I feel very confused. It seems whatever I choose is wrong. My recent visit with my naturopath left me feeling more frustrated than ever. She explained that I am eating way to much raw food. I drink smoothies for breakfast with mostly veggies not fruit. She said that according to Chinese medicine, it is very hard for the body to break down raw food. Well I started eating more cooked food and I feel that my acne has gotten way worse. I have had about 10 cysts mostly on my chin since my visit with her about a month ago. When I usually get 3-4. I just don't know. I feel like I have spent so much money seeing her and paying for meds.
I started tracking when I get cysts so maybe see if it has anything to do with my cycle. At this point I definitely added accutane on my list of possibilities but I am worried as I do not want to go on birth control again. I feel that I may try Spiro first and see where that takes me.
I tried to last a year without birth control. It will be a year this December but I don't know if I will make till then.
I feel defeated. I wish I could not care. Last night I went to Best Buy for a movie and found myself staring at the cashier's face. I was so amazed at how clear and pore-less her skin was. I find myself doing that more often. Other's peoples skin amazes me. Sometimes I wonder why I have to keep dealing with this. It has held me back from so much in life. I barely have friends bc I feel judged when I go out. I pretty much stay to myself.
Sorry for the ramble, I just don't know what to do anymore.