I am pleased to say that the cluster of cystic type of acne is completely gone from my left cheek, yet I have hyperpigmentation and scarring to take it's place. The one cyst on my left cheek has turned to 2.5 pimple type things, which is weird. Now, I have one new one in the middle of my forehead. This is also so weird. I am going to try a different product specifically designed to treat cystic acne, since bp obviously isn't cuting it.
On the plus side I am learning french and I feel empowered in some way. I guess acne itself is humbling, but not knowing a foreign language is even more so. I feel satisfied with my self on a personal level I just need my face to catch on.
Oh, yes. And, I am becoming full blown vegetarian for a month to see how it goes. Technically I am an "ovo-vegetarian," I need to get my protein from somewhere, right? Anyway, I have been eating a lot more vegetables and I feel amazing. I have always been good at consuming plenty of fruit, yet now that I am becoming more educated on how diet and lifestyle are key factors for overall good skin, I realize that high glycemic foods might not be too good for my skin. I am also cutting out dairy completely from my diet which means no cheese, yogurt, or ice-cream. I have been drinking soymilk for the longest time, but now I am considering almond milk since I read that consuming too many un-fermented soy products can lead to breast cancer. Still, all of this is not a big change for me since, I have been vegan in the past (back in college when I developed irritable bowl syndrome), yet I did not continue since I was really low on energy. Therefore, if I am going to follow along the same path as before I need to be really smart about my food choices. I am a bit worried about calories, since I just notice how hard it is to consume enough calories when I am depriving myself from staple foods. I have been using myfitnesspal.com to track my food intake (It takes the guess work out of figuring out protein, oils, and carbs in every single food I consume). I highly recommend this website and I think you can download the app in your phone, too.
Grain is another staple that I just decided I wanted to cut out in order to see if it has an effect on the number of outbreaks I get. I read that grains can inflame the body in some way, which honestly doesn't really make sense how this can contribute to acne, since clogged pores and overproduction of oil cause acne. Yet, I understand how high glycemic foods cause blood sugar levels to rise at a higher rate than let's say protein, so then insulin has to rise to bring down the blood sugar in your body. This is all cool, but a rise in insulin isn't always good. Here is what I was reading in case any of you are interested in this: http://www.livestrong.com/article/152940-acne-insulin-resistance/. Basically, I want to completely cut out grains in order to cut out this factor and see if their is some validity to it. This is going to be very sad because I love whole-wheat bread, pasta, brown rice, oatmeal, and pizza...the list goes on.
Thankfully, using benzoyl peroxide and salicylic acid has helped my skin tremendously, yet I still have oily skin and highly prone to breakouts. I had not had cysts in about four years, so the simple fact that I am getting them now says a lot about my lack of adequate nutrition and stress levels. I am really trying to live differently. I am taking a more positive outlook life and that isn't always an easy thing, since just looking in the mirror can be really discouraging. I know that acne is not my fault and that I can do things to change my personal outlook, but the reality is that I have no idea what is really causing my acne. Could it be that it is in my genes and I must make peace with it? I think not. I am going to make some changes that I know hope will help me in the long run.