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2 Months And 15 Days...

bparker58

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After struggling with acne in the past million years, I am actually feeling a bit numb. I went out with a friend yesterday and I haven't seen him for a while. The first thing he said to me was, what happened to you? what's with the acne? I know he was saying it casually and it was probably a nonchalant comment, but to me, it felt like someone just slapped me hard. But surprisingly enough, it didn't totally destroy me. I still went out with him and tried to maintain a positive mindset. The thing with acne is, it really destroys your self-esteem and confidence. I see many gorgeous people with acne and to be honest, I still think they look beautiful, with or without acne. I guess we are our own enemies after all. I mean, I am sure my friend didn't intentionally made such a comment to hurt me or anything. And I am quite positive that, after our short hang out, he probably moved on with his life forgetting all about my acne. But here I am, sitting here, writing all about how he made a causal and nonchalant statement about my break out. How pity.

But having said that, it didn't totally destroyed me. I am keeping a positive mindset. I will still go out today, to run some errands, to follow my pre-planned schedule. I really don't want to be controlled by this nightmare. I will still keep hoping that someday, this regimen will work, but at the same time, I will not stop trying to be happy before that day arrives.

Anyways, enough of my emotional words, here's my progress:

Last week, I was having the initial break out I think. I got a few cysts on my forehead area and they just won't go away. My face was still oily hence the whiteheads. I have been trying to get rid of the whiteheads progressively, taking one side at the time. So far, I got rid of SO MANY whiteheads. Some came back though. I mean, it is quite difficult to clear everything all at once. In terms of actual pimples, I keep getting them last week - almost at least 1 or 2, big or small, per day. So that's my progress so far. There are scars on my face but I am really hoping they would go away soon. Sigh. Let's deal with this one step at a time.



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totally understand your sentiments! I personally, am still trying to just accept the fact that i have acne and just have to continue on living life until it clears up. Its difficult but it shouldn't take control over me. I guess this is why these blogs are so helpful. To know that what we aren't alone in our struggles with esteem issues and confidence due to this pesky skin problem.

More power to you, and i wish you the best in your progress!

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That sucks man. Today I was at the eye glass store and they had those bright white doctor lighting in front of the mirror for people to try on glasses...oh boy I saw every red pit in my skin from scaring and it was grotesque. Next to the mirrors and glasses are of course posters of beautiful people with Photoshop skin.

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My complexion shocks me sometimes because I cant believe how clear and beautiful it is; after two years of serious prescription treatments working closely with my dermatologist. My advice to you both is, keep working on it. You'll get there.

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totally understand your sentiments! I personally, am still trying to just accept the fact that i have acne and just have to continue on living life until it clears up. Its difficult but it shouldn't take control over me. I guess this is why these blogs are so helpful. To know that what we aren't alone in our struggles with esteem issues and confidence due to this pesky skin problem.

More power to you, and i wish you the best in your progress!

Thank you and you too.. I think the toughest part about acne is not physical appearance but the emotions and stress that we experienced. And I agree with you, it's very comforting and soothing knowing that I am not alone to fight this battle. :) Having said that, good luck with your regimen!

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That sucks man. Today I was at the eye glass store and they had those bright white doctor lighting in front of the mirror for people to try on glasses...oh boy I saw every red pit in my skin from scaring and it was grotesque. Next to the mirrors and glasses are of course posters of beautiful people with Photoshop skin.

Oh man, I hate that too... I am still avoiding bright lights and huge mirrors, especially the ones at shopping malls or cosmetic stores. They enlarge my flaws and pores and thus lower my self esteem. I guess I would rather live in a lie not knowing the truth if I could escape from the ugly truth.

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My complexion shocks me sometimes because I cant believe how clear and beautiful it is; after two years of serious prescription treatments working closely with my dermatologist. My advice to you both is, keep working on it. You'll get there.

I'm so happy to hear that. :)

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Hey i'm new to acne.org but after hearing what your friend said my heart sank a little. Sorry for the language but that's fucked up. What happened to you? As if your a different person or something. I know he/she probly didn't mean it in a bad way but still that's pretty rude. I wish you the best of luck and I give you mad props for not letting it ruin your life. I'm currently a hermit, I don't leave the house at all with the exception of work.

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