I have started taking a new sort of birth control in order to get Accutane prescribed eventually. I'm still hesitant about the medicine and as it seems this bc seems is doing a pretty good job by itself. or at least it seemed to. Acne find its way around as usual and is gradually coming back again now NEVER GET YOUR HOPES UP!!! I don't know how many times I've been disappointed now, probably hundreds of times during these 7 years.
I'm starting to feel like a walking disease. I had an appointment with my term a few weeks ago. Total waste of time. She offered me Accutane but also recommended me to try antibiotics (why?!) which I've already tried like 4 times before with no luck. I couldn't make up my mind whether i wanted it or not so she sent me home and told me to let her know once i've decided. Thing is, I'll NEVER MAKE UP MY MIND! Which i told her. I change my mind about it every other day. One day I'm a 100 % sure I'm gonna do it. Next day my acne looks a tiny bit better and I feel OK without it.
Is there someone I can go and talk to? someone who can help me making this decision? Making a list of advantages, disadvantages etc. Feeling and worries I have. Maybe they'll discover that I'm not strong enough mentally and the idea of me ever getting Accutane will be totally put off? I don't know what to do
I'm quite depressed and Im worried the medicine is gonna make it worse. At the same time I can't stand living like this anymore. I don't even turn the lights on when entering the bathroom because if I see myself in that light I won't make it outside the apartment. I don't wanna live like that any longer!