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I might as well start at the beginning when i lived out in England i had not bad acne at all well so people said but i don't know just seeing red spots on my face i dint like so i thought i was ugly and never really felt i could love myself or go out and do fun things even though i had like maybe 5 zits but then when i moved to Canada it started to get bad i moved form a normal acne person to mild acne to severe acne once i got severe she put me on acctane instead of having me on some cream i forget the name but anyways that helped me out it stared to clear up but once i hit the 1 month mark it blew out to the doctor didn't know what the hell it was it was so bad i could barley see from the swelling and all that gross stuff i was taken off it and put on tetracycline hoping it would bring it down but after 2months it didn't do much while all this was going on i was out of school so that's 3 months out of school. She then got 5 major dermatologist to look at me they put me on a steroid pill to bring the inflammation down and they put me on 10mg of acctane from there its been going down but once i started to see it go down i started to see this could scar me bad and i talked to the doctors they told me at best i'd have scars like my dads and my dads scars are really deep and noticeable and to top it off im still out of school its been 5months now and during these 5 months I've locked myself away in my house and haven't really left unless my dad gives me a ride to the doctors for my appointments other then that i stay indoors and never come out and even while i'm writing this now i can't believe I've been doing that i don't want to do this anymore i want to be the funny happy guy i was before i want to play football and try and get that scholarship i want to go out with the girls who thought i was hot before i got acne but now i can't see that happening i haven't work outed out for 5months so i got no shot at a scholarship anymore and what girls are going to want me with bad scarring and what makes it worse is i'm ashamed of myself for getting acne for not working out for my life to be ruined like this is hurts me so much knowing i would've been something but now i can't i really hate this acne and whats its done to my life my dad doesn't talk to me anymore its like hes disgusted with me my brother laughs at me while he lives his dream of becoming a pro boxer and my mom the only one who really cares is half way across the world TBH i have been thinking about killing myself for awhile now whats the point in living if i no longer feel like my old self and ill never be as good as i once was it just kills me the whole reason i wrote this was for someone maybe to help me out i doubt you will be able to but i'm at my breaking point i've talked myself out of it for 5 months now and ill keep trying to stay strong but i really just need someone's input right now. I haven't even looked at myself in the mirror in 7months i can't even remember what i look like anymore...I'm so sorry for writing a big thing like this i know most won't read it but i tired to shorten it down kinda hard to shorten down a year of my life :L

Thanks for reading this if you did.. and plz no hate


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Hey there again.. i also thot of killin myself but then u live only once n i do nt wanna die lyk that. i was thinkin that even if i d kill myself, wud there b much ppl goin to my funeral..? wud they cry for me? im nt sua, but my parents told me there r ppl who r handicapped frm the moment they were born n yet they havnt given up life and still goes out to see the world. Hav u heard of the werewolf girl "http://todayhealth.today.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2012/02/23/9640657-happy-werewolf-girl-says-shes-proud-of-being-special?lite" All im sayin is that, ppl will get used to seeing ur face n they wont mind bcoz ppl can adapt to changes..(i hope u get that) anyway, try be that happy you n things between u n ur dad could work out.


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Fight to win do not give up. I was fighting acne for the last 20 years going through depression, missing a year of uni etc but there is hope for everyone please do not give up. We get to be born only once so you have to make the most of what you have got. I wish you find the right treatment for your problem. The only one that helped me was accutane. Scars are treatable. Do not kill yourself because it is bad manners to go to the other world uninvited:) Stay here, fight and have hope. I wish you all the best and hope one day you write a happy post on this website:)xxx

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I can totally relate to you and I think your severe acne is caused by an environmental factor, which you need to find out. When we immigrated to U.S., I didn’t have any acne on my face and I was 19 years old. But within a month, my whole face was covered with severe acne. I went to doctors, they put me on different antibiotics which worked for only a month or so, and again I had severe breakouts. Like you, I just wanted to hide from the world. For 6 years I had severe and painful acne until I figured out slowly (over period of 2 years) that it was all food related. I’ll tell you what was causing my acne and hopefully it’s the same for you. If not, you need to figure it out. Here it is: I found out I was extremely sensitive to Pectin, soy lecithin, xanthan gum, guar gum, vegetable oil, and orange juice (organic orange juice is ok, but if I drink conventional orange juice, within a week all my face is covered). In general, if you can, try organic food for a while, but don’t eat any products like organic jam or yogurt that have pectin in them. You can try Greek yogurt. Try to avoid all soft drinks for a while and drink plenty of water. Also don’t use any shampoos that are designed to eliminate dandruff. Anyways, hope this helps. Please let me know if you see any improvement. Don’t worry about scars. There are products out there that can help a lot, like revitol scar cream (which you need to use for a few months before you see any results). I know how painful this is, but know that you’re not alone. Please have hope.

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Thanks guys for all the words. I'm glad to know i'm not the only one going through this, What scares me the most is that ill be cured of this acne but be left with tones of scars that won't heal i don't for sure if ill scare but who knows. But i just wanted to say thank you and ill try to be strong i'm going to start posting pictures soon of results every week of me on acctane right now i'm on my second month so its not as bad as it was before but still pretty bad.

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