Well happy Christmas! I am typing this whilst warm in my bed, wrapped up in my new onesie and cup of green tea in my hand. I always thought that on christmas day i would jump out of bed and head downstairs, but no, this year it was set the alarm half an hour before 7 (when we are 'allowed' to go downstairs - family tradition) to put makeup on. Sad right? Its gotten to the point that i am embarassed infront of my own family about my skin. I cannot enjoy the 'comfort of my own home' (god i sound like my mother) without wearing makeup. I consider myself as a confident person who has never been afraid to tell people what i think so i am inwardly cringing acknowledging that the state of my skin affects me so much. I cannot eat the chocolate which i have been given as i am afraid it will make my skin worse. When we were watching pirates of the Caribbean i was closely analysing everyones skin to see any spot or scar. In the grand scale of things i know that i am being petty and vain and that there are much much much worse things in the world that people deal with than me and what i feel about my skin. But maybe, just once over this christmas i might be able to look in the mirror and smile...
Well, I hope i haven't put a huge black cloud over your christmas spirit with what turned out to be a rather self pitying rant! It wasn't intentional; I am not always like this i promise! I hope you all have a happy christmas time and please feel free to add me and talk to me as it would mean alot to know I'm not just a sad lonely girl overreacting (although i probably am!)
I'll talk soon;