Not gonna lie, today was rough. I have to write a paper on media effects on females with eating disorders. It's really sad that it is so impossible to meet the ideal. According to studies, the ideal girl is 5'7 weighs 100 lbs, wears a size 5 and has long blonde hair and blue eyes. Well shit...I'm short only 5'1. And yeah I weigh 100 pounds but I wear a size 0 because I don't have hips. I'm not naturally blonde and if I don't wear colored contacts, I don't have blue eyes. So just because of genes, I can never be attractive according to media standards. Not having perfect flawless skin holds me back even more. I broke out today, probably my worst breakout in awhile. I have two clogged and swollen pores on my upper left cheek and two actives on my chin I'll put medication on it tonight but I'm not sure how fast this will clear up. I'm close to two months into treatment, I don't understand why this random breakout occurred. The only explanation I have is stress over finals and this paper.