I’m starting a blog! I don’t really know what I’m doing but I really feel like my story needs to be heard. This isn’t for any other purpose other than to share my acne struggles with you and to assure you, you are not alone. Acne is one of the most troubling, stressful, aggravating, annoying, confusing and frustrating things to deal with. If you’re like me, you’ve probably struggled with it for a very long time. And if you’re also like me, you believe that the body is naturally healing and so going on a drug like Accutane is the last and final straw you will pull until you’ve exhausted EVERY option. I believe everything happens for a reason and there is a reason my old dermatologist dropped the ball THREE separate times for me to go on Accutane. Now, if you’ve been through this process before, you know how long it takes to get the blood work done and if you’re female, to get your pregnancy tests and then finally that 7-day window comes and you’re ready and then you never get a call from the derm and sure enough, they f**** up. They dropped the ball and never called me in to pick up the prescription and never called the prescription in. Long story short, not to bore you, I switched dermatologists, and everything worked out in my favor. I’m a WEEK away from starting isotretinoin and I couldn’t be more excited/nervous/scared all in one. I’m excited to have CLEAR SKIN!!!! I’m nervous for the side effects and I’m scared of how long this journey will be. I tried to go the natural route, didn’t work in my favor and if anything, it got A LOT worse. I’ve spent a fortune on an aesthetician, that didn’t work. I’ve tried Spironolactone and every antibiotic under the sun. Don’t even get me started with topicals. I really feel like the universe is testing me to see how much I can handle because my face has NEVER been this bad. I thought it was bad in highschool… PSH!!!! I thought it was bad in college…. IF YOU ONLY KNEW!!!! I thought it was bad a year ago, the worst it’s ever been actually… HAHAHAHHA WRONG!! So safe to say I’m pretty much at my wits end. It’s gotten so bad, I’ve lost pretty much all my self-confidence. I bail on my friends based on how my skin looks. I have to wear a full face of makeup every day to work. I would rather stay in so that I don’t have to wear anything on my face, so my social life is nonexistent (other than my best friend who would never look at me or treat me differently because of my face). My mom makes a comment on my face EVERY TIME I see her. My grandfather asks, what’s going on with the pimples, do you wash your face? EVERYONE has a remedy or solution they want to preach, and I really can’t take it anymore!!!! I can’t wait to begin this journey on 2/11/19 and I can’t wait to share my results with you!