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Struggling.

MissSac17

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Oh man, I hate life right now. Usually I always say a mantra to myself too, which is "Life loves Me". Which, I know, deep down Life does actually love me. So much.

But right now I am not open to this love since my endless, restless mind only feels that this "love" is most favourable in a physical form - CLEAR skin.

I am seriously tearing my hair out thinking of what I have done that has broken me out - I haven't got far. Might have been that OCM method I tried (yet I only tried it a few times), might have been the amount of sugar I was eating (currently totally stopped this or at least limited it so much apart from fruits - have only had chocolate once in a week which is very good for me), might be a reaction to my skincare regimen which is in my Sig if you want to see it...perhaps the BP? Can one become immune?!

It also might even be some kind of Gluten intolerance which I don't know about or an allergic reaction to dust? I do sneeze alot. Fuck My Life. Can you see how friggin' crazy I sound and how overactive I'm thinking? Am I the only one that constantly thinks about their skin...I really didn't when it was clear. Now there's something to think about.

I'm not gonna lie I really do place myself in an " average" beauty category. Maybe a 5 out of 10. With clearer skin this was mentally raised to at least a 6.5. I felt more confident when it wasn't like this.

I have a list of things that I'm dubious about trying but feel that they might help:

Antibiotics - my friend recently started them and her skin is amazing. But is this long-term?

BCPs - I have a pack of Dianette which has not been touched yet. My skin was clear with it before but I fear the affects coming off them.

Retinoids - might help with the bumps and a alternative to BP..But I have read horror stories and a would DREAD the inevitable IB.

I have recently bought fermented Cod Liver Oil. Green Pasteurs. Apparently this really has helped people's skin due to the natural amounts of Vitamin A and D. We'll see how that goes.

But consensus as of right now - I am utterly depressed.



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You are stronger than you think hun! I went throught his exact thinking when The Regimen failed me after a year of working so well - of not thinking of my skin- of living. I have not found relief yet but i still live my life as if acne is not a problem. I avoid mirrors and this has reduced my anxiety 10 fold and it is not a solution but it helps get me through the day. You are beautiful with or without acne and you shouldn't allow yourself to think or feel differently. As for your regimen. Avoid gluten and dairy just because its a trigger for so many for at least 3 months. Start juicing and/or eating more veggies and reduce sugar and processed foods as much as possible. Stick to 1 skin care regimen and sit back and let time do its thing.

If you ever need to talk, PM me.

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You are stronger than you think hun! I went throught his exact thinking when The Regimen failed me after a year of working so well - of not thinking of my skin- of living. I have not found relief yet but i still live my life as if acne is not a problem. I avoid mirrors and this has reduced my anxiety 10 fold and it is not a solution but it helps get me through the day. You are beautiful with or without acne and you shouldn't allow yourself to think or feel differently. As for your regimen. Avoid gluten and dairy just because its a trigger for so many for at least 3 months. Start juicing and/or eating more veggies and reduce sugar and processed foods as much as possible. Stick to 1 skin care regimen and sit back and let time do its thing.

If you ever need to talk, PM me.

leelowe1 and MissSac,

I remember those feelings so acutely. I used to search for home remedies. Took excessive amounts of vitamin A gels. Drank bottle after bottle of pure carrot juice. I think I actually turned orange. I too chose to avoid mirrors for a long period of time. Thank god it's over. Good luck to both of you.

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You are not alone MissSac. I used to have clear skin and didn't appreciate it until my skin started breaking out like mad about 2-3months ago, and it still hasn't gone any better. I tried all sorts of stuff in the attempt to make my skin heal overnight. But instead, it just got worse from there. So here I am right now, finding comfort in this forum, so that I don't feel so alone suffering from this horribly psychological skin problem. You need to know that too, that you are not alone! Stay strong! Keep depressed thoughts at bay because there are many nights I cry myself to sleep too, and even avoided going out with friends and school just so I can escape any sort of judgemental eyes that may befall me. But I know this will only make me feel worse in the long run. Running away isn't a solution. I'm slowly learning to accept things and though it is soo difficult, please persevere, we will pull through this!

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