Nearly at the end of month 2 on lymecycline. Went to the GP today to get more lymecycline because my derm recommended me to carry on going just in case I see results. I feel doubtful. I am considering Isotretenoin (accutane) and my derm gave me an information list or symptoms, warnings etc. The concept at first freaked me out but to be fair, so many people have gone on it and they have been fineeee so its a consideration.
I feel frustrated because the lymecycline is not working. I want to see results. Not happening. Anyway she refferred me to an NHS dermatologist in Leeds. I am going to have a chat to someone about going on accutane/ another antibiotic before it gets to that. I want to see a difference instead of waiting for shit doctors to take fucking precautions before I can go on something that actually works.
Anyway, I know it will be a long time before I have clear skin but I am positive that it will happen eventually.
As for generally acne affecting my life, it is really difficult. I have practically stopped socialising because I don't want to be judged for my skin. I feel like I look almost ill without makeup, like constantly tired looking. My skin should look colourful and happy but it doesnt. Anyway, regardless of what I think it looks like, that is irrelevant. Because this SHOULD NOT affect you as much as it is affecting me. It is a pressure that I need to look perfect but that is unrealistic and i need to focus on building relationships with friends and family. It is a waste of energy and space. BUT I DO IT AND YOU PROBABLY DO TO !
" A person who has good thoughts cannot be ugly." - quote that I like. But i know that I am not ugly. I am fucking beautiful but would rather have clear skin.
Will update you probs at the end of this week but it is consuming me so I think I may take a break and update weekly/ monthly instead.
See ya on the other side