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Just going thrugh a bit of a rut so gonna have a rant to get it out my sytem...I've been thinking about how everything I've ever done and how the way I am now, my thoughts and personality and basically how my whole life has been wasted and domniated by one thing..ACNE...Well having had acne for a long time now and been through various stages of lonlinenss, depression, anxiety, paranoia etc..I'm just fed up with being fed up. Lookin back on my life and how its been so uneventful and crap its really been due to the reason of feeling unequal to other people. I think having acne gives a totally inferiority complex though sometimes I feel I had this false superiorty complex going on with other people...(because nobody with clear skin has been through the crap I've been and put myself thorugh so that makes me superior)..

like even just getting a job is a struggle for me..I hate interacting with people who are not close friends or have good clear skin especially up close in daylight..also I don't let people get in to my life..I don't have many friends beacuase of acne but the ones I do have its hard to keep up with or make new freidns when I don't like interacting with people or going out much..also being unable to work has made it harder to meet people and when I do meet someone new I feel even inferior when they talk about life and all the stuff they have done and I basically have no life experiences except sitting in my room...

yet before I had acne I had no trouble sociallisng with other people as I used to be a sociable and frinedly person. Basically now that I'm older and wasted so much years without doing anything I feel unequal to anybody I meet as they have all lived life whereas I have done nothing..

I've never been out much drinking, partying, clubbing, never had a proper girlfriend, never had regular friends to be in contact with, never had a regular job, still staying at home yet I'm now 24 and basically my life was exactly the same at 14/15 as it is now, I still play the same computer games just updated, wathcing the same movies but now sequals, listen to the same bands but new albums, still jerking off to the same pornsites but new pornstars..bla bla bla... plus I also still feel uneqaul as I am covered in acne, plus now my hairs thinning a bit just to really top it off!!! I always had long thick hair... So now I don't know how I'll ever relate to people in a normal way and have a socialable life again.

I go into a nightclub and see young teenagers gettign it on and I feel angry and frustrated, I go to a pub and see younger people in groups sociallising and laughing and feel bitter and angry, I go to McDOnalds and see kids joking around having a laugh and I feel sad..etc etc..I want to do all the things I shouldve been doing those years that I've been hiding in my room but well I can't, I don't want to be 24, but I can't act 17/18 never mind 24...

From a young optimistic happy, energetic kid I've turned into a pessimistic, cynical, angry, frustrated, paranoid young man without actually doing shit in life...time has passed by nothing has happened but I've changed for worse... Anyway, just a boring rant....

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Just going thrugh a bit of a rut so gonna have a rant to get it out my sytem...I've been thinking about how everything I've ever done and how the way I am now, my thoughts and personality and basically how my whole life has been wasted and domniated by one thing..ACNE...Well having had acne for a long time now and been through various stages of lonlinenss, depression, anxiety, paranoia etc..I'm just fed up with being fed up. Lookin back on my life and how its been so uneventful and crap its really been due to the reason of feeling unequal to other people. I think having acne gives a totally inferiority complex though sometimes I feel I had this false superiorty complex going on with other people...(because nobody with clear skin has been through the crap I've been and put myself thorugh so that makes me superior)..

like even just getting a job is a struggle for me..I hate interacting with people who are not close friends or have good clear skin especially up close in daylight..also I don't let people get in to my life..I don't have many friends beacuase of acne but the ones I do have its hard to keep up with or make new freidns when I don't like interacting with people or going out much..also being unable to work has made it harder to meet people and when I do meet someone new I feel even inferior when they talk about life and all the stuff they have done and I basically have no life experiences except sitting in my room...

yet before I had acne I had no trouble sociallisng with other people as I used to be a sociable and frinedly person. Basically now that I'm older and wasted so much years without doing anything I feel unequal to anybody I meet as they have all lived life whereas I have done nothing..

I've never been out much drinking, partying, clubbing, never had a proper girlfriend, never had regular friends to be in contact with, never had a regular job, still staying at home yet I'm now 24 and basically my life was exactly the same at 14/15 as it is now, I still play the same computer games just updated, wathcing the same movies but now sequals, listen to the same bands but new albums, still jerking off to the same pornsites but new pornstars..bla bla bla... plus I also still feel uneqaul as I am covered in acne, plus now my hairs thinning a bit just to really top it off!!! I always had long thick hair... So now I don't know how I'll ever relate to people in a normal way and have a socialable life again.

I go into a nightclub and see young teenagers gettign it on and I feel angry and frustrated, I go to a pub and see younger people in groups sociallising and laughing and feel bitter and angry, I go to McDOnalds and see kids joking around having a laugh and I feel sad..etc etc..I want to do all the things I shouldve been doing those years that I've been hiding in my room but well I can't, I don't want to be 24, but I can't act 17/18 never mind 24...

From a young optimistic happy, energetic kid I've turned into a pessimistic, cynical, angry, frustrated, paranoid young man without actually doing shit in life...time has passed by nothing has happened but I've changed for worse... Anyway, just a boring rant....

its not a boring rant.

Have you tried Accutane?

How long have you suffered?

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That's really sad :( {{{((((HUG)))}}}

I would be just like you if I weren't married with kids. Luckily, when I was younger I was thin and had clear skin. Now I am not thin and have disgusting skin. It is so embarrassing. I hate it when I finally do work up the nerve to talk to someone then later see myself in the mirror and think how gross I look :(

I hope you find some way to get out and socialize. Acne is not ALL you are ;)

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i know how you feel. i was happy until i got acne. then my teen years were wasted and now even though i got clear skin, i'm still plagued with red marks. i just have 0 confidence. i lost all my friends from high school, i've never had a girlfriend, and i'm always miserable. i'm 20 years old now and it sucks seeing people my age enjoying life while i just want to cry most nights.

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