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Hi All,

This post doesn't have much to do with acne, but it is definitely a emotional and psychological problem. I have 3 general problems in my life. Number 1 is gambling, number 2 is acne, and number three is lack of a gf. I am gonna focus on my gambling addiction today.

I have a gambling problem. I have been gambling for 4 years now. I have lost tens of thousands of dollars on gambling over the years. I have tried to quit so many times in the past either on my own, with help of family and friends, and or GA. Even though it had worked for a period of time every time, I have always managed to relapse. I have quit and relapsed countless times over the past years that I am so tired from it all. I feel like I can never be the same again and that this is gonna be part of me for the rest of my life.

I just don’t get it! I was doing so well for a while. From October of last year to now I’ve only gambled twice. The last time was June and I just did myself in again tonight! I am so disappointed and confused on why I had to go and ruin a good thing I had going on. Even though I’m still ok financially but my recovery just took a big hit. I went back to the person I hated and everything turned out just as it would have if I had never stopped. I just went gamble crazy! I don’t know why I had to go… I guess I just started wishful thinking and all the things I would do if I win. This happens to me all the time where I get to a nice comfortable place and I just have to go and ruin it! A part of all this has to do with not being able to fully forget all the money I had lost in my gambling career. Another part is my lack of social life. Acne has also played a part in my latest slip, my nose has gone from perfectly clear to cystic acne over night. To make matter worse, it took me 3 weeks to get over one and then a few days later there was another! My nose look like a battle field right now! But none of those things are excuses for what happened tonight! I should have known better and should have never gone back. I really don’t know if I can ever trust myself again. I don’t know if there is ever gonna be a time where I can be completely gambling free. I have quit and relapsed too many times to count! I am scared for my future and scared that I will never be back to normal again!

Not sure what i want out of this post, but i just thought I'd share since this is all so fresh on my mind!

Thanks for listening.

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Hello. I understand gambling is a horrible addiction, and addiction it is. People can and do ignore their physical needs (eating, drinking, toileting, personal hygiene), family needs and relationships, and career whilst in the throes of a gambling addiction. Nothing I'm saying you don't already know. :(

BUT. There are programs out there that can help. We can't. :( Much as we would like to, it is such a serious addiction that you do need professional guidance and help. Please do call your own physician and ask what you can do, where you can find help for your gambling addiction. YOU can start the cure. You can recover.

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you dont need a reason for a post like that mate, sometimes its good to just get things off your chest. doesnt it always seem like whatever problems we're working through in our life acne just rolls up at the perfect time to put the icing on the cake :doubt:

sorry to hear you lapsed back into it. but its a good thing you're aware of how much of a problem it is for you, a lot of people think they're not too bad and as a result dont give themselves enough motivation to do anything about it. you hating yourself right now might just be enough to give you the self discipline next time the urge hits

and dude you seriously need to forget about what you've lost in the past. i know the feeling that you just need to try one more time, but its gone. all that shit is just a mind game. its not your money anymore and its out of your control. i know you know this already but im telling you right now as well. you have to just let it go

good luck with everything, and i feel you on the girlfriend/social life thing too, i could use those couple of things myself right now

:comfort:

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Yeah once a few years ago.. I used one of the betting websites and lost all my money on it (like £40.. I was only young) but that taught me never to gamble again apart from the odd lottery ticket here and there.

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I work at a local casino as a security officer, and let me tell you, I see the effects of gambling addictions on a daily basis. Due to confidentiality, I can't speak on any specific example, but I can say that it isn't pretty.

1-800-GAMBLER is a counseling call center that offers help 24-7.

My casino offers self-exclusion as a powerful tool to help addicted gamblers. We will not cash the checks of a SE, nor will security even allow them into the casino. This has to be initiated by the person with the problem as a step in their recovery. We cannot help, or even offer help if a person does not ask for it.

Hope this info is useful.

I'm not sure "good luck" is the best thing to say in this instance. Break a leg?

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I'm not sure "good luck" is the best thing to say in this instance. Break a leg?

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Thanks everyone for your support!

My mind really is a dangerous place! When the urges hit, I feel like I loose total control over everything! I know all the logic and all the reasons why I shouldn't go, but when that urge hits, I can talk myself out of any better judgment.

I have taken a lot of steps to aid my recovery such as turning over my ATM card to a friend, giving visibility to my bank activity to that friend, and self-exclusion at the casinos I played the most. For the longest time I didn't even wan to gamble anymore even if I thought about it.

Everything came crashing down yesterday... all the stars aligned against my recovery!

- I have become too complacent with my recovery

- I started to have strong urges again( this usually happens when I haven't gambled for a long time)

- I started to day dream and wishful thinking that this time would be different and all the wonderful things I would do with the wining

- I had a day off from work with nothing to do

- My friend also has become complacent and was not checking up on me as much since it's been a long time since i've gambled (he didn't know that i had gambled once before in June)

- The one casino I didn't self-exclude is the one I went first

- Then I ended up with one that I did self-exclude but I had cash so they didn't catch me.

=> Went on a gambling binge and lost a good amount of money. The emotional toll tho is priceless and I am now back to square one!

I will most likely have to confess to my friend and let him down again. I need to have him start monitor my bank account more closely again.

I have always been a very strong person and have never had a addiction until gambling came into play. I am a very independent person and having to give up my bank account is a huge blow to my ego.

The kicker to all this is that even as I'm writing all this, in the back of my mind I'm thinking I should give it another go and win back the lose from yesterday and then pretend it never happened. Of course I know better... I have a very sick mind! I am my own worst enemy!

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Thanks everyone for your support!

My mind really is a dangerous place! When the urges hit, I feel like I loose total control over everything! I know all the logic and all the reasons why I shouldn't go, but when that urge hits, I can talk myself out of any better judgment.

I have taken a lot of steps to aid my recovery such as turning over my ATM card to a friend, giving visibility to my bank activity to that friend, and self-exclusion at the casinos I played the most. For the longest time I didn't even wan to gamble anymore even if I thought about it.

Everything came crashing down yesterday... all the stars aligned against my recovery!

- I have become too complacent with my recovery

- I started to have strong urges again( this usually happens when I haven't gambled for a long time)

- I started to day dream and wishful thinking that this time would be different and all the wonderful things I would do with the wining

- I had a day off from work with nothing to do

- My friend also has become complacent and was not checking up on me as much since it's been a long time since i've gambled (he didn't know that i had gambled once before in June)

- The one casino I didn't self-exclude is the one I went first

- Then I ended up with one that I did self-exclude but I had cash so they didn't catch me.

=> Went on a gambling binge and lost a good amount of money. The emotional toll tho is priceless and I am now back to square one!

I will most likely have to confess to my friend and let him down again. I need to have him start monitor my bank account more closely again.

I have always been a very strong person and have never had a addiction until gambling came into play. I am a very independent person and having to give up my bank account is a huge blow to my ego.

The kicker to all this is that even as I'm writing all this, in the back of my mind I'm thinking I should give it another go and win back the lose from yesterday and then pretend it never happened. Of course I know better... I have a very sick mind! I am my own worst enemy!

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Good luck trying to stop, I also knew the son of a widow who inherited a plump sum of $1,000,000 USD only to gamble it all off.

Do you live in Vegas? I do, and to tell you the truth, I've seen so many slot machines and casinos I've really become desensitized. It doesn't even look remotely fun. I'm also a minor so I couldn't even gamble if I wanted to.

BTW living in Las Vegas sucks if you're <21. No gambling. No alcohol. Nothing for kids to do.

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hello ignore this if you wish whatever. i know nothing

if you keep sucubmming to the gambling adicton and breaking and then blowing out..is there any possibilty of changing what you gamble on...like instead of playing slot machine or poker...stop yourself playing them...and substitute for another type of gambling...maybe horses or soemthing like that...

and then only allow certain amount to be spent on it each week...like say max $100 per week....after that 100 is gone..no more until next week....could that be a workabale solution for you??....dont have to rule out gambling entirely from your life if long as can retain some handle on it it as part of your entertainment....like going to eat out or cineamas buying clothes...

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yeah thats a good point in a way.. maybe weaning yourself off is the way to go.

ive never had an addiction to it, but what i do on the odd occasion when i go gambling is only take a certain amount of cash with me into the casino.. an amount that im prepared to lose. ive got my wallet with me but i take say 100bucks note in my pocket and then i only play that and if i lose it i tell myself thats it, thats my money gone, time to go.

but if i win more than 100 bucks then i put that 100 straight back in my pocket and leave it there, so no matter what i lose after that i'll still have what i came in with. ie i've only lost what i planned to lose. this means ill never lose more than 100 bucks of my own money (of course it still doesnt stop the heartache when you win a large amount but then keep trying, only to lose it again! i hate that so much lol)

remember odds wise, the house always wins. and everytime you think the way you are about getting it back/getting a big win next time, is just being naive. its not in your favour anyway. try to think of it as entertainment, not a way to make money..

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remember odds wise, the house always wins. and everytime you think the way you are about getting it back/getting a big win next time, is just being naive. its not in your favour anyway. try to think of it as entertainment, not a way to make money..

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Here is a peek to the thoughts, actions, and a sequence of events that a compulsive like myself goes through. The funny thing is it never falls to turn out EXACTLY like this:

A perfect opportunity arises to gamble…no work Friday, no plans, bored out of my mind, hate to stay home and watch TV all day… I’ve got some money that no one would really miss…wouldn’t be that big of a deal….just a few hours of “funâ€

I am feeling lucky, if I only play smarter and be more patient, I CAN win!

It’s been a while since I’ve played (forgotten all about the pain from the last time)

Jump into my car

Am excited…just thinking about being there… cannot get there quick enough

Adrenaline is pumping

Closer I get, the faster I drive

I have some money that I cannot afford to lose…I don’t dare bring it in with me…I place it under the floor mat of my car…I know how I am

Park the car

Run into the casino

Put my name on the poker board and wait anxiously to be called!

Must be my lucky day!

I get good cards and win a few hands… I am already up and if I keep this up, I can win a lot of money today!

I can stay for a while

Relax a little

Cards start to turn on me… no good hole cards… no flop… get rivered… tilt…

But I know I can still win if I only wait long enough and maybe I can even hit a jackpot!

I put more money in

Then more

Until I have no more money

But

I have some money in my car

And by now…I have lost too much money and I just can’t accept that fact and most win it back

Since poker is not my game tonight and it takes way too long, maybe I can win big and fast with black jack!

Run out to the car

Get money from under the floor mat…

Back inside…play all of that money…too quickly

Now I can’t stop…I NEEDED *THAT* money

Getting desperate…I shouldn’t have blown so much

Now I *have* to win

hit the ATM (I can’t do that anymore cause I turned over my ATM card to my best friend almost a year ago), get cash from the bank if they are still open, EVEN take cash advance from a CC!

Maybe try a different table?

Now I *really* can’t leave

Eventually…out of time and/or out of available funds…have to leave

Walk slowly back to my car

Hungry

Thirsty

Geez…how could I be so stupid???

How could I do this AGAIN?

I have to STOP!!!

Can’t keep doing this.

Then…thoughts start to change

How am I going to explain this?

Explaining where I was…where the money went

And how am I gonna replace it?

I need to print this and keep it in my car so that I can read it first when the urge hits before I start the drive. I really hate the drive home and the night that follow… the nightmares, the anxiety attacks, the regrets, the disappointment in myself, the feat that this is gonna be my life, the sleepless nights, the shame…

Luckily, I have been through this enough where I am much better at controlling the thoughts of gambling. I have been through GA and it has helped me greatly. I also have a best friend who is very supportive and keeps me accountable.

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Hi All,

This post doesn't have much to do with acne, but it is definitely a emotional and psychological problem. I have 3 general problems in my life. Number 1 is gambling, number 2 is acne, and number three is lack of a gf. I am gonna focus on my gambling addiction today.

I have a gambling problem. I have been gambling for 4 years now. I have lost tens of thousands of dollars on gambling over the years. I have tried to quit so many times in the past either on my own, with help of family and friends, and or GA. Even though it had worked for a period of time every time, I have always managed to relapse. I have quit and relapsed countless times over the past years that I am so tired from it all. I feel like I can never be the same again and that this is gonna be part of me for the rest of my life.

I just don’t get it! I was doing so well for a while. From October of last year to now I’ve only gambled twice. The last time was June and I just did myself in again tonight! I am so disappointed and confused on why I had to go and ruin a good thing I had going on. Even though I’m still ok financially but my recovery just took a big hit. I went back to the person I hated and everything turned out just as it would have if I had never stopped. I just went gamble crazy! I don’t know why I had to go… I guess I just started wishful thinking and all the things I would do if I win. This happens to me all the time where I get to a nice comfortable place and I just have to go and ruin it! A part of all this has to do with not being able to fully forget all the money I had lost in my gambling career. Another part is my lack of social life. Acne has also played a part in my latest slip, my nose has gone from perfectly clear to cystic acne over night. To make matter worse, it took me 3 weeks to get over one and then a few days later there was another! My nose look like a battle field right now! But none of those things are excuses for what happened tonight! I should have known better and should have never gone back. I really don’t know if I can ever trust myself again. I don’t know if there is ever gonna be a time where I can be completely gambling free. I have quit and relapsed too many times to count! I am scared for my future and scared that I will never be back to normal again!

Not sure what i want out of this post, but i just thought I'd share since this is all so fresh on my mind!

Thanks for listening.

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man i know where you are coming from, my gambling addiction is quite as bad, but I am in High School and I gamble with my friends all the time (4-5 times a week) nothing huge but, when you lose 30-50 dollars, without a job, your savings take a hit, but then you win and it draws you back.

I got mild acne too, it just sucks.

I donth a have a girl friend ethier, and want one badly, only I got low self-esteem because of the damn, acne and when I play poker I know that my friends don't give a shit I have acne.

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What you need is someone to follow you around with a big stick, and twat you one on the head with it every time you go within five feet of a casino door. :cool:

Seriously though, I hope you find some sort of relief. Good luck, love.

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Getting desperate…I shouldn’t have blown so much

Now I *have* to win

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remember odds wise, the house always wins. and everytime you think the way you are about getting it back/getting a big win next time, is just being naive. its not in your favour anyway. try to think of it as entertainment, not a way to make money..

I know all the logic when I'm clear minded... but when the urge comes, all logic goes out the window.

Because I am a compulsive gambler, I can never just play the "$100" and leave. If I lose that $100, I would think of ways to get more money and chase that $100. If I win more than that "$100", I wouldn't leave until I give it all back!

I know that for me (thinking clearly), I can never gamble for fun and that I will always lose.

To answer Tearless, I started off a poker player then moved onto black jack. I started off playing for fun, but won a lot money. That's what did me in! I am always chasing the next win and that is what is embeded in my head.

On a bright note, I have NOT gambled since Friday even though I have had MANY urges to win that money back! This event has caused me anxieties and nightmares for the past few days. this cycle of insanity has happened way too many times.

I am trying my best to control this addiction and I appreciate all the support!

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Do you live in Vegas? I do, and to tell you the truth, I've seen so many slot machines and casinos I've really become desensitized. It doesn't even look remotely fun. I'm also a minor so I couldn't even gamble if I wanted to.

BTW living in Las Vegas sucks if you're <21. No gambling. No alcohol. Nothing for kids to do.

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