I felt a lot better about my skin today, that is, up until my brother said "wow your face really is a mess"
He has mild acne and Proactiv has really been helping him. But when he was at his worst, I never said anything to him about it. He's one of those lucky kids that doesn't give a rip about his skin. At his worst, its like he never even noticed. I wish I didn't care as much but I do.
The sad thing is I think I could be really pretty if it wasn't for acne. I guess I am lucky that acne is the worst of my problems (physically anyway). Maybe this is vain but I got to thinking: would I rather look like someone else with perfect skin or would I rather look like I do even with skin problems? I honestly like the way I look. I don't want to change anything. I just wish I had nicer skin so my natural beauty could shine through. Please don't think I am vain. It took a long time for me to get to this point. I was voted ugliest girl in the class in middle school, even when I had perfect skin. I guess I was a late bloomer because after that everyone told me how much prettier I'd gotten. Even with my acne, I've had my fair share of boyfriends. I don't see what they see but for some reason boys think I'm pretty. I'll just have to take their word for it.
It's day 9 on Lerosett and I do think it's working but I'm a pessimist. Most of the active pimples have gone away, but my face is really scarred. It's going to take awhile for all the spots to fade. I'm afraid that it will come back before all the scars heal.
I would have liked to take pictures to show my progress because I feel like there's been a lot, but the camera makes it look like there haven't been any changes at all.