Seriously, what is wrong with me? My skin JUST started clearing up, so what do I do? Decide to eat sugar. I know this makes me break out, but yet here I am again. Those "little pimples" I had are now nodules. But, that's not the main reason I'm upset. I'm disappointed in myself because I can't stop picking at my skin. I'm not a "normal" picker either, I take picking to a whole new level. I always try to pop my cysts and nodules even though I know nothing will come out and that I will end up doing more damage. I just spent almost an hour trying to pop ONE nodule. After nothing came out, I began to scratch the shit out of my skin until several layers of skin came off. Even when I started to bleed(a lot), I did not stop. Mind you, all the while this is happening, I'm mentally telling myself that I'm being an idiot, and that this is non-productive. However, I could.not.stop. It wasn't until my hand got sore that I decided it was enough. I want to mention that I have been diagnosed with OCD, so I know that factors into this. When you have OCD it's like you're not in control of your own body, and I'm not talking about the "I like my house clean *he he*, I have OCD" kind of OCD, I mean real OCD. Ugh. I put some honey on my wounds and I am going to try not to obsess over my skin too much.