Day three was awful. I picked at everything. I stopped myself after a few blackheads and a pimple and then right after I showered I found a Bobby pin and got everything I could out. I'm so mad at myself and I know I'm not supposed to beat myself up about it but I am so disappointed in me. I feel awful and I know I won't be able to really cover this up tomorrow and I go back to school from winter break tomorrow. I'm not sure I can do this but I mean I'm still gonna try. Yeah I stood in front of my mirror and picked for like 15 minutes and I would've gone longer but I started crying because I was so upset. Ugh, this is probably not a good idea but I'm gonna keep going and hopefully get better. I never realized how much I really pick at my face. Like it's a NEED and I get antsy and get super anxious like I feel like I have to pick at something. I'm gonna try and go more extreme and start wearing gloves around my house and straight up avoiding mirrors. I thought today would be better. I mean I cleaned and cooked some food for breakfast in the morning and then bam I started to pick. I am currently looking for a therapist for other reasons but I'm gonna see if there is anything they would recommend to me.