Siava 55 Share Posted July 3, 2008 Bummer! I bet you'll feel better once you learn the ins and outs of your new position. Congratulations on landing a new job! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted July 28, 2008 Day 104 (I think)Well I've come this far and right now my skin is pretty much perfect. I barely need to put concealer on. It barely makes a difference.But only last week I had a cyst in a really bad place that kept me housebound for 2 days. That was DEPRESSING.That gave me two different thoughts:1) It reminded me of how awful it feels to have unwanted extra features (large cysts) on my face. The reason I decided to take this last resort drug2) It also made me worry that the drug is not working - has anybody else had problems this far into their treatment?The skin on my (flawless) forehead is pretty oily. Hmmmm.... is that normal?Back still gets sore more easily, lips still super dry....Also another question - When you finish Roaccutane does your mood improve? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted July 29, 2008 Day 105 I'm sure I just forgot to add a few things. My nose is constantly bleeding. I'm worried that this must have something to do with my liver as I am aware that alcoholics with liver failure get nose bleeds and I have been drinking a bit. Not much, but I have very low tolerance. I'm not going to have any more drinks.The other thing I noticed is that when my skin was bad last week, people looking at me, and then looking away when I looked at them. unless I'm neurotic Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 7, 2008 Day 114 I forgot to put sun cream on the other day and I got completely burnt. My skin is still peeling. Silly me!I have also upped my own dose to 60mg/day. This is because my skin is still not perfect and both Siava and eliebellie started on the same dose but have been raised already.I don't want to have to go on this drug again so I want to make it work this timeDay 105 I'm sure I just forgot to add a few things. My nose is constantly bleeding. I'm worried that this must have something to do with my liver as I am aware that alcoholics with liver failure get nose bleeds and I have been drinking a bit. Not much, but I have very low tolerance. I'm not going to have any more drinks.The other thing I noticed is that when my skin was bad last week, people looking at me, and then looking away when I looked at them. unless I'm neurotic Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Siava 55 Share Posted August 7, 2008 The other thing I noticed is that when my skin was bad last week, people looking at me, and then looking away when I looked at them. unless I'm neurotic This made me chuckle. I mean that in a light spirited way. I think most acne sufferers are neurotic which is why I love this board. I hope the 60mg doesn't make your nose bleed worse. I also hopes that it helps you progress more to your tastes. Keep truckin'! We're almost done!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 9, 2008 The other thing I noticed is that when my skin was bad last week, people looking at me, and then looking away when I looked at them. unless I'm neurotic This made me chuckle. I mean that in a light spirited way. I think most acne sufferers are neurotic which is why I love this board. I hope the 60mg doesn't make your nose bleed worse. I also hopes that it helps you progress more to your tastes. Keep truckin'! We're almost done!! HELP I FEEL SO DEPRESSED I FEEL LIKE CRYING Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Da Foxx 0 Share Posted August 9, 2008 The other thing I noticed is that when my skin was bad last week, people looking at me, and then looking away when I looked at them. unless I'm neurotic This made me chuckle. I mean that in a light spirited way. I think most acne sufferers are neurotic which is why I love this board. I hope the 60mg doesn't make your nose bleed worse. I also hopes that it helps you progress more to your tastes. Keep truckin'! We're almost done!! HELP I FEEL SO DEPRESSED I FEEL LIKE CRYING Your not alone! I was clear for not half a day! I had all my scabs fall off and was admiring my skin! my intense red marks were gone! The next day I wake up with 1 active on my left check, andd 3 on my right that were in a line! I started to use all these tropicals on them, I just went crazy! At least now they are all gone and they just left red marks like before, which still makes it look like I have acne! : ( i'm finished my second month by tomorrow and start my third month on Sunday. For my third month I plan to stay home and just sleep all day hope to wake up with clear skin, lol.... Your almost there! Just hang in there! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 9, 2008 Suicide entered my head earlier for the first time in a while. I feel like .. helpthis is not a good situation. I am not sure if it's just due to the roaccutane. I feeel like I need some kind of help Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
his mom 0 Share Posted August 9, 2008 Suicide entered my head earlier for the first time in a while. I feel like .. help this is not a good situation. I am not sure if it's just due to the roaccutane. I feeel like I need some kind of help Please talk to someone who can help and not someone who puts you off. The fact that you wrote something on this forum speaks volumes of your maturity and self worth. My father did what you are talking about and if he had just called out...just please please please reach out to someone who will listen. You will be in my thoughts many times over the next several weeks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 13, 2008 Please talk to someone who can help and not someone who puts you off. The fact that you wrote something on this forum speaks volumes of your maturity and self worth. My father did what you are talking about and if he had just called out...just please please please reach out to someone who will listen. You will be in my thoughts many times over the next several weeks. Suicide seemed attractive for a brief interval. It was like one of those times when you are in such intense physical pain you want to just die. It was like that except it was emotional pain. Not pleasant. Thanks for that advice. I actually was trying to call people the whole time during that episode and it was hard to get in touch with anybody! I don't think this is due to Roaccutane though. Maybe it is, I am not sure. I know my mood swings more easily but I also know I was depressed before even starting. I am thinking more in terms of going on prozac or something when I finish this roaccutane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Siava 55 Share Posted August 13, 2008 OTH, I think Prozac or something similar would be a good idea...or even just counseling so you know you'll always have someone to talk to that isn't going to judge you. I'm glad you're feeling better and sorry I didn't see the earlier posts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 16, 2008 Day 123 great!!!I like the look of 123. It shows how far through the course I am. I remember looking at that number a few months ago and envying the people that were so far through!Well that depressive episode I had was pretty awful. I don't know how much I can blame it on the roaccutane though. Actually that whole situation has made me realise that somebody I considered one of my best friends is actually not a friend at all. That's a pretty dramatic change which will change the status quo of my life....Does anybody else remember Sid!'s accutane log?I remember he had some dramatic episodes in his life during his course too. I'm trying to discern the nature of the association between Accutane and life-drama.... Is it that:1) Our perspective changes due to the drugs: We all have constant drama/trouble in our life but is just seems much more depressing/dramatic/difficult to deal with when on RoAccutane or....2) Our behaviour changes: RoAccutane makes us act more irrationally (in a subtle enough way for it not to be obviousl to us or those around us) and causes trouble which then depresses us or....3)nothing changes: it is just a coincidence that I have found the past few months difficult, and I noticed on Sid!'s blog that he did too. This is only two different experiences on the drug and most people seem fine. Our troublesome experiences while on the drug were unrelated to the drug.Well that's what I have been wondering about anyway. As regards my skin and side effects, my skin is good, but still getting spots. I notice some hairs falling out again now (possibly due to raising the dose), but no real signs of impending baldness, apart from my hair feeling less abundant on the top (not looking it though and most likely this is in my head). My lips are extremely dry and need constant chapstick. Muscle and joint pains, but not bad and not restrictive. So only two more months. I am aiming for 180 days, but if I reach two months from after the date I raised my own dose to 60mg, I will feel okay about ending my course then. That's only a diffrence of about two weeks. I am going to make an appointment with the psychiatrist (who it should be noted that I have visited before, about depression, a long time before I went on Roaccutane). So hopefully he won't fob me off as soon as he hears about the drug I'm on. I'm wondering if I should even tell him about the Roaccutane. I REALLY don't want to be taken off the drug after coming this far and that's what I'm afraid will happen. I suppose I should really tell him about the Roaccutane anyway, since Prozac might interact with Roaccutane or also damage the liver or somthing Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 21, 2008 Day 128Thinking about not going on prozac after all. I've been feeling better recently. I think it's about keeping busy. Doing stuff. Still feeling tired though, and is not perfect....I wish I had started this drug when I first wanted to Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 23, 2008 Day 130Yay! nearing the end. My target date is 160 days. If I quit roaccutane any day after that I think I'll be okay. hmmmm, that's the 22nd of September I think Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Siava 55 Share Posted August 25, 2008 So close!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 26, 2008 Yes siava. Are you finished ALREADY?It is Day 133, and the days can't pass quickly enough. My lips are in shreds! And my nose is bleeding. crap. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 27, 2008 I've checked my stocks and I only have 21 days left worth of roaccutane which brings me up to Day 154 or 155. I've decided that this will be the time I end my course. This is only 41 days on 60mg, the rest on 40mg, but I have decided that given my workload and stressload, it would be the best option to quit then, and if my skin reverts to its former self, I'll just have to go back on the drug (if so I will INSIST on getting my dose raised earlier).But hopefully that won't have to happen. I am looking forward to a life without acne, and without acne side-effects.So it's the final countdown now. I can hold my remaining roaccutane in my hand and know that the end is in sight! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted August 31, 2008 Day 138I feel sick. I hope I don't vomit out all my roaccutane. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted September 2, 2008 Day 1402 weeks.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Siava 55 Share Posted September 2, 2008 You're almost there!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted September 7, 2008 Day 14510 days. Can't wait (an extra day crept in somehow. I must have miscalculated) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted September 9, 2008 Day 1478 days Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sunrise25 0 Share Posted September 9, 2008 soooo close!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OverTheHorizon 0 Author Share Posted September 17, 2008 DAY 155Well that's finished. I'm very relieved. That's a huge load off my mind.Skin is very good. No spots. One small lump under my skin which may need removal some other way - however this may not be acne and only I notice it, and only when I shine light a certain way - all the same I want it gone, and so it will be gone).Hair is very dry, and falls out every so often (but not at all noticeable so maybe another one grows every time one falls out). This is of mild concern.I've noticed that I need a hell of a lot of sleep lately! Another bodily quirk I'm hoping to experience less. Of note- my body aches and pains really went away in the last week for no apparent reason. Before I got off the tane! hmmm.... doesn't make sense.I'm looking forward to drinking very soon. I'll give it a few days.At a slightly stressful part of my life right now.... so hopefully getting off the roaccutane will give me a bit of the bounce I need. I'm glad I carried on until 155 days. I'll let you know what happens in the "withdrawal"... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sunrise25 0 Share Posted September 17, 2008 Great news!!! Here's your dancing banana, hehe Hope you stay clear for good!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
