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Depressed....

Nina7788

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Today has really hit me hard. I am 25 yrs old. I have had acne since I was 13. I have tried everything except accutane. I remember being 15 and think when I'm 25 I won't have to deal with this anymore. I stopped getting small pimples now I have deep cystic acne that worsened after I had my son who is now 4. I was placed on Yaz birth control. I was clear in 4 months. It got worse before it got better. Well I have decided that I want another child. It seems silly to choose clear skin or a baby but really that is what it comes down to.

I literally cried all day today. I stopped my birth control 2 weeks ago. It has come back worse than ever. I have a huge boil like cyst on my chin. I don't even want to go to work tomorrow. My acne has robbed me of so many things in my life; friends, family, social situations, job opportunities. Why can't I just be normal?

My plan is to update everyone on my experience and hope it can help someone else in my situation. I have seen a naturopath. I have lab work coming back to decide if I have a gut issue. All of this I am paying out of pocket since I have no insurance. I have spent so much money on this for the past 12 yrs it's ridiculous. My acne is concentrated on my chin, nose area, mouth area, temples. I also have back acne which is also cystic. My back is pretty much scarred forever. I have not had a reemergence of my back acne yet.

Here is what I am doing:

I take turmeric and ginger pills.

I also take zinc & probiotics.

I have been taking turmeric and ginger for the past 3 months.

I started zinc and probiotics since I stopped my birth control.

I have a green smoothie with kale 4 times a week. I eat clean; no dairy, low carbs. This is what frustrates me the most. I am so dedicated to how I eat and see people that don't and they have clear skin. I have started experimenting with Maca root powder and I am curious if this is why I have been breaking out.

Once my test results come in I will start a regime that my naturopath recommends.

Sometimes I wish I could give up and not give a crap but I can't. I want to be happy and healthy.



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What will you get being depressed ? Nothing..Stress will make thins worse.

First of relax and tell yourself "I will get rid of it though it might take time ""

See face of ur 4 yr old child when u feel low and smile on child's face will kick ur sadness.

Try using regiment of this website and AHA +

Drink lot of water..Be hygienic and further do not use so much products..Use 1 product and stick to it.

I just want to tell you that my friend have both hands chopped off in accident..He have no hands..We may become sad sometime seeing him like this but i have never seen him DEPRESSED or SAD !!

He say "I am glad at least i am alive, things could have been worse and i would have died ""

Life is very precious..Acne is small part of it..Do not make it become so big..

Give it time and think positive...

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I appreciate that. I have tried Dan's regime. My skin is too sensitive for it.

I'm sorry about your friend. I was at an all time low. We all have those days. Today is much better, tomorrow who knows. I have been clear for about 2 years and then it came all it once. I was just overwhelmed.

I decided to give it a year which is the average that women take to regulate their hormones after birth control. I want to be strong and follow thru on the year and not run back to it.

I recently started drinking lots of water. At first it was horrible running to the bathroom every 5-10 minutes but now it is normal. No big deal.

Thank you for your kind words...

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I absolutely 100% know how you feel. I have also been dealing with acne since I was a teenager. I'm now 27, recently engaged, and wanting to start a family in the next few years, and I am terrified at the thought of having a child for fear of my skin going crazy.

I'm actually about to start my 3rd round of Accutane. It worked perfectly for me the first 2 times. Honestly, I think a big reason that my acne came back both times is because I did start to breakout a tiny bit and started picking at my skin. Of course, that only exacerbated my situation. I highly, highly recommend that you try it. Maybe not now since you're wanting to have another child, but when you're sure that you don't want to get pregnant, I would do it. It is amazing what it does for your skin and self-confidence.

No offense Abhishek17, but telling her not to be depressed and that stressing only makes it worse is not helpful nor is it fair. I understand when you (and people like you) say things like that you're just trying to help, but if we could control our emotions about acne, we would. Some people aren't bothered by it, and some people are. We feel how we feel. We can't help it.

Good luck, Nina. Feel free to message me if you have any questions about Accutane!

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Hi, thank you! I will.

I'm trying to to go a more natural route. I have been on so many antibiotics and creams that I'm tired. However I have not scratched accutane off my list. I'm scared it will make my depression worse. Right now my husband is working out the country. I decided to give it some time while my body regulates and then start trying.Although I wish he was here to support me during this time, I also do not want him to see me like this again. My skin while pregnant was not to bad. It was more scarring from before that bothered me. However 6 weeks after my son was born my skin went crazy. I'm thinking it is because I was breastfeeding and was put on the mini pill. The mini pill along with my hormones caused a severe breakout. Of course this made my post partum depression worse.

After my second pregnancy which resulted in a miscarriage, my dermatologist put me on Yaz. Yaz cleared me up until the last couple of months I was taking it, it for some reason stopped. Then I decided what's the point? My derm suggested to up my spiro but I refused.

If it does not clear up in a natural way, I will go on accutane after my next child. I can not let my acne take over my life anymore. It affects everything I do.

One question I had was I heard acne comes back after accutane. Does it come back worse? Why do some people take so many rounds?

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I can't wait until my last blog post reads "I love my face." I know how you are feeling, and kudos to you for having the patience to take the all natural route and seeing if it works. I don't blame you for feeling sad about having acne. It affects every aspect of our lives! It is not just a "small issue in the grand scheme of things." In fact, even after its cleared I'm sure we will look back and still feel that sadness and embarrassment that consumed our lives and robbed us of so much joy! I was in an accident that left me with terrible scars on my hands that resembles a burn victim, and rods in my collar bones that look terribly unnatural. I don't ever think about that, I think about my acne! Well both get through this, just stay positive and try to take it one day at a time. I feel your pain!

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Usually with accutane acne will come back for many of us (I am a 3 time failure of the drug in terms of remission) but not as severe. But acne is acne so it can be hard to deal with its return after being completely clear. Accutane alters how your skin functions as well as oil production. After a while off the drug, skin goes back to normal so hence the acne. Don't let that deter you. Usually topicals that did not work before work after accutane. I did the regimen after accutane and it made such a difference - i had to stop due to eczema.

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