so i'm considering getting bangs.
i've been considering bangs for a while because of my acne.
i do have a phobia of things touching my face, even my own hands and hair, so it would be something......new. *mentally screams at the thought of hair grease staying on my forehead 24/7*
but i've been experimenting with it in the mirror, i don't think it looks bad, i just don't look as good as i think i look now, hair wise.
i really do like the way i style my hair now. i think its really pretty, so changing it when i really don't want to kind of sucks.
but i feel like i have to, because its the only way i will be able to get on with my life even if i start breaking out. it will always be covered by my hair, i wouldn't be staying home to hide my face, and id be able to get things done regardless of my acne.
i feel like this is the only way. either this, or wear a cap 24/7 -.-
i also need to start gaining weight again, because me trying so hard with this vegan lifestyle really isn't helping much.
and to gain weight, id have to start eating cheese and sugar again. so whether or not that would break me out (probably would), id have my bangs to cover that as i eat whatever i please.
i mean last time i ate dairy was a few weeks ago and i broke out but i also ate it around the time of my period, so it could just as well have been that.
i ate a general amount of cheese in the summer when i was in romania, and it didn't break me out at all. maybe it was the type of cheese? over there things are more natural.
i just really have to start gaining weight again, because i am underweight and i miss my butt and boobs tbh.
ill see if i could cut my bangs at home (yikes) or go to a nice salon that wont fuck them up.
this is just me coming back to add something in, just something i randomly remembered.
a long time ago, when i was going through a bad breakout i remember googling a bunch of stuff and forums from people trying to get rid of their acne asap or whatever... and i remember reading this girl's entry, i think it was on reddit? she wrote this whole paragraph basically cursing out her acne and the universe and it was so funny. it was a while ago, and i no longer have the entry, but i remember she said, talking about her cystc acne, i quote,
"and i try not to pick at that fugly stinky bitch, but it still doenst go away..."
i think the "fugly stinky bitch" part will always stay with me.
it made me die of laughter then, and made me forget for a moment my sadness.
its still making me die of laughter now, two years later.