The three pustules on the right hand side of my chin are drying up and crusting over nicely, the skin getting increasingly flat. However I woke up this morning and found five new red painful under the skin lumps (papules?) on the left hand side. I now have something resembling a red, lumpy, crusty beard. I'm trying to find the comedy in how ridiculous I look at the minute but it's hard. Especially since I've started developing lumps on my jawbone, just before my face becomes my neck, which was a place I've never had acne before. It's like the acne is slowly but surely spreading.
I feel disheartened and low. I had a panic attack, called in sick to work and binge ate an entire lemon polenta came, which is a shame because it means I will probably never eat polenta again and I really liked polenta.
I keep on trying to remind myself of the people who have it worse than me and that I should keep it in proportion and not let it affect my social life. But it's all I see and all I feel and I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel or a shred of improvement to keep me buoyant right now.
This blog post is way more depressing than I intended. I'm not giving up I'm just having a bad day. Hopefully things will be better tomorrow.