I am trying to be patient. I admit, after taking that first pill I expected to wake up the next morning to beautiful skin; wishful thinking.
I'm 30.I cannot even begin to explain how much acne has consumed the past 3 years of my life. I understand that its been longer for others, a lot longer, and that I honestly don't even have it THAT bad, its concentrated on my right lower side; adult hormonal acne. I have spent countless hours staring at myself in the mirror, my phone, a knife...any reflective surface. I have spent an absurd amount of time covering it with makeup, growing my hair long to cover it, wearing the perfect scarf, sitting a certain way... this is a mental disease as much as it is physical. The hurt, the depression, the loss of self confidence and of being anti social; it destroys you. It is literally all you ever see. Besides facial acne I also have breakouts on my shoulders and lower back.
I have tried many treatments in the past and honestly always assumed that it would go away on its own. I am now in my third week of Accutane. I have had an initial breakout and although I'm really hoping this is the only one I fear it isn't as reading other user reviews there will be more, even months down the road. I am finding it difficult to be patient. I am so sick of seeing myself like this, I am embarrassed to be a 30 year old woman with acne. I cried last night, sobbing, tears because of how badly I want this to go away but this breakout has only hindered my spirit even more.
So far I suppose I have had the most common side effects: extremely dry lips, dry eyes, my chin is flaky and dry, my face overall is red and just looks so uneven and unattractive. I have little white bumps that I assume will turn into more acne though I really hope it doesn't. My scalp has been super itchy. I also feel like I might have a yeast infection? Although I can't find anything to suggest that, that is one of the side effects.
I am constantly counting the days and weeks, hoping to get through this one day at a time, hoping it will begin to heal, not only my face but the hurt it has caused me personally.