Deja Vu! It's almost 2 years to the day that I started my first accutane log.
I have decided to log my second round of accutane on this site because my first log was so positive and uplifting for me as well as others who were going through their courses. I hope to have those same great vibes with this log as well. Don't get me wrong, I had posts that were simply "FML, I want to quit, this isn't working, hurry up already" posts where I just had to vent to get everything out, but that's when the most uplifting happened. I love this site.
I have also started a blog on this site in hopes to talk about skin care and beauty and life that doesn't necessarily pertain specifically to accutane but to those of us who struggle with acne in general.
So a little background if you don't want to go back and read all of the entries of my previous log (although I suggest reading the first post):
I am now 24 years old. I have had acne since I was 12 or 13. I've tried proactive, birth control, antibiotics, retin-a, creams, foams, skittles, m&ms, bubbles, rainbows,and sunshine. They all kinda worked but none worked perfectly or actually fixed the cause of the acne so when I would stop using them, the acne would come back..usually with a vengeance. So finally after going to the dermatologist for about 6 months or so, I was put on accutane due to persistent acne. My acne has never been severe. It's always been moderate to mild on my face chest and back depending on what day of the month and what I was using on it.
I had a pretty good experience with accutane, My body reacted well to it. The only side effects I had were headaches and pink lips. Believe it or not, I never really had dry dry skin while on it. I was totally clear and had flawless skin by the time I got off of it and stayed clear for about 8 months post accutane.
Long story short, after being on a 6 month course and having flawless skin for a while, my acne started to come back. I think I have been dealing with a bit of stress acne as well as just plain ole teen acne and a bunch of clogged pores for about 8 months now.
The thing that triggered the call to the dermatologist happened about 2 weeks ago, One day I realized I hadn't left my apartment in days and it was because I didn't want anyone to see me. Lately I've been getting more comments on the state of my skin from the people in my life and it really affected me. I have always been one to be perfectly fine with going places without makeup and glasses and wearing my natural hair in it's natural state being absolute natural me.. but I didn't even realize I was becoming depressed and avoiding social events because of my face.
I have been using an acne clearing face wash in conjunction with my Clarisonic Mia 2. I noticed a pretty decent improvement but after about 3 months, the improvement stopped and I realized that was a good as my face was going to get. That's when I started to get pretty bummed out. I talked to my boyfriend about it, he suggested I go to the dermatologist and see about getting back on accutane.
So here I am!
I mentioned deja vu earlier because it was 2 years ago that I started by first log/course and I am in a very similar situation as the last time. During my first course, I was on the verge of completing my last semester of college and going through stress of doing off campus clinic and taking the last classes (6) and applying to grad schools and just all the stress that goes along with life. Fast forward 2 years and I am on the verge of completing my last requirements to graduate with my master's degree which includes starting my off campus internship, passing my comprehensive exams, and applying for licenses and certifications and finding a place to do my fellowship...along with the stresses of life.. WEIRD!
I think I did a pretty good job at updating my log last time and I gained so much info and received so much encouragement from the log.
Here we go again!
I will likely log and post each of my posts on my blog and add some other things. So feel free to follow the blog if you're interested in those other things. =)
My posts will not be this long (maybe they will, but they won't be longer). Who likes to read? Not me!
Pictures! At the dermatologist's office yesterday (was using the front facing camera. Sorry for the lack of detail.)