SO, its been probably 2 months without a single blemish. Not. one. I'm over the moon. I feel like I'm finally seeing myself for the first time. Since I was 11 years old, I've avoided mirrors. I'd do my makeup in the morning (which was at least an hour long process, even when I wasn't leaving the house- I'd still wear a full face of makeup) and then try my best NOT to look at myself the rest of the day. Seeing myself in the mirror honestly depressed me, and a glimpse of myself was enough to bring down my mood for the rest of the day. Some nights, I'd just lay there and cry. I knew I was beautiful inside, but the outside didn't match. My skin made me feel like a monster, and I mourned that it was marring the real beauty I knew I possessed. Now, however- I'm actually seeing the person inside reflected in the mirror. I am going out without makeup, and feeling confident about it. I can see myself completely barefaced and I feel absolutely beautiful. It's really quite life-changing. I mean, people always told me I was pretty/beautiful etc. and I actually had quite a lot of interest from guys even when my skin was at its worst, but I couldn't see what people saw in me. This change is totally for me, not anyone else. Everyone else was able to see me underneath all the makeup and problems- but I wasn't. Now I am definitely starting to and it feels amazing.
Okay, so all that aside- here's what my regimen consists of: Spiro 25 mg daily, 1/2 Bactrim 800-160 daily, Acanya gel twice daily, Atralin at night, and I use CeraVe foaming cleanser and a 10% Benzoyl Peroxide wash. The Atralin (which is basically a milder form of Retin A) is doing wonders for my skin texture. I was afraid to use it back when I was still having a few blemishes/minor breakouts because I wanted to avoid the purging effect at all costs. I started using it about a month and a half ago though, and had absolutely no initial breakout whatsoever. In fact, I definitely think its even prevented any of the small blemishes I was still getting previous to starting the Atralin. I can definitely tell me skin texture improving and pores looking smaller, so I really look forward to the 6 month mark when you're supposed to see full results. All in all, I couldn't be happier with my regimen. My dermatologist and nurse were overjoyed to see me, they couldn't believe the improvement. Which is now literally 100% from where I was. I went from what I considered 95% broke out, both my face and body, with cystic acne as wall as non-inflamed comedones and cosmetic acne to 100% blemish free on both my face and body. Like seriously, 100%. For going on 2 months now. I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop and get a few blemishes around my hormonal cycle- but nothing whatsoever. The weeks went by and things just keep getting better. I really look forward to what this new year and new me holds!!