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Hello :dance: , I'm 21 years old, do not want to make this a long post so will keep it as blunt as possible,

Had acne since 15, at 18 it got severe very bad not exaggerating like most people do but it was horrible, went on accutane 80g twice 2 pills a day at one point, somewhat cleared me up after a year, but then came back worse after i was off the tane for about 6 months, went back on it a year and half later and it never seemed to help much, so stopped it did not want to suffer from all those side effects, which i think I'm suffering from some now.

I'm stuck with the worst acne scars possible, no surgery can help me or if i can will have to spend ALOT of money, when i was 17 i couldn't afford to visit a derm, but had try various products, otc creams and stuff b5- nothing seemed to work as my life seemed to slowly drift away, no friends no social events, nothing the same to this very day.

Soon as a turned 18 went and got myself a job, my goal was to work for a year save every penny and clear my acne then head to college, but that didn't go as planned. work money wasn't enough to keep up with the derm bills accutane, blood tests ect, i did not have insurance so that killed me, i had no other choice but to start charging all of this on credit card i recently got. After 2 accutane courses, so many derm visits,all the pills, creams, shots, treatments you name it, i have tried it, and nothing really worked. Words cant describe what i have been through the past 5 years, now 21 haven't gotten anything accomplished, 16,000 in credit card debt, :wall: (that's all attempt to clear my acne) total is 19,000.too top everything off i am still breaking out pretty bad, severely scared all over my face, still haven't cleared my acne.

I ask god and myself all the time, why so bad? i know it happens to most of us but why was i hit so bad? and like this for this long, and am i going to have this for the rest of my life?? Growing up i was always a healthy good looking kid or so i was told, first 3 years of high school years were great best years of my life, you know popular kid, knew everyone, went everywhere, irresistible with the ladies, not to brag lol, but everything was great, had my life planned out and what i wanted to do with it.But that all had changed dramatically, past 4 years i have been basically hiding out, no contact with friends, even family at times, scared really and giving up hope everyday,Honestly i know some of you if not all can relate to myself that's why I'm posting this. i have no chance with my acne scars they are severe acne scar huge indents,boxscars,icepicks,rolling scars,keloids, everything, still have red marks for the past 3 years, but my acne is still there, nothing has seemed to work.

At this point not sure what can help me, it really sucks when you see other people your age going out having fun, doing something but you? nothing, don't get me wrong i have tried hard with school and everything but just cant,its so hard and no one seems to understand!! I remember having cysts and HUGE white head filled pimples the size of a dime on my face several of them, Not wanting to even go outside to get the mail. i have no idea what to do, I'm i stuck with this for the rest of my life? am i going to be a loser living with my parents at the age of 35 with no wife and kids, whats going to happen to me? that's the route i see myself heading if this problem is not corrected and it continues,replies or questions are welcome thanks for reading my post and god bless.

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wow...yeah ive been there. execpt i had acne all through high school..

Acne is invincible though man. I hate to say it. If you were meant to have it, its nothing you can do about it really, its in your dna.

The best you can do is keep it at bay. But it never goes away. Im almost 30 and im still fighting this mess.

The sooner you realize this, the better it gets.

As far as the scars go, i dont know what to tell you. Im still looking for help on that myself.

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My situation sounds impeccably similar to yours. I can't stand leaving my apt to go to class (I'm 22 and in grad school). I walk outside and I want to wear a hood or mask to hide myself. I absolutely can't stand being in crowds of people because of the proximity to everyone. The farther someone is away from me, the better I look. What kind of health insurance do you have? I realize the kind of debt you're in with all the treatment you've seeked, but you shouldn't give up on looking for a good derm. After being under the care of 4 different derms, I've come to realize that each one treats his/her patients quite differently. The ways of practicing dermatology changes drastically depending on what hospital and even what doc you see. There may be one out there that might be compatible with you.

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My derm knew someone who had to take 4 treatments of ROA even 5 before it really helped, so there is still hope!

Once you acne is calm and you have severe scars, red marks, icepick no laser, treatment or whatever will help you EXCEPT for a 2 day mask.

You can go the plastic surgery and they will put you on a mask that you will have to leave on for 2 whole days! After those 2 days you can sratch it off and your skin will be really red. After 4 months your new skin is on it's way and you will have youthfull skin again! This is a really dramatic thing. Because you'll look like hell for a few months but I think it would be worth it! Rather 4 months of hell then a lifetime of hell.

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NJGUY,

I'd give you a great big hug right now if I could. I know you poured your heart out in your post.

What are you currently doing for your acne?

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Thanks guys for the reply, it seriously means alot to me! ;)

Right now honestly i think i have tried everything the derm has to offer unless something new has came up in the past year? Now the only thing I'm using is proactiv bp gel which i know is doing absolutely nothing for me.

I'm not sure if i do want to go accutane route again, not sure if i should blame the accutane for some sideeffects i think I'm experiencing now so I'm scared about that, Acne has changed my life dramatically has made me look totally different on many point of views in life and people for the better, but then again has changed me into sort of a non sociable, sad, maybe loner person towards my family and friends or so i think, but its very hard for them to understand were I'm coming from i guess, as of you guys can, sounds stupid but prob the only friends i have at the time :shy: Take care

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Thanks guys for the reply, it seriously means alot to me! ;)

Right now honestly i think i have tried everything the derm has to offer unless something new has came up in the past year? Now the only thing I'm using is proactiv bp gel which i know is doing absolutely nothing for me.

I'm not sure if i do want to go accutane route again, not sure if i should blame the accutane for some sideeffects i think I'm experiencing now so I'm scared about that, Acne has changed my life dramatically has made me look totally different on many point of views in life and people for the better, but then again has changed me into sort of a non sociable, sad, maybe loner person towards my family and friends or so i think, but its very hard for them to understand were I'm coming from i guess, as of you guys can, sounds stupid but prob the only friends i have at the time :shy: Take care

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Probally the most touching story Ive ever read on here really feel for you NJ your not alone though NJ Ive kinda fucked up my life as well I went all the way to Australia to cure my acne I thought the sun and the sea air would really help as Im from Ireland and dont get much sun but when we do get sun my skin is perfect so I thought why not which was a big mistake.I stayed there for just over 6 months and my acne was the same so I come home broke 20 and having to start over college which I dont think I will do as I will be 21 when the new year starts so ill be an old man with acne.

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I really feel for you NJ. But i was thinking that your accutane dose might have been too high and that is why you experienced many side effects. i think you should give accutane another try, and after you get cleared then find something to help with the scars. Hang in there, we all understand you.

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Yey i hear you man. Hard to go out in public? Hard to look another human in the eye and get back that "respect" or "humanity"? Its not as easy to define in there actions, but the eyes do speak. Typically degraded to the feebly glorified superstitions we see in movies and such; Hiding from the light, standing behind the tree. We arent human.

Most doctors are a waste for anything proactive or any other typically over exaggerated product cant remedy. The basic idea is to see "how many times they can get a patient to keep coming back". Do you really think their in it to help you? I assure you at the end of the day the doctor could give rats ass less about what you are going through. Accutance, Clindamycin, Tazarotene etc. simply put cover ups.

I salute you and your efforts in a "positive" sence of the situation, even if it is realistically trite. but beauty is NOT in the eyes of the beholder. Look for it in the magazines and television screens of the stereo typical characters all too often depicted.

If it is indeed as bad as you say it is not a quick potion or spread that will help. Im refering to Laser, Microdermabrasion and/or actual surgery. I heard someone mention a "2-day mask" which does not sound unreasonable. As you could guess these procedures come at high risk factors as well as the most obvious $$$$$$, but such will be to you to ratio and factor in. But at the end of the day, it boils down to just how much you want "it"? I also heard one member state "meant to have it" or implying a sence of "fate". This is an utter line of bull shit from someone who has truly surrendered to a "one-day-soon-cure"! Is a life of invisibilty really worth living? Dont wait on god for your healing. It sounds like youve been "blessed" with 20,000$ of debt from the fucker already! The derm. doctors will not help you in a way that does not benefit them in the long run. Recognize the plateau and start thinking outside of the box.

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Yey i hear you man. Hard to go out in public? Hard to look another human in the eye and get back that "respect" or "humanity"? Its not as easy to define in there actions, but the eyes do speak. Typically degraded to the feebly glorified superstitions we see in movies and such; Hiding from the light, standing behind the tree. We arent human.

Most doctors are a waste for anything proactive or any other typically over exaggerated product cant remedy. The basic idea is to see "how many times they can get a patient to keep coming back". Do you really think their in it to help you? I assure you at the end of the day the doctor could give rats ass less about what you are going through. Accutance, Clindamycin, Tazarotene etc. simply put cover ups.

I salute you and your efforts in a "positive" sence of the situation, even if it is realistically trite. but beauty is NOT in the eyes of the beholder. Look for it in the magazines and television screens of the stereo typical characters all too often depicted.

If it is indeed as bad as you say it is not a quick potion or spread that will help. Im refering to Laser, Microdermabrasion and/or actual surgery. I heard someone mention a "2-day mask" which does not sound unreasonable. As you could guess these procedures come at high risk factors as well as the most obvious $$$$$$, but such will be to you to ratio and factor in. But at the end of the day, it boils down to just how much you want "it"? I also heard one member state "meant to have it" or implying a sence of "fate". This is an utter line of bull shit from someone who has truly surrendered to a "one-day-soon-cure"! Is a life of invisibilty really worth living? Dont wait on god for your healing. It sounds like youve been "blessed" with 20,000$ of debt from the fucker already! The derm. doctors will not help you in a way that does not benefit them in the long run. Recognize the plateau and start thinking outside of the box.

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Ok man, like everyone else here I do truly feel your pain. Your story was so upsetting to hear.

I myself have been suffering from acne since I was 15 and am now too 21 still with acne and there remaining scars, huge blackheads, whiteheads, etc. I'm sorry to hear that you are in that much debt and to have nothing to show from it. This is the sorta issue that no one can really say anything to make you feel better, no words of couragement or feelings are going to make any difference (at least that's how I feel). However, no doubt you have had so much advice thrown at you on how to treat your skin - people saying try this, or give that a go - when really you are sick of hearing all that crap and you just want one simple procedure that will guarantee results with no hesitation, no side effects to go wrong. I can tell you for a fact that there are reasons for why you suffer from acne and others dont. Yes you might have a genetic dispostion which makes you prone to acne, but believe me THERE IS A CURE!!

I'm sure you have so much doubt in that word that words itself cannot describe how much. I too have felt the same. Suffering from acne for 6 years myself this is the best piece of advice I can give you - now I know the last thing you want to hear is some more advice, but I have so much faith that this will work because it makes so much sense.

Your acne is a symptom of underlying causes in your body. That is the truth and I dont care what anyone else says. Before you can clear your skin you have to clean your body on the inside. No doubt you have seen sites that say you can do this in 3 days by doing a cleanse, but that is really for people with mild acne. You need to take a series of steps to truly clean your insides. If you are not interested in this approach then I won't bother you will the details, but if you are tell me and I will tell you step by step what to do. It is remarkable how well it is working for me and I know it will work for you. Now I'm sure your probably not as worried about your acne as you are there remaing scars, but when your body is performing at its optimal level it can deal much better with scars as I've found out through my own experience. There is hope my friend, you have to keep fighting through this and you will prevail. Don't give up on God, he works these ways for reasons which help us. I pray every night for ppl just like you and me who are suffering from this disease. You are not alone. Oh, I would think twice on taking accutane, one of the worst things it does is stop the production of seratonine (spelling) in the brain which is what makes you feel happy and full of life. Without that you feel sad and miserable no matter what your skin looks like and that is why there is so much suicide related issues with that drug.

Best of luck my friend, we are all here for you and we will all get through this together. I await to here your reply

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AUSSIE SCOTT- U R SOOOOOOOOOO FULL OF SHIT ABOUT ACCUTANE REDUCING SERATONINE IN THE BRAIN! I WOULDN'T TAKE ADICE FROM PEOPLE WHO TOUT BULLSHIT LIKE THIS!!!!!

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I almost stopped reading because I felt your pain and was about to cry. Were you a bully in high school? You know, God take up through this to learn a lesson. I did alot of things in high school for attention and when something is going wrong I question, but I realize why he's doing this.

Your problem seem like it's wayyy past acne. Maybe it's your diet. You need to use a series of products, I'm talking Fade Creams, Ance Wash, and so on. I'd start with a mild soap first.

You'll be in my prayers!

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That was tough to read. It mirrors my situation almost exactly..so I understand. :( Sadly...

Do you happen to have cystic acne, or conglobata?

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Well, my situation is not as bad as yours NJGUY, but I do really fel for you. I'm 27 and my acne seems to be getting worse, to the point where I'm not sure if I'll ever be rid of it; and yes it does make socialising a big problem!

Can't offer you advice buddy, only support and understading!

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Hi i really feel for you too

I posted last week feeling at the end of my tether, and i hadn't taken my kids to school that day as i couldn't face going out

I dont have any choice but to go to work though, and i just have to take a huge deep breath and go out. I keep my head down, i do my hair all nice, i have a tan, i put on make up, i put on nice clothes - anything and everything to try and distract away from my face. Its the only way i know how now.

I dont know if it helps other people but i do talk about it with others. Not for sympathy but i feel so much better if i have mentioned it - this may seem really strange. Not laughing it off but i can't pretend its not there and i would rather just acknowledge it than feel they are staring and dont know what to say.

I just repeat things to myself... if i go out, and its dark, who can see it anyway? Im still the

same person inside

but on bad days it doesn't matter how much you say this to yourself, its really hard and it upsets me that this condition takes so much away from peoples lives - something that others think is not important, it so is

I hope things work out for you x

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Hello all,

I can relate. I have had cystic acne since my teens, 32 now and it's as stong as always. I had success with Accutane but like you said, should we worry about side effects? For sure. I had next to none but have read posts where people describe depression. As far as how it effects the brain? No clue, and I wouldn't speculate either. From what I have read from people's posts it has messed with them in many ways. We all have different chemistry so obviously each of us will react differently.

My Acne is...BLOODY STUBBORN. I am going to list the things that I have used and rate them accordingly:

Antibiotics: hit and miss - screws up your digestion too though as they wipe out all beneficial bacteria.

Accutane: success on 1 treatment but that means diddly squat for those of you that it doesn't help

Accuzine: waste of $$, don't bother

ZenMed: again, waste of $$, don't bother

Vilantae: only worked satisfactory when taking a whopping 32 capsules a day...overkill.

I have not tried AcneZine so I cannot rate it.

I have read that Benzoyl Peroxide over time causes increased aging of the skin, who knows if it's true but it makes sense as it is a rather harsh chemical and to me not very effective.

I think Salicylic acid does squat for me.

I am currently starting month 2 of AcnEase, found at www.Herborium.com - so far it seems very effective. Like many others, when I stop any treatment, whamo! Acne comes back with a vengeance so I am worried to drop down to the maintenance dose as usually whenever a treatment dosage is decreased Acne can come back and we all know how long it takes to heal. Like many of you I have scars that will likely take 6+ months to heal, some permanent.

I have decided to use the Vichy Normaderm hydrating anti-imperfection cream to try and heal the damaged skin, seems like after a few days it does help.

For you NJGUY, try the AcnEase, I too have a very stubborn case of Acne and at 32 yrs old believe me, I know that most product out there is crap. They market it to be believable but then again it's their goal to make $$, that's it.

Here's an 'odd' suggestion that I have yet to try. Ever heard of Colonics? Heh, basically, it's an ancient but effective way to remove toxins and disease causing agents from the body. I'm not going to go into the details as it's rather intrusive but I have wondered for awhile now, is Acne a result of garbage built-up in our bodies? Genetics is likely part of it too I'm guessing. Colonics will remove a lot of stuff from you, just not the most pleasant way to get it removed!

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