Acne blows, but I know it shouldn't control your life. I go to school, have a job, visit friends, interact with people on a daily basis and I have severe acne. Lots of lovely cysts on my cheeks. What is it about cheeks that make them such a great place for acne to hang?!
I noticed a change in my complexion and skin's composition about a month before college began when I was 18 and a half. Acne runs in my family so it made sense I would get it, but I thought I got lucky as my siblings showed the symptoms at an earlier age.
Well, it's been 4 and a half years and I still have it! The only difference is that now I REALLY have it.
I was put on an antibiotic in Jan of 08 and continued with it for sometime on and off. I went off and tried a topical antibiotic but soon went back to the oral one. Until this past November it worked pretty well. I was never completely clear (That should have been a sign that my acne was really serious), but it was manageable.
I was taken off the medication and after hearing about my last resort which I am not comfortable with taking, I am left will little. Not little as in acne, little as in options. My face has more or less exploded in large, red cysts especially all over my cheeks. The hard part is that I really don't look like myself. This is not who I am, and I want my identity back!
I used to be the girl who enjoyed putting on make up, doing my hair, dressing nicely to meet the day's challenges..yeah, well now all I want is some clear skin. I don't feel comfortable but at the same time I cannot waste my life away complaining and crying and wishing. Who knows when my acne will cease. It would be a year or 5 years. I was told I could have this forever.
That reminds me, I had a bad derm experience. No need to go into details, maybe she was just having a bad day (way to give her the benefit of the doubt), but she has made me cry after two appointments and I am no pushover. Just because I have a brain, do my research and refuse to put something into my body that may give me more kidney stones doesn't mean I am a hopeless case. Besides, I am thinking about if I catch pneumonia when I am older. What if I waste the antibiotics on my acne and cannot get well when I'm older. I hate my acne, the way it looks, everything about it (except I do think it makes some people stronger if you work at it) but I would choose life over a clear face.
So here I am, waiting for my bp to come in. I am on a dietary supplement right now that seems to be helping with the inflammation. I am also working to cut the refined sugars out of my diet. Maybe it's not the direct cause of acne, but there is no way sugar is decreasing it.
I strive to turn this ugly situation into something good and to not dwell on this problem so much. But sometimes I do get very depressed and find it hard to take my mind off of the problem at hand. But I know there are so many worse things in this world. We can still enjoy the beautiful weather, nature, friends, family, our pets as well as so many other things. My goal is to live well and to continue to change my lifestyle to eliminate the triggers of acne that might be in my control.
Best of luck to everyone!