I don't know where I went, why I thought I should end my attempt at clear skin. But I don't think I was trying hard enough. As angry as I am right now at everything, I'm blaming the world for how afraid I am to try and get rid of my acne. I have to understand I have it for a reason, there is some point to me being covered in massive inflamed zits and deep purple scars, across my face, cheast, and back. I have to pull myself together and look forward. For me to be succesful It's about more than skin, I have to change who I am. I don't want to ever be the person who drowns herself in make-up before she leaves the house. I want to find my confidence and feel good again. I am ready to REALLY do this.