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At a loss. End of week 3

MissSac17

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So heading into week 4 with isotrex and my skin is a state, maybe it could be worse but it's really bad. 

Its s challenging and I feel I can't look at people . because I look so different to what I looked like 3 weeks ago.  My face is oily, bumpy, scabby because I picked (stupid) everywhere  is bumpy. It looks rash.  Is this what purging does? Will it or can it really get better? 

My mental state is gone, like I'm so distraught.  I do not want to see my boyfriend like this because he hasn't seen me with bad skin, the odd few blemishes but.not this. So I keep thinking about just ending it because he deserves so much better. 



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Hi doll.  I am so so sorry to hear you are going through this terrible time right now.  I've felt what you have felt, I was just seeing someone at the time I started Spiro and holy hell my face was bad.  I didn't want to seee anyone, and I wanted to break it off too.  I felt like it would be less pressure on me to not have to be with someone when I was so ashamed.  I decided to pray pray pray and dig the strength up to talk to him and tell him what was going on.   I had left him in the dark for so long, and it wasn't fair to push him away.  If this relationship is worth it, if it is meant to be right now, he will be there to support you and understand that this is only temporary.  Because as much as you don't believe it or feel it, it is temporary.  All things in life are.  Just sending some love, lots of positive thoughts your way and healing soon!  You don't deserve this, and remember as hard as it is, you are not your acne.  If all of us strangers can care so much about you and your journey, maybe your boyfriend will surprise you!!  Just maybe, you deserve to be loved too.

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12 hours ago, CarpeMomentum said:

Hi doll.  I am so so sorry to hear you are going through this terrible time right now.  I've felt what you have felt, I was just seeing someone at the time I started Spiro and holy hell my face was bad.  I didn't want to seee anyone, and I wanted to break it off too.  I felt like it would be less pressure on me to not have to be with someone when I was so ashamed.  I decided to pray pray pray and dig the strength up to talk to him and tell him what was going on.   I had left him in the dark for so long, and it wasn't fair to push him away.  If this relationship is worth it, if it is meant to be right now, he will be there to support you and understand that this is only temporary.  Because as much as you don't believe it or feel it, it is temporary.  All things in life are.  Just sending some love, lots of positive thoughts your way and healing soon!  You don't deserve this, and remember as hard as it is, you are not your acne.  If all of us strangers can care so much about you and your journey, maybe your boyfriend will surprise you!!  Just maybe, you deserve to be loved too.


Thanks for this :) 

Its just difficult,  I feel I'm just pushing him away and he doesn't know how to deal with it. I'm hoping that after my exams I will feel alot better and less stressed which may help my skin. I hate acne,  I hate what it does to me and the fact I let it. 

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Hey,

I know exactly how you feel. I had the extact same thing going on when i tried differin last year (i think we spoke on my blog). I felt like ending it because in my head it was easier to deal with acne alone rather than acne and a frustrated boyfriend who didnt know why i was avoiding him. Please talk to him, you will feel like a weight has been lifted i promise.
Anyways, i hate to pull the accutane card but have you tried it or considered it?

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7 hours ago, AppleySauce said:

Hey,

I know exactly how you feel. I had the extact same thing going on when i tried differin last year (i think we spoke on my blog). I felt like ending it because in my head it was easier to deal with acne alone rather than acne and a frustrated boyfriend who didnt know why i was avoiding him. Please talk to him, you will feel like a weight has been lifted i promise.
Anyways, i hate to pull the accutane card but have you tried it or considered it?


Yeah that's exactly how I feel about it. The thing is I really think he just doesn't know what to say to me, he's frustrated that he can't help it and it kills him seeing me like this. 

I have thought about Accutane many times, the thought of joint pains makes me run for the hulls but I would proably like to try it. I don't see my derm until July though.

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