Another tough day today. Technically no new breakouts but I found myself reverting back to my old thoughts. I didn't want anyone looking at me. I even had a panic attack today when the area around my mouth got really dry and I didn't have time to moisturize and reapply my makeup. I probably picked at my skin a little too much tonight and will probably suffer the consequences tomorrow or within the next few days. I also didn't eat very healthy today which can't be good for my skin. Although it has shrunk in size, I still have one active on the right side near my hairline. Luckily it's in a place that is very hard to see, but I know it's there and that is all that matters. The left side of my face still has those damned clogged pores on my cheek and nothing seems to get rid of them. So I have three red marks in that area. This is the worst my skin has been in for weeks. I keep hoping that it will disappear over night like they have been doing lately but for whatever reason, these are being really stubborn. I'm trying to keep my head up. I mean, this can't last forever...maybe by next week it'll all be gone. Next week can't come fast enough though. I'm supposed to visit my dermatologist soon to check my progress. I'm sure they will be happy with the results, but I'm not. And I am still to afraid to go makeup free at this point.