This morning at 9 am I woke up with a small pimple on the right side of my upper lip. I squeezed it and got all the junk out really easily. I went back to sleep and 2 hours later was back to being clear. I guess this means I've been clear for about 3 days straight. Honestly, it's weird when I look at myself in the mirror now. I'm just completely shocked that I am not horrified by what I see. I wish I could say that everything is all better now. Don't get me wrong, I am beyond happy! This is the best I've looked in about a year and a half, but the emotional pain is still there. I still catch myself hoping no one is looking at me. I keep my distance from everyone and I always worry about my makeup coming off. I guess it will take time for me to get used to it. Although I am glad that the combination of birth control and Acanya and Atralin worked for me, I wish I took a more natural approach. I wish it never came to this. I feel guilty for being so harsh on my skin and putting so many chemicals on it. In the long run, it won't be good. I can't be on birth control forever and I'm sure that my dermatologist will take me off my other prescriptions in the future. I need to find a way to guarantee that the acne won't come back. So in the meantime I am going to be as healthy as I can: diet, exercise, and taking supplements. Hopefully it will be enough.