Isn't it funny how I am never happy?!
I have now done 10 full weeks of Differin and for all intents and purposes I am the clearest I have ever been, consistently. If I am not acne free then I am only getting one small pimple at a time. And I am still technically 2 weeks away from the recommended treatment time for this topical so my results are breath taking and I am totally thankful for how smooth a ride Differin has been for me.
But my acne worry is transforming into a general skin worry the less acne I experience. I hate my PIH and my pitted scars and the fine lines I am getting at the ripe age of 23, due to all the harsh treatments I have been on in my young life. When I put my make up on I am a little happier, my complexion looks even and smooth. Then I catch myself in sunlight and can see the pitted scars that litter my higher cheekbones. Because of this I will never be TRULY confident, even though I am, for now, acne free. Acne is horrible enough to experience but it just adds insult to injury that we need to live with scarring after the acne has gone.
I am scared, nervous, excited for my derm appointment next month as I wont be going to try another product to clear my skin. I will be asking FINALLY how the flip do I get rid of my scars!! And more importantly, how much is it going to blood cost me!! I mean don't get me wrong I LOVE and am so thankful for the NHS, especially in Scotland where we don't even pay a penny for prescribed medicine, but one does get used to all the free stuff that paying for cosmetic work seems daunting!
In other news I finally registered with a new dentist after not going for a few years after a bad anesthesia incident, where in it didn't work but my old dentist carried on drilling and I nearly fainted from the pain lol. Got the appointment for the day before my 24th birthday on the 24th of this month, hopefully I get the great birthday news that I don't need any cavities filled