Today is day 1. I'm writing this blog to keep myself honest, keep myself motivated, and to start a "new life."
To explain my story in a few short sentences: I am currently 26 years old. I have suffered from acne since I was 12-13 and have taken 3-4 courses of accutane. My last course of accutane was when I was 21 or 22 I believe. I don't want to take it again, I want to find another method to control my acne. The accutane took care of the deep cysts, but I've recently developed (its got extremely bad) blackheads, sebum plugs, clogged pores, all over my face, neck, and back. It's more of a comedonal type acne, but its everywhere and many times it becomes inflamed. I also have a terrible time shaving. I get these plugs like sometimes fall out of the skin, sometimes never come to a head, and sometimes create a bump with white hardened sebum.
Anyway, I quit my job about 7-8 months ago. I was doing great as a financial advisor and loved what I was doing, however I couldn't take being in front of people anymore. My confidence was shattered and someone said something to me at work about shaving. I cold called people quite often, and for one of my appointments I set on a cold call - well... I drove 45 min, sat in front of the building, cried, and left. A few months later I quit my job. The following six months have been a mess. I cried, stayed in bed all day, watched tv, stayed up late, slept in, and cried some more. I wasn't really praying either, which has been probably the worst thing on earth that I could've done.
Last night I said the full Rosary. Probably the first time I've said it all in one sitting. Felt really good. Today, that prayer has given me the strength to do something about my life. I'm going to be a healthier, happier, better person. Acne is not going to control my life. My decisions and the Lord are going to control my life! Even though today I have breakouts and my face doesnt look "beautiful", I'm going to be me. I plan on updating this blog every morning when I wake up. This will keep me honest with the Lord, myself, friends, and family.