After struggling with acne in the past million years, I am actually feeling a bit numb. I went out with a friend yesterday and I haven't seen him for a while. The first thing he said to me was, what happened to you? what's with the acne? I know he was saying it casually and it was probably a nonchalant comment, but to me, it felt like someone just slapped me hard. But surprisingly enough, it didn't totally destroy me. I still went out with him and tried to maintain a positive mindset. The thing with acne is, it really destroys your self-esteem and confidence. I see many gorgeous people with acne and to be honest, I still think they look beautiful, with or without acne. I guess we are our own enemies after all. I mean, I am sure my friend didn't intentionally made such a comment to hurt me or anything. And I am quite positive that, after our short hang out, he probably moved on with his life forgetting all about my acne. But here I am, sitting here, writing all about how he made a causal and nonchalant statement about my break out. How pity.
But having said that, it didn't totally destroyed me. I am keeping a positive mindset. I will still go out today, to run some errands, to follow my pre-planned schedule. I really don't want to be controlled by this nightmare. I will still keep hoping that someday, this regimen will work, but at the same time, I will not stop trying to be happy before that day arrives.
Anyways, enough of my emotional words, here's my progress:
Last week, I was having the initial break out I think. I got a few cysts on my forehead area and they just won't go away. My face was still oily hence the whiteheads. I have been trying to get rid of the whiteheads progressively, taking one side at the time. So far, I got rid of SO MANY whiteheads. Some came back though. I mean, it is quite difficult to clear everything all at once. In terms of actual pimples, I keep getting them last week - almost at least 1 or 2, big or small, per day. So that's my progress so far. There are scars on my face but I am really hoping they would go away soon. Sigh. Let's deal with this one step at a time.