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Analyse That!

Ominous1

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I've always admired Barbara Kruger. Her work as an artist in the 1980-90s mostly consisted of giant billboards, such as the one above, with confrontational statements imposed over confrontational images. Consumerism, feminist critiques, body image issues, abortion, and rights were the subjects of her typographic genius. I've always wondered, from a psychological perspective, what actually passed through peoples' minds when they read them. Was it a situation when they were a jerk? Or when someone was a jerk to them? Did they swear to themselves that they would not be one that day? Do they just stare in confusion. Do they weep in penance over past misdeeds. Or do they just withdraw and ignore. I'd say it'd mostly be the last one. But I'm wondering, if they do, are they subconsciously nicer that day. Are they unintentionally friendlier and more helpful?

I always wonder how other people perceive acne as well. Do they shudder on the inside. Or have an empathic response? Many people say that having acne has changed their perceptions of others. I always imagine that people with/who have experienced acne would be less superficial. Especially when it comes to the skin of others. I mean freckles, eczema, dermatitis, vitiligo, would all be forgiven and understood a little more. Because they can relate to an uncontrollable skin issue. Maybe therefore they can relate to others' body image issues.

Wow, I think all this studying has made me super-analytical today. I've also decided that I need to stick to "the regimen" only my tailored version. Basically I've decided (based on past experience) that it will just be BP at nights, followed by AHA. If I have a particularly bad breakout it will be AHA for the day as well. I've done this in the past with reasonable success. However, the difference now is that I'll simultaneously cut-out dairy, and swallow some zinc and omega-3 (anti-inflammatories). So now you can read a blog that actually follows some sort of acne related regimen. Lol.

La la la. I get paid tomorrow. I love getting paid (who doesn't?) and it will be an extra large pay-check because we did first aid training a couple of weeks ago as well as my normal shifts. So I'm going to spend it on some clothes from the op-shop, (I need more summer clothes). And pay bills (whinge whinge whinge) and it should allow me to study productively at uni. What a big spender I am!!



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Dear God, It took me an hour of my life to post this. I even tried to do some hardcore html programming to resize the image, but no. I kept getting redirect loops. Does anyone know why? Is it just the title that screws it up or is it images as well?

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I got the redirect loop thing yesterday when I tried to post my blog and I don't know why because it was just text, nothing fancy. I finally got it to post by clicking 'save as draft', clicking on the draft then clicking 'publish'. I think some days blogs are just shy and don't want to be published for all to see.

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*Before saving as draft-> publishing I tried the usual rolling of head across keyboard and bashing with fists, of course.

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I definitely think that rolling my head across the keyboard would be a more effective and less painful method of posting. I might even try gently coercing the post out of its shell: "it's alright boy, you can do it" or "just put yourself out there sweetheart, you're gorgeous".

I'll try the "save as draft" thing in the future and see if it fixes the bug. Cheers. :D

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I always wonder how other people perceive acne as well. Do they shudder on the inside. Or have an empathic response? Many people say that having acne has changed their perceptions of others. I always imagine that people with/who have experienced acne would be less superficial. Especially when it comes to the skin of others. I mean freckles, eczema, dermatitis, vitiligo, would all be forgiven and understood a little more. Because they can relate to an uncontrollable skin issue. Maybe therefore they can relate to others' body image issues.

That whole perception thing pretty much drove me to a breakdown earlier this year. It was on my mind all the time and, honestly, totally freaked me out. I'd always thought that my dislike of myself and my displeasure at various things in my life would work out once my skin cleared. It'd spent twelve years or so blaming my skin for holding me back. The reality was, I eventually realised, that I had allowed it to hold me back and used it as an excuse in order to protect myself from my fears. I had a really good, clear period with my skin near the start of the year and, ironically, that was when all my anxieties and paranoia about perceptions and stuff kicked in.

Suddenly the thing which I had used to hold myself back and supposedly "protect" myself wasn't there anymore, but the other issues in my life didn't suddenly solve themselves. I realised it w as all down to me, only I didn't really know who "me" was, and I didn't have a clue how people really saw me either. Cue, major anxiety, paranoia, near-breakdown and loss of employment. Strange how the mind works sometimes...

For all the things acne has cost me and that I've allowed it to prevent me from experiencing/enjoying, I do think the positive is that I'll ultimately be a better person for it. There's just so much more empathy and understand in me which I wouldn't otherwise have had. And I just feel so much more in tune with the feelings of others and more aware of how to be be kind and good to people.

The negative side of it is how insecure it made me, so the main thing now I guess is to try and toughen up. I've always been sensitive anyway, but the acne just sends me into overdrive in terms of trying to work out how people perceive me, or in terms of trying to second-guess what people are going to say in case it's anything negative.

I kept getting redirect loops. Does anyone know why? Is it just the title that screws it up or is it images as well?

Don't know what the redirect thing is all about. It's the same in Chrome IE and Firefox so it's not browser-specific or anything that we're doing wrong when posting. It's been reported though, sure it'll get fixed eventually. Best thing to do is copy something before posting, just in case it doesn't work the first time.

Seems to be a few issues with editing comments (not saving the edit) and displaying emoticons (showing the code instead) but you can correct those by deleting cookies and editing again.

There still seem to be a lot of bugs around the boards in general after the upgrade, especially with posts crashing and picture comments vanishing. I guess it's a work in progress...

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Woah, this is pretty deep. I've got to admit I'm disappointed Om, this is far too analytical for the post-lunch stupor I'm (still) feeling at the moment.

You redeemed yourself when you reminded me that it's pay day today though, yay!! I love being paid. Now I can daydream about what I'm going to buy myself (top on the list is of course still a blender and a mixer for smoothies and baked goods, respectively)...

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By the way, I received no less than sixteen (16) notifications that you had posted a new blog entry. This was very exciting, until I realised that you hadn't actually posted sixteen times and then the disappointment set in.

On a completely unrelated side note, I find that saving my blog entries as drafts irons out any potential publishing bugs beforehand, and also allows me to view how the attached images are going to actually appear in text.

Also, thank you for confirming that it's impossible to resize an image on this thing, I might have to attempt to resize images beforehand so you evil zoomers can't view photos in widescreen.

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Ha ha, I'm so sorry that you were disappointed. I'll have to actually post 16 blog entries one day. Maybe just one sentence each, and together they actually form a story. That would be exciting.

I love being paid too, I wrestled with pensioners and some rather unbecoming folk to gain a couple of new shirts and shorts for $5 at my favourite op-shop today. Worth it? Hells yeah. A mixer for baked goods? So you stick your biscuits and cake in it and make biscucake puree. Mmmm, biscucake puree.

I have been previewing posts in an attempt to see if it's all working, but clearly saving as draft is the way to go!

I promise I'll make my next post extra full of gossip and funny anecdotes. There's no interesting fodder when I'm just sitting in a comp lab studying, sigh. I guess I could start making lengthy complaints on the fact that the person next to me had their music too loud. Or that they were eating chips too loudly, I think loud foods should be banned from SWOTVAC...Not to mention my bashful smiles at the ancient lunch lady in order to get more fish with my chips.

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Paul: It's so true. I've certainly spent a lot of time blaming the condition of my skin on why I'm shy or awkward or not self-confident or pessimistic; whatever negative behaviour I seem to demonstrate in my life. Even though my skin isn't even that bad, in fact at it's worst it could only be classified as mild. There's an interesting theory in psychology by the name of cognitive dissonance. It's the idea that we minimise dissonance because we're uncomfortable holding two conflicting ideas simultaneously. So we can't hold the belief that acne is causing our problems, and the belief that our problems would still exist without acne. So as to minimise dissonance, we irrationally justify everything as being caused by acne even if it is objectively obvious that it isn't. We are then biased to see our acne as more severe, or problematic or annoying than what it actually is.

Another example is the idea of wanting to live a long life and smoking. People justify smoking by the "Well, I've got to die of something" argument because it lessens the dissonance between the conflicting beliefs.

That's just a theory though. But yes, saying all that, I'm only now more concerned with the other issues rather than acne. But I can totally understand obsessing over it and how that would effect your life. And I think that having been through it all has given me a better perception of others. I think I'm less superficial, and in some ways a better person because of it. I can certainly understand body image issues and see beyond how people look. Well at least I like to think I do.

Are you finding CBT helpful in dealing with it all?

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I don't understand a word of any of this, except for the "more fish with my chips' statement. I understood that bit. Yup.

Om, I'm not sure if I fully agree with your claim to see beyond how people look. I personally think it's impossible. I don't place too much emphasis on peoples looks (you should see my ex boyfriends!) but thats not to say that someone's appearance doesnt make some sort of positive or negative impression on me. But when I say appearance, I don't mean if someone is good looking or not, just about their overall impression, their way of holding themselves etc.

Its the same old story, the more I find someone interesting, the more attractive they appear to me.

Ps. Yes, the 2,800 notifications saying that you had posted a new blog entry was a little over the top, considering you had posted just the one. Next time you build up anticipation in me like that, at least make it a blog entry thats a little more low brow. You know.....with less complicated sentence structures, themes and big words.

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That's true, it probably is impossible. But I wasn't necessarily talking about being attracted to them. I'm still friends with ugly people. I guess that's what I was getting at. I'm less likely to dismiss people based on their looks. And yeah, I guess that extends to relationships as well. I'm totally with you, if the person has an awesome personality than they just seem infinitely more attractive than someone who isn't. But then they have to be at least slightly attractive to me to begin with. Although I think guys tend to emphasise looks more. I mean have you ever seen a male celebrity date an ugly woman. But the opposite happens quite a lot (although you could argue money is valued more by females in a partner than males).

Ha ha, I know, I intentionally did it. Just to frustrate you all.

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Are you finding CBT helpful in dealing with it all?

In an attempt not to complicate things or use big words... yes. ;)

The one-to-one sessions certainly helped me start to think about my behaviours and negative thought patterns I've put in place. I've used those to hold me back all this time. I've got my first group session in a couple of hours. Bit nervous but I'll give it a go. I'll probably come back feeling really inspired, excitied to do more and wondering what all the fuss was about! :lol:

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I'm still friends with ugly people.

Quote of the decade anyone?? ...And he's doing psychology?! *headdesk*

I think there has to be chemistry, definitely. And for me that probably comes from a combination of intelligence, confidence and a heafty dose of witty banter (I need someone who challenges me and laughs at/with at least most of my ingenious puns), and physical (probably mostly biological) attraction (I want someone to *ahem* stimulate me). Which is where appearance comes in, I guess.

Confidence does have a huge influence on me (again probably biological), which can be a problem with people who are fighting their skin (or other various mythical) demons. The "looks" thing is tricky, because different people find different attributes attractive (thank god). For example, some guys like slimmer builds, others like girls more curvy (bah!). Some ladies like 'em rough and others prefer them... groomed... And we're all a little (*cough*) vain at times, but I think generally we're a lot harder on ourselves than others.

There are exceptions though; I honestly can't think of any instance that I would find a man with a mullet attractive!

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There are exceptions though; I honestly can't think of any instance that I would find a man with a mullet attractive!

I reckon it worked for David Bowie. Not that I fancied him or anything. Honest. :shifty:

I might try a mullet one day, scale things back as I slowly but surely become an old man. Or, I could keep it and then defiantly try and hang on to my youth by gathering it all into a ponytail which would inevitably get tighter and tighter as I get older and my hair gets thinner. :lol:

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I reckon it worked for David Bowie... I might try a mullet one day

Ewww, don't do it Paul! I would have to stage a hair intervention. A Hairtervention.

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Ever get that feeling where, the more people tell you not to do something, the more you want to try it? Mmmmm... where did I put those scissors? :P

Nah, as if I'd ever do that. I need my hair, keeps my ears warm during the winter! Plus it's about the only bit of me that I actually like, I'd be stoooopid to get rid! :lol:

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Ba ha ha, I definitely will never make the most politically correct psychologist (if I even become one). I'm far too honest. But you know, Skinner wasn't particularly nice either. In fact we liked to electrocute and ice-pick parts of peoples' brains for the first half of the last century. So I'd say I'm comparatively nice and civilised compared to those people.

Confidence is totally sexy. But it has to be in the right way, and they can't be cocky or overly forward. Which is why (random) drunk women trying to hit on you is a massive turn off. *stumbles over, tries to grab your hand* GET OFF ME!!

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Om's psychologist style: "Shit you're ugly, but don't worry, I still condescend to be your psychologist".

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I have a problem with being a tad too blunt sometimes as well, but I'm not looking to counsel people for a living :P But yes, in comparison to lobotomies and such, you're a real darling.

Hahaha you have random drunk women trying to hit on you? Most guys would be pretty happy about that! Unless this was in the Boundo? It was, wasn't it...

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Yes, you're right, most men WOULD be pretty happy about that. Om's such a contradiction. Do you think he's real, unblvbl?

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Lol, yes, but no, once at the blues fest, and I was sober and with a giant group of friends. I mean it's flattering if it happens but it's always really feral women, total bogans, that are like that. They'll latch on to anything that has a penis. I'm not really one for drunken hook-ups anyway. Probably due to my ultraconservative upbringing.

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I'm still not convinced that he is. Or perhaps he is a woman pretending to be male in order to disguise her identity?

I tend to attract significantly older men, or occasionally a drunken, misguided man who's more often than not a little bit sweaty. It's all a form of flattery though, and I find it quite amusing hearing their attempts at pickup lines, if they try them. Alas, the era of hilarious pickup lines seems to have waned a bit though.

Ultraconservative upbringing?

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I wish I would get picked up by significantly older men. I get lumbered with the young-uns with "well you're still younger than my mum, so thats ok" chat up lines.

Ultraconservative upbringing - praise be.

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Haha you can have the old codgers! The whole "George Clooney" thing is good in theory, but in reality it's less than appealing being approached by someone twice my age, haha! Ah well, at least they always offer to buy you a drink, which is nice I guess. Not that I take them up on that offer, I'll have you miscreants know :P

Aaah... Praise be Jesus? Allah? Om*?

*Terry Pratchett = Legend.

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Yes, I am definitely a middle aged women.

Ultraconservative upbringing - praise be.
Ba ha ha exactly. Alright I'll probably overshare a little here, but you know, I am overly honest.

My parents are christians. Not just the "we go to church on Easter and Christmas" type, my parents scoff at those varieties, they're the hardcore pentecostal fundamentalists. So I spent most of my upbringing in churches and around christians. We'd go to church generally about three times a weekend. Youth on friday, church sunday morning and night. My parents are elders and worship team/cell-group leaders, of a hardcore pentie church, so they're standards of living and morality are insane.

The little christian school that I went to for primary school was really lovely. Only they were the last school in the state to abolish the cane. They believed to "spare the rod was to spoil the child". This was in the 90s!! Thankfully I was a good child, so I was never hit. But the principal used to make us march, every morning, while reciting bible verses. Harry Potter was considered demonic. Pokemon, a definite no. The Simpsons was corrupting our childhood, and rock/pop music was certainly evil.

So I've never seen my parents drunk. They don't swear either or watch inappropriate TV or movies or listen to inappropriate music. My mum sings in tongues, only reads christian books, and listens to Vision FM exclusively. My dad is a little looser, and watches TV and has started getting back into the music of his youth (Zeppelin, etc). But their expectations are fairly crazy. My sister once tried to bring home her bf, who she was living with, and he had to stay in another bedroom. They also threatened to kick her out, for getting a naval piercing. They were very restrictive on what we should and shouldn't do, can and can't do. We're not supposed to date people that aren't of our faith. Well it's definitely frowned upon.

So needless to say, some of my values are still influenced by them. I can't really drink without feeling immensely guilty, and/or do many other things.

Disclaimer: Christianity has some wonderful teachings, Jesus said some pretty amazing stuff, but it does have its shortcomings. My parents are also wonderful people. Some of the kindest you'll ever meet. And they're often people that others turn to, when their lives are falling apart. Our house is like a drop-in centre. And given that we're in the low SES bracket in a regional area, I can imagine that I would be out on the streets half-dead/ and/or stuck on the dole/drugs with children, like my contemporaries, without some of their ideals.

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