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How Acne Has Affected My Life



As a new member, I thought it would be a good idea to discuss how much my acne has affected me in my life.

In middle school and high school when the rest of the kids around me were getting acne, I never did. I suppose I took it for granted because I had no skin regimen whatsoever. Unfortunately when I turned 18 and started my first year of college, I got my first acne flare ups. I must have tried every over the counter treatment I could find at CVS: proactiv, clearasil, effaclar duo, all that jazz. Finally I saw a doctor about it but nothing they prescribed worked. In fact, one of the antibiotics they gave me gave me a severe allergic reaction. Anyways, since nothing has worked so far, it's really starting to take a toll on my self esteem. I am depressed all the time and often cry myself to sleep. Whenever my friends want to hang out, it all depends on how bad my acne is that day. I spend most of my days locked in my room afraid to come out. Honestly, I hate myself for it, but the thought of being out in public for all to judge scares me to death. Acne has screwed up my life beyond compare. I've lost many relationships because of it: because I don't feel like I measure up. All the boyfriends I've had try to tell me I'm still pretty, but how can they say that when their skin is flawless? So I dump them. It doesn't matter if they make me happy because they deserve someone better and prettier than me. If my acne were to go away, I think I'd finally be happy. And I would do everything I can to help anyone who suffers similarly because I know from experience how much it hurts. If my acne cleared up, I'd be more outgoing and have more friends and be able to keep them instead of pushing them away. Perhaps, if my acne went away, I'd be able to have actual fun. I wouldn't have to get up 2 hours early to put makeup on every day. Well I can only hope from here that things will get better from here because I'm not sure what I'll do if it doesn't. So wish me luck!!!


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My heart hurts for you love. I've been where you are and I still have days where I feel unworthy. As much as I hate to say it, acne is only a symptom of some deep seeded self esteem issue many women and men suffer from. With that said, try to work on you and do things that make you happy ( outside of your skin). We can't depend on our skin to dictate our happiness as acne can continue for years if not decages ( I'm 30 so.....) You are definitely not alone and your true friends and partners will not care about your skin as much as they care about you.

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Hi. I just wanted to reach out and tell you that you are so not alone. I could have written your post. It's so hard sometimes to face the day and hope you will not be judged on something that has NOTHING to do with who you are as a human being. The makeup, the relationship, going out based on your skin's condition... I'm struggling with all of that right now too. It's so hard when you feel like you're the only one.

I'm trying to be strong -- extra strong and try a game with myself: pretend like it doesn't bother me. LIke it's a fly that is just around and it's super effing annoying, but it won't bother me. I know it sounds weird, but I have to fight 200% just to go out some days, especially when I have cysts that actually do hurt. It's hard to ignore those.

I wish I had a fail-proof fix and answer for you. I just hope that you do find a treatment that works for you, and I think I understand what you're going through.

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