At the end my first month on accutane I had the worst breakout of my life. I could not believe what I was seeing in the mirror. Accutane will fuck with your face, this stuff is not a joke. I had HUGE pimples all over the left side of my chin. I had pimples all over my right side too, they were just smaller and therefore less offensive. After every shower for over a week, these zits would leak out pus and blood, I have never had zits that were so large or took so long to go down. I suppose I should consider myself lucky that the breakout was only around my mouth and chin, my cheeks and forehead were essentially clear. I did not feel lucky.
(Day 35 is really ten days after Day 30...I had to wait five days for my month two refill)
Day 35: still recovering from the worst breakout of my life. I look like the leper character from Braveheart. Not okay. Luckily this breakout coincided with my trip home, so I am spending the week sulking at my parents' house.
Day 37: My skin is finally looking better. Today is the first day I don't feel sorry for people when they look at me. It's the first day I feel like my other features can compete with what is happening on the lower half of my face. I will say that aside from my zits, my skin is much softer than it was before accutane.
Day 43: My skin is still bad, but it looks so much better than last week so I am feeling okay about it. It has been sixteen days since my horrendous breakout. This experience has been a lot tougher than expected, not so much on my body (in terms of side effects) as on my vanity. It has definitely put a damper on my summer. I just keep reminding myself that this is an investment. 43 days is a long time, I should start seeing some results within the next month. I have a date tonight...I pushed the time back so that it will be dark out. I already canceled on him once, and then I lied about being out of town longer than I actually was. It will be so nice to not worry about what my skin will be doing on any given day.
Day 47: My skin has been pretty stagnant this week, I don't know why they are taking so long to heal the rest of the way. I have gotten a few new ones, but no more mammoth alien zits. I am still broken out on either side of my chin. My lip has cleared up quite a bit. I have a couple on my forehead and cheeks. I have one on my chest and three small ones on my upper back. The skin on my shoulders, chest, and back is the softest it has ever been; it looks really pretty and healthy (not counting the zits, of course). My chin wouldn't be so bad-- keep in mind that I have warped standards since my two weeks with 'leprosy'-- if the skin wasn't so red! I have started wearing make up again, which takes the redness down quite a bit. My skin is tolerable right now, I'm hoping it only gets better from here.
For the past month, when men look at me on the street I'm paranoid it's because of what is happening on my chin. In a more rational place in my mind I know it's because I am attractive, even with my acne. I don't feel attractive, though. I feel gross. Soon! It will be gone soon. I have less than two weeks left in month two, then on to month three. From what I've read, it seems that month three is where most people see serious results.
Day 51: My skin continues to look better... I got two new ones on my back, but no new ones on my face for the past few days. The existing breakout is still healing slowly. My lips have been especially dry this week, especially at the corners of my mouth. I apply aquafor obsessively. I have no other side effects.