I spent almost every day here in 2013/2014. I wrote blogs and read all of yours. I felt defeated then and I feel defeated now. My cystic acne slowly subsided for about 3 ish years. I would get the odd cyst here and there but they were few and far between. Lately they've been coming back. One after the other with clear periods lasting only a week or so. I feel like a shell. I've locked myself away from everyone this weekend. I've lied and told people I was busy all because I feel I can't face anyone. I know I'm strong and i know I've been through this before.. I just don't want to anymore. I don't want to think about the same fucking thing every day.