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I get a bit suicidal from looking at myself in the mirror. Does anybody else feel like that?

Everytime I find a regimen that works, it's only a metter of time before it doesn't work anymore. I am a waitress and I feel like people are grossed out when they see me coming. grrr, I'm so frustrated.

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I'd say 90% of the people in here share your troubles. It's a hard thing to accept, and it's generally a slow process.

I find that not looking in the mirror can help keep you deluded in times of sadness.

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I tried that. For the longest time I didn't have a full length mirror because my face detracts from my clothes and I would change like 5 times before I started my day. I got rid of the mirror about 6 years ago. Recently I bought one and discovered how horribly I was dressing. LOL.

Anyway, It's become immpossible for me to figure out what's up w/ my skin. For the longest time, I thought it was an enviromental alergy, but then there are so many other things that make me break out. Sometimes I can't understand why my boyfriend stays with my ugly ass, and it's seriously effecting my sex life with him.

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Yes :cry: I am feeling suicidal right now. My wedding is in 2 weeks and my skin is broken out worse than it has been since i stopped taking accutane a year and a half ago. I'm sure that the breakout is caused by going to the tanning salon so I am stopping. I hope hope hope I clear up by then. I still have shitty skin with scars and rough texture so what does it matter anyway.

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maybe not just because of acne, but having bad teeth and lack of eyesight as well (need glasses) makes me hate myself.

i'm trying to get rid of these problems though,

i'm on the regimen for the acne and it works, i'm getting braces for my teeth, and i wear contacts.

i try to keep my head up and i'm feeling better since i'm starting to look better.

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when it gets bad i get very down on myself so yea i gues it does

id never commit suicide tho

i hate things beating me

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Of course!!!

I used to suffer from depression..I am off all meds now, but i think the acne has made me feel more down than anything..

I am at a wonderful time in my life (college, there isn't as much crazy drama compared to hs) and the only thing i can really complain about it my skin...

I just try not to the look in the mirror...although, it doesn't help much when you have cysts and you smile and you can feel them ache on your face :cry:

Just try and stay upbeat....When my skin is actually clear i look in the mirror all the time and admire my skin..lol

It helps me remember that underneath the acne there is beautiful skin

:D

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I get a bit suicidal from looking at myself in the mirror. Does anybody else feel like that?

Everytime I find a regimen that works, it's only a metter of time before it doesn't work anymore. I am a waitress and I feel like people are grossed out when they see me coming. grrr, I'm so frustrated.

I feel down alot of the tie, but never suicidal. I think you should really properly talk to someone about that, if necessary seek professional medical advice regarding your feeling and emotions and also your acne.

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Tbh it has crossed my mind a few times but I would never actually do it, I love life too much plus Im too determined to beat this. Its such a stupid little thing acne, thats how I feel, I feel fucking stupid that it bothers me so much but it does a lot .. more then anything, even at the expensive of a 6 year relationship.

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I get a bit suicidal from looking at myself in the mirror. Does anybody else feel like that?

Everytime I find a regimen that works, it's only a metter of time before it doesn't work anymore. I am a waitress and I feel like people are grossed out when they see me coming. grrr, I'm so frustrated.

please dont think like that, there are far worse things in this life than acne even though sometimes it doesnt feel that way, the thought of ending your life should never even be an option.

for what its worth i noticed some pretty nasty acne on a waitress at the cafe i ate at today and i admit i felt sorry for her but i wasnt grossed out and i know my lucky perenially clear-skin mate wasnt either. it always seems a billion times worse to yourself than to anyone else, we need to remember that.

my mum always used to tell me that other people dont notice but they do, if its on your face and someone tells you that no-one notices it you just feel like saying bullshit! of course they notice but the thing is they dont care.. they might be aware that you have some spots on your face but thats as far as it goes, they dont care and why would they. think about yourself seeing some stranger with some kind of acne or other problem, sure you may notice but do you care? i mean really care? it doesnt really register let alone stay with you, and its the same for other people looking at your acne, assuming they even notice they just dont care its not a big deal so they barely even give it a thought, seriously.

i almost took my life when i was 15 (not over acne) but i was one depressed and seriously messed up lonely little kid, and now i am sooo glad i didnt do it - got pretty damn close but didnt have the guts to make the final move - thank fuck. it made me realise that anything is better than nothing, and every day above ground is a good one. if your ever feeling truly suicidal please try something else first, anything else.. move to a different country and do something else new anything else, its the deep dark hole you sink into that is so hard to get out of but theres a big better world out there if you just go find it.

take care

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Undubbed,

I'm sorry you are feeling so down. Do you think you might be a candidate for accutane? I dont know what type of acne you have, or your regimen history, but I've been on accutane for about a month and I already see improvement. The likelihood of lasting results is pretty good with accutane too.

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Thanks guys. I know it's not just the acne that gets me down, but I do feel like it stands in the way of me moving foward. :wall:

So I quit my job and if my acne ever subsides I think I'll head to a factory for work..... anything that keeps me out of the public eye. It's funny, I always wnted to be a famous actress when I was a kid. I was eager to have everyone looking at me. I did the school plays with enthusiasm. I was never afraid. I can remember how I started feeling when the acne started. It was not a lot for a junior high school kid, but enough to make me feel a bit monsterous. I had transferred schools a few times and I stopped talking to my pretty friends and I just kind of hid from the social things as the acne got worse. When I got to high school, everybody called me a freak and I became a social outcast.

I just can't believe that I used to think I'd be an actress and now I'm 25 and I don't even know what happened with all that time. I guess dwelling doesn't help either. Thanks for the kind words, guys.

:end rant:

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I think whats worse than having acne, is not knowing when or if you will grow out of it. If i new id be rid of acne by say the age of 30...i wouldnt be as stressed about it. but for all i know i could have it for the rest of my life.

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Yes :cry: I am feeling suicidal right now. My wedding is in 2 weeks and my skin is broken out worse than it has been since i stopped taking accutane a year and a half ago. I'm sure that the breakout is caused by going to the tanning salon so I am stopping. I hope hope hope I clear up by then. I still have shitty skin with scars and rough texture so what does it matter anyway.

I went to a solarium for ages and yes it messes up your skin! I had perfect skin and then all of a sudden I have terrible skin! stop going, get a spray tan. Im a nurse and I see what skin cancer can do! I find spray tans are much cheaper anyway and less time consuming, I only need one every 2 weeks, as opposed to going to the solarium 3x week!

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Well, at least there are many people out there whose parents are concerned about their children's acne.

But this is not the case for my parents. My father simply wouldn't care much and shut his mouth all the time.

My mother, whose name is Lucy, has been a demoralising factor. She reprimanded me whenever she notices the scars and crumpledness on my face and will start to call me names like "gnow, gnow" which means, in hokkien (one of the Chinese dialect), crumpled face. I have 2 deep fingernailed-like crater which are deep red that have always been the cynosure of her scoldings. She will then say,"Please a..boy, don't press anymore, your face is taico (means repulsive to look at in Chinese dialect)." But the truth is I have never press my face in my life!!!

I dare not take pictures of myself since I was 16 and now 22+. My greatest enemies are 1.mirror, 2.cameras, 3.friends. I hate friends!!! Yes... I hate to socialise. Whenever I have friends and become acquainted, they will make fun of me by saying things like,"John(not my true name) is very handsome!!" And they will laugh till they break in tears. As a result, I dare not even think of joining any Extra cirriculum activities in the University of Singapore, the institution which I am studying right now.

Friends making fun of me, mother tirading me, mirrors reminds me of my badly-damaged face.

Sometimes, I wonder... Maybe, suicidal will grant me a new life with a presentable face.

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It makes me suicidal.

But then, so does looking better during the periods when my skin is clearer. I've got NO confidence, and that's down to a whole host of things, including acne. So if I see myself in the mirror and I think I look OK I'm sad that no-one wants to be with me. Must be my personality :(

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the recipe for staying inside away from society, is having a good case of acne; it sucks, i'm right there.. right now

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i do feel really depressed sometimes and can't get the thought of that new pimple on my forehead OUT of my head. Sometimes I think I'm doing real good and I wake up and see a new pimple. I start cursing God, and punching the mirror. I feel like selling everything, taking my savings, and living in a tent high in the moutains. When will this crap end?

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Thanks guys. I know it's not just the acne that gets me down, but I do feel like it stands in the way of me moving foward. :wall:

So I quit my job and if my acne ever subsides I think I'll head to a factory for work..... anything that keeps me out of the public eye. It's funny, I always wnted to be a famous actress when I was a kid. I was eager to have everyone looking at me. I did the school plays with enthusiasm. I was never afraid. I can remember how I started feeling when the acne started. It was not a lot for a junior high school kid, but enough to make me feel a bit monsterous. I had transferred schools a few times and I stopped talking to my pretty friends and I just kind of hid from the social things as the acne got worse. When I got to high school, everybody called me a freak and I became a social outcast.

I just can't believe that I used to think I'd be an actress and now I'm 25 and I don't even know what happened with all that time. I guess dwelling doesn't help either. Thanks for the kind words, guys.

:end rant:

hey i hear you. i use to be a social nut in junior high and beginning of high school. but once i got into high school and college, my acne started to get really bad and i just shunned myself from everyone. alot of people thought i was just weird or shy and no one really spoke to me. well, fast foward now and i literally only have a couple of friends i can still talk to w/out feeling all awkward. i just wish i could have been more confident during the past years...

so my point is, you're still young and you can still change your life - even if it involves acne. the way i see it, you can let acne take over your life and potentially destroy it. OR, you can stand up to it and say, "f!ck it. i don't need this crap. screw what others think."

life is really too short, so just make the best out of it :)

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I only look in the mirror with the hall light on. Besides keeping my depression/anxiety at bay, this stops me from picking. Try it. It works.

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