Alright, I know I haven't posted in a while. I'll try to be completely honest with what has happened over the last nine days since I posted last.
Well... Things have kind of gone downhill. It's still stable. Like I don't care about leaving the house with it or going to the gym. But it's enough to embarrass me if I let it. But I'm not letting it get to me. Whenever I wake up and look in the mirror, I say, "Hey beautiful!" and smile and say all the things that make me beautiful! Then I convince myself that the acne doesnt matter.
And you know what? Acne doesn't matter to the people that care, and the people that care don't matter!!!!!!!! So I've been walking around with my head held high and my hopes even higher! I know I can get through this.
Although... I look back and I see that i've been possibly cheating a bit? By using the oil cleansing method!! SOOOO I've stopped that. I think the warm water was irritating my acne anyways. SO that means no make up as well.. For the past few days, I've only been using warm/cool water.
NOW! For the condition of my skin. Well, as I've said before, my forehead is the clearest part on my face... Now, it isn't so clear anymore. I've been getting white heads along my hair line (and I'm not sure if thats from shampoo and conditioner or not, which I try not to let run on my face in shower) and my forehead has broken out in clogged pores or whatwever. I don't even know what to call them. The texture sucks, and my forehead hasn't looked like this since I was a teenager. But, to be honest, it's been looking better the last few days.
MY CHEEKS! They keep breaking out in white heads. I've had a hard time not picking them, but I havent picked in the last few days so that seems to help a lot. Ummm... Yesterday I got like 6 new pimples and they are all white heads now.
- My acne heals like 50x faster. They come and go so fast, I can't even keep track of them.
- Also, my skin is naturally moisturized, and my fine lines are gone. MIRACULOUS!
- the skin without acne is clear and pretty and balanced.
- NO TIGHTNESS!! Thank fuck!
- I feel so liberated, it's amazing. I've never been so happy in my life. I've also never been so confident in years! I find myself walking around like my skin is clear!!!!!!!!!! I'm so proud of myself for how I'm dealing with this. And I haven't cried once.
I honestly feel like I haven't progressed as much due to my cheating and because I've been using water twice a day on my face. So tonight I decided I'm only going to wash in the morning after the gym with cold water, and splash 15 times (Like Marilyn Monroe) and hopefully work my way to not washing at all for 3-5 days.
I read on a thread this this guy was washing twice a day with water and found it irritated his skin, so he switched to once a day, then a few days apart and his skin got clear that way. SO that's what I'm going to do.
I still have tons of faith. I dream everyday of my face with clear skin and I know it's only right around the corner. I know I'm still doing the right thing with this. Also, I set up reminders on my phone to send me positive affirmations about my skin and health and body every few hours. Just to keep my mood happy and my mind positive. It's really working.
Also, a few changes to my diet. I stopped taking my hair skin and nail vitamin because I read biotin can cause acne (WTF?), and started taking bamboo silica cause my mom gave it to me but I didn't know what it did till today. I've also cut out legumes (chickpeas, lentils, etc.) from my diet because I've been eating too many of them (including carbs), and I've heard they can cause issues.
SO, that about sums it up. I basically have no social life, but it's only for a few months, so I don't care. I'm going to spend tommorrow night (Halloween) inside watching scary movies with my boyfriend (who is so supportive and amazing).
I Wish ALL CLEAR SKIN AND A SPOOKY HALLOWEEN!!!
P.S. Some positive affirmations: I love my skin. All the cells in my body vibrate with health, happiness, and beauty. I love clear skin. I love my body, my soul, and my mind. I take care of my body, soul and mind. I take care of my skin. I am healthy, and my skin shows my health.