My acne keeps on getting worst. All the new ones are cycstic and they're everywhere. I can't help but cry every time I see my reflection.I've tried makeup but not even that works on me. Everything is noticeable because they are bumps. My skin is red all the time and my pores are huge and its just so overwhelming. I do have to admit that I pop a few but only the ones that won't leave huge scars.
Today is the second time I stay home because of my acne. I told my mom why I didn't go out today and she just started screaming saying that its my own fault why my face is so bad. She obviously doesn't understand what its like to have a face full of imperfections. She doesn't understand that my acne isn't something I can control. Would I say acne has ruined my life? Yes. It holds me back from getting to know people. It keeps me indoors all the time. Its always on my mind.its the main reason why I cry. I feel alone. Like nobody understands what I'm going through.its so frustrating when nothing works. My acne makes me feel ugly and worthless it makes me jealous of other peoples skin. I look back at old photos of me and I just cry when I see my how nice my face used to be.I cry at TV commercials because all the women in them have flawless skin. I always ask why me? Why did I get stuck with all these pimples? What did I do to deserve them? When will it all be over? Is there anyone out there that understands me?
Its just so hard living with acne. Everything is so expensive when it comes to medications. Acne has brought me down.it has killed my confidence and buried my self esteem very deep into the ground.I'm not myself anymore. I've become a horrible monster that stays indoors and fear what people may have to say about me. I cry all day. I don't look at people in the eye.I just stare at the floor like a child whose ashamed at what he done. I hate the person who stares back at me in the mirror. I used to be that very happy hyper person that laughed at anything.now I'm just the quiet person whose to scared to say anything at all.
When will this nightmare be over?