So this halloween, i figured a costume that involved a mask would be best so that i don't have to wear makeup or feel too self conscious, boy was i wrong. I wore the mask to work because i work with kids so everyone dressed up. I wore the mask most of the day (i took breathing breaks) and i had a fairly good time scaring the kids and taking pictures. At night, we were having a halloween carnival at my job and i was assigned to do the lemonade stand with my crush at work
WHAT THE FUCK.
it was even more humid at night so i had to keep taking the mask off to breath (revealing my acne prone skin). He kept trying to make conversation but i was acting like a complete freak. I made zero eye contact, acted awkward, and kept trying to sound boring so he'd give up talking to me so that my self-esteem could endure less agony!
Let's just say it was a long night and i went home with my brother (who works with me) very very upset and sad. I felt SO defeated. When my skin is decent i'm so much more tranquil but when my skin is bad, i'm stressed. The embarrassment and self-loathing afterwards truly ruined my halloween.
Now I don't know how to act when i see him at work again...