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kleen

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Welp, can't believe I'm back here. This really sucks. I'm feeling really awful right now. I've just recently this past week or 2 completely broken out all over my face. It's worse than ever, worse than it's ever been. Or at least that's how I'm feeling after a year or more with my acne kind of under control because of birth control pills.. Zarah! Which I had to get off cus they were making me nutty, but now I might have to get back on them. It'll take forever just to get semi clear, cus even with the pill I've never been completely clear, but definitely better off. Right now I feel like crying it's so bad. You know how it is, just when you think your skin is getting better..it gets worse..what is it mental or something. I hate this shit, and people who don't have acne have no clue what I'm going through, what we go through everyday. I know it sounds vein or something, but it really is awful. It's like a terrible disease that thrashes and ruins your skin..ON YOUR FACE! On what is supposed to be beautiful, my skin is completely ruined now.. I look hideous and will never recover because at 35 my skin is now aging and losing elasticity..and I'm starting to feel like a monster.

I feel like someone is going to say.. what happened to your skin and Im just going to break down. I don't know why this is happening to me. What sort of lesson am I supposed to be learning, and dammit after 14 years of suffering with acne you'd think I'd have learned it by now.

I'm not suicidal or anything, but I just don't feel like I can be happy with all these red, inflamed bumps ALL over my face.. and it's painful too..emotionally, physically, mentally. I'm so done with this shit.

I'm not even going to try to cover it up..I give up..fuck it.

What happened was I started getting little bumps all over my face..and well you know those don't just go away..THEY BECOME INFLAMED!!! They're literally everywhere, and I don't know what I'm going to do.

Every night I go to sleep I hope I'll wake up with clearer skin.. but hahaha yea right it just gets worse and worse.

I've been going through so much emotionally lately..this whole year. Broke up with my boyfriend on New Years.. that was the reason I finally decided to say fuck it to those damn pills..and I was feeling better and now this. I'm about to start school for nursing, and I really wanted to make it a great experience but now with all this acne.. I will undoubtely lose all of my confidence. That I had just worked so hard this year to rebuild. Even though with all the scars and bad skin look it isn't easy, but at least I didn't have all these bumps.

Welp I had to come back on here and get back in touch with the acne me..even though it sucks I'm glad I have this place at least to vent, and read other peoples stories. This place is a life saver.. I feel like if I write down my feelings maybe I'll feel a lil better. So far it's not working. I've been really unhappy and down on myself lately and this just really doesn't help.

Right now my skin feels on fire cus it knows Im talking bout it lol.. thatd be a good scary movie huh..killer acne that ruins lives.. oh wait true story... FML

Can't hardly be a pretty girl or beautiful woman with this awful damn Bill Murray skin..no offense bill murray you're wonderful..

this just sucks!!!!

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I think the moral of this story is that when you find something that works never stop the treatment just because your skin gets better. I can definitely relate because I have done that in the past only to learn the hard way never to stop treating. I have clear skin right now because of my experienced dermatologist. I use benzaclin, amoxicillin and tretinon plus tea tree oil skin clearing toner from The Body Shop. I always share my regimen just in case someone may want to try it. I previously had severe cystic acne all over my face. I had so many pimples at one point I could not even count them. At age 38, I know how you feel. It should be over already, right? But no such luck. I imagine I'll be treating my skin forever. My skin doesn't heal the way it used to which makes me terrified to stop treating my skin. Just take a deep breath, refill your birth control pills rx and see your dermatologist. Don't let acne ruin your life! Peace! Our hearts are with you!

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Thoughts are with you hun! It sucks to be an adult going through this. I am turnign 30 this year and acne is still going strong. I am on my 4th regimen after accutane failed me but hopefully that i will improve. I think you should probably try to find an alternative to BC if you can as they don't recommend you be on it past 35/40. If hormones are your issue, have you thought of Spiro? What are you using in terms of a topical. As i stated, i am on The Regimen from this website and i have seen improvement (not completely clear by any strecth of the imagination). You may want to try it. For many, it's been a relief - you have nothing left to lose.

There is also accutane as a last last last resort. There are options so see what works for you and keep your head up. You are not alone

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