Here it goes- I’m finally sharing my experience(s) on Accutane! I had 2 courses: one at 16 for 5 months and another at 19 for 6 months! I wish I wasn’t too embarrassed to post before pictures, but maybe I’ll get there eventually. My first round of Accutane was one of naïveté and struggle. I had been struggling with acne on my chest and back since I was about 11 years old. I would get the occasional zit on my face, but that wasn’t as big of a concern. I had tried every topical and oral antibiotic imaginable, but nothing was doing the trick. My mom and I did plenty of research pre-accutane, but in hindsight, nothing prepared me for what was coming. Long story short, for 4 out of my 5 months on the medicine, my acne was worse than I could have ever imagined. I took it over the summer- there really is no good time to take Accutane, but at least over the summer, I could hide. I never wanted to leave my house, I declined friend’s invitations. My dermatologist didn’t exactly have the best bedside manner and was not very sensitive about my struggle, making comments like “if it’s not working for you yet, I don’t see it working”. Thankfully, I did clear, and rarely broke out again for 3 more years. I was thankful that that horrible period of my life, in hindsight, was so short compared to the clear skin I was enjoying for years. Until..... it wasn’t. My sophomore year of college, I was sent into an emotional and stressful whirlwind as I struggled as a collegiate athlete. My acne came back with a vengeance- cystic acne like I never had before. It was all over. As a “public figure” per se, at my university, I was so embarrassed. No amount of foundation made me feel more confident. Seeing pictures of myself made me cringe. This time, I did a 6 month course of Accutane in the winter with a new dermatologist who I loved. She was encouraging and positive, and I think that made a big difference. Once again, it was an incredibly depressing 4 months, but I did clear again. Today, I use Curology as a daily maintenance for my skin, and I have found it to help in the wake of my acne reoccurrence. If I could give anyone one piece of advice, it would be to expect the worse. I don’t know where anyone else’s skin stands, but if you prepare to have a horrible Accutane experience, as pessimistic as that sounds, and realize that it’s not a magic instant cure all, you can be prepared for a true Accutane experience, and rejoice if yours isn’t like mine! I don’t regret my courses on Accutane, and in no way do I want to discourage it. I do want to put a realistic journey out there, and don’t be discouraged if your journey is different than you expected.