Hope you're all well and happy.
As of last Tuesday I have officially started my course of Roaccutane and I wanted to share my experience of why I went on it and the results of my first week. If you have any questions please feel free to message me.
Okay! So here is my story: I started my first year of university in September 2015 with pretty average skin. I had been on Ethromycin, tetracycline and Lymacycline periodically since I was fifteen and I'm now nineteen but my skin was never a massive concern for me. University was amazing! I study Classical Literature and Civilisation and I absolutely loved the course, and I quickly made some great friends. But within a month of uni, I started to get some pretty impressive spots all over my face, especially on my cheeks and chin. They were so sore that it hurt to smile or laugh because it stretched the ones around my mouth. I went to the doctor and asked to be put on Roaccutane and she pretty much laughed me out of her office, which really didn't help much. She put me on another course of Ethromycin even though I told her that it wasn't doing its job anymore. I had been using Clinique face wash and toner for the past year ad a half with no issues either but suddenly that had stopped doing its job as well. I felt so so terrible about my self and I could literally feel my confidence drain out of me as my face got progressively worse as the days went on. I remember waking up in the mornings and my first thought being a sense of dread that I would have to look in the mirror. I couldn't look people in the eye when I spoke to them because I was so afraid that they would judge my horrific skin rather than the words I was saying. It got so bad that when I went home for Christmas, my mum actually double took when she saw my face. I had cried to her about my skin on the phone but although she was sympathetic, she had thought I was over exaggerating. To be fair to her, I can be a bit of a drama queen at times... but I wasn't about this.
Anyway, fast forward to the present. My second year of university. Nice house, great friends, still loving my course, still hating myself and my face. To make things worse, this year I was applying for a year abroad. I had my absolute heart set on Arizona State but there was no way I would want to get to a new place all alone if I still felt this bad about myself. So, after a serious discussion with my parents; who were initially against Roaccutane after what they had read about it, I convinced them and they booked me an appointment with a private dermatologist. I was so excited that I had a countdown on my phone. (I'm so cool I know). When the day came, the dermatologist was so so lovely and after a chat about the risks and worries, he gave me a prescription. Before I could take it however, I had to have a blood test. (Don't worry it really doesn't hurt). I had the appointment and blood test on Friday and by Tuesday, I had been given the all clear by the doctor. With a smile, i popped the pill after a fatty meal. Apparently, Roaccutane only works on a full stomach so I had a cheese toastie and a glass of full fat milk.
I wasn't expecting an overnight miracle so when I looked in the mirror the next day, I couldn't help the beam that spread across my face. Maybe it was just wishful thinking, but I swear the blotchy redness on my cheeks had gone down. Also a few of the large cyst like spots had been replaced with whiteheads, which I fought the massive urge to squeeze. Another thing I noticed within a few days was the oh so dry lips. It was as though someone literally drained all the moisture out of them each night whilst i slept. I use pow pow moisturising balm and I honestly can't go more than ten minutes without needing to slather it on. I forgot to take it to a lecture on Friday and I thought my lips were going to fall off. But I would go to a hundred lectures without lip balm if it meant i could feel as good as I do when I see my skin get a little better each day.
For me, week 1 was a success and I already feel so much better than I did before I started taking it. I know it can get worse before it gets better but i'm even looking forward to that part because it means my skin is finally healing!
Lots of love,
Quote"Happiness is a journey, not a destination" -Ben Sweetland