way.

I strongly encourage you to seek a professional's assistance on this matter.

Information about professional assistance can be found here: http://www.acne.org/...ard-disclaimer/

In the meantime, please visit the following website and make sure to read the entire page: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

To help you understand why moderators always close suicide threads, please have a look at the following topic: http://www.acne.org/...uicide-threads/

Thanks for understanding!

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